tonight i went to the alps

someone at work gave me free tickets to see an imax (THE ALPS) movie so shawn and i went...now i wanna go to switzerland...add that to my list of places to see.

weird night with shawn...his new BF is a bit of a whacko we are thinking...jury is still out though...

congrats to Michelle B for the new job! u fucking rule!

Happy Birthday Richard....not only is it his b'day but hes off on a trip through europe for the next 2 weeks!!!! NICE! Have a great time! u fucker! TRAVEL BLOG

gawddddddddd

theyre making me wait 2 MORE weeks to find out about this friggin permanent position.

CONGRATS TO PAULINE B for getting herself a SWANKY PAYING NEW JOB after 8ish yrs at home with kids! well done sister!!!

prozac chowder soup

Why must he emit such beauty? -->

I have got to go to costco and buy a VAT of evening primrose oil capsules....my head is all over the fucking map...it irritates the shit outta me as im generally fairly together even if im in a piss poor state of mine but this laughing one minute and bawling my head off the next is just fucking stupid.

I think the impending DATE that is approaching may not be helping either...I really miss my brother...I cant believe next month it will be 8 yrs he is gone. I am amazed by my own non belief of this considering its been THE worse thing to ever happen in my little sphere of world. I recently met one his and Kim's friends they grew up with, Loren, and I think its tweaked me out. I look at Loren, who I have heard about forever and feel like I know and I cant help think that Glenn would have been a grown up now...full fledged...he'd be 32...he could have been married or making babies...he would still be calling me names for getting 3rd row floor Tool tickets last year....it is all so fucking depressing. (DO NOT COMMENT IN THE COMMENTS PLZ, I don't need a pat on the back and a hey hey I just need to blurt)

Hows that for 6 am?

I am hungry...need to buy some stuff to make smoothies out of all this gross yogurt in the fridge. No more welfare yogurt purchases....I've sworn to Ayla, no more cheap yogurt haha

This book im reading is a trip: THE BOOK
im just a little way into it but it already makes me stop and go Hmmmmmmmmmmm

I am reading 3 friggin books right now....decided to tackle the DANCE OF ANGER book again (all male readers just cringed right then)...the feminist part of it is a little redundant, I do not have a problem EXPRESSING anger b/c i think i should be a delicate flower for all men to devour (haha) quite the opposite - I just need to be more mindful of where its coming from so as not to rip the nards off certain ppl in my path (I'M SORRY, you know who you are haha)...I am a chronically pissed off person...how do you morph that shit into something productive? That is the question. We could get into where it stems from but i don't have all day here hahaha

My trainer person yesterday spoke to me yesterday like I was a dumb child and I wanted to punch her in the face. I have trained a shit load of ppl and I do not expect anyone who was told something 2 months previous ONCE to remember how to do it or really even what its for. So I am gunna spend ALL my spare time reading manuals at work (even though they are really poorly set up and presented) and the policy book...just to spite the universe. And that stupid twat that started with me...gawd i wanna whack her with a mallet too...just cuz. I hate everyone, except old man Dan beside me, he is the only smart person in that joint. We talk about books, we is smrt!

...

I can not think of one thing to say

sex pistols on a sunday

god save the queen alright....woot woot!

omfg i had a dream about Bruce last night...i think bc Arika and I were talking about him last night when she was here...
i was on a bus and he got on with a baby in a cardboard box...and he was being all standoffish and shit being a twat and i was holding the box the baby was in and was horrified bc it wasn't comfy or safe so i offered him the Snugglie I had from when Ayla was a baby (I still have it in real life) and he refused it.....i was really pissed off in the dream and contemplated taking off with the kid in the box (same as I contemplated running off with his daughter Ashleigh in 1991)...woke up pondering that for a while...analyzed the shit out of it...then call blocked my # and called his to make sure he was still alive....he answered so i hung up. HA!

so hes alive and still a dumb fucking asshole...some shit never changes.

had a good night with Arika last night...we dined responsibly (that means we didn't eat bread HA HA HA)...and i scored the COOLESTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT jesus on cross LED lights!!! those are so going in my room!!!!! Thank you Arika! I am impressed she was able to part with them.....

Maggie is picking out baby names and Aunty Pam is poo-pooing her initial options hahahaha Aunty Pam is fun sometimes!

Talked to my wee sister this morning....she called me a loser but I didn't take it personally haha We talked about deer meat, her bow & arrow, and Ayla visiting next summer...I think it would be great...her and Rob so a lot of fun shit so it would be good for Ayla to go bond with her aunty and do some cool new things.....

I really wanna go see this today CLICK HERE
I wanna laugh...today feels like a solo movie day...Ayla doesn't get how I can go to movies by myself...but...it is actually quite enjoyable...I sit where i want...I can cry and blubber all I want...I can sit at the end and watch all the credits...or bolt if I want...I could ultimately molest myself as well.....hahaha

I just weaseled in on 4 loads of laundry in a row!!
Now I know today is gunna be a good day!

pictorial even for the day

Mad Dog Davies....who would have thought this little cherub looking creature would get yellow highlighter all over my couch? Just so u all know, it comes right out! haha

Hello? I am calling from my wooden cat toy, can you send over some couch cleaner PRONTO!?

..and the heavens opened to reveal mac n cheese with just the right amount of ketchup......

Hello, my name is Jen and I've lost my glasses so now all the bags under my eyes show. Thank you for looking.

Deanna...these booklets you and I used to make 4 each other and exchange are now my coffee table reading for company...they get great reviews haha

the cat on HIGH ALERT with the cherb baby around

Oh yes hello...can you send over some Midol for my Aunty Jen please?

if u are not swallowing the solution you are part of the problem....

I love that line.

hahahaha

ask me why im up at 6 am on my day off?
my uterus is the devil and my pelvis feels like its about to blow apart...no fucking shit...it feels like im giving birth.

speaking of giving birth...cousin Maggie is EL PREGGO!!!!!!! now while i do not advocate spawning at the moment (haha) this is great news for Maggie who has wanted to be a mommy for a long while.
congrats!

now, who wants the thing i feel like im about to birth right now....anyone??

friday is the real hump day

the cat has taken to sitting on the back of my computer chair and biting at the towel i have on my head in the AM.

it is somewhat amusing.

i need to find the kitty clippers and declaw this little fucker...a trim is in order, shes getting caught on everything...i guess it has been a while since we held her down and did the deed.

tonight shall be pure bliss...i fucking love friday nights...i love knowing i have 2 days of freedom...fridays are a party even if u do nothing but play facebook scrabble or watch a movie in the dark by yourself ~ there is a pathetic image for you - plenty more where that came from too, dont get me started...

ive been contemplating the roomie for a month thing and humoring myself over the fact that i make offers such as this when in all reality the last thing i want is an intruder intruding in my solitude that is home...but im a sucker for ppl in a bind, esp if they have crazy mothers and are trying to set themselves up, it is tough and wtf, a month if inconvenience for me is no big deal compared 2 the $ they can save to get their own place living rent free for a month...it is near impossible to save to get a damage dep and 1st months rent if u are paying rent elsewhere.

we shall see how i feel about being so altruistic half way through next month hahaha

pubicle gossip

it is nearly fridayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!! woooohooooooooooooo

i can smell a smell in my house and can not determine its origin...its not a bad smell...just not familiar.

saturday night Arika is coming over and we are gunna sit and look at the elliptical and whinge about being fat...we may even be eating something bad at that very moment.

did i tell you im having a house guest in Oct for the month? should be interesting as u all know how i love to wander the house half dressed to stay cool. hahahaha poor kid, will probably stroke out the 1st week. hahaha

richard in the uk has a cold...lets all gather around in a circle....hold hands and will it to be completely gone by Sept 20 when he & neil leave on their holiday to train around europe........

doesn't that make u die inside...the idea of cruising around europe? omg...it gives me a complete and utter boner. i look fwd to all his photos and funny stories...and adventures with the rubber chicken.

ohHHhhhhHhh 3 paydays in october.........WOOOHOOO!!!!!!!

i should find out next week if i got the permanent position at work...will be weird if i don't bc ill be looking for work at work and its totally allowed...even if i have interviews they let u go do them and u still get paid...unions are so wacky!

Oh nevermind

it is because I was a nazi in my last life.....

Goddess grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change...

WHY AM I BEING PUNISHED?

sometimes....

it isn't until you are up late with freezing cold feet that you realize how alone you are in the world...the ultimate futility in that conscious/unconscious search to seek understanding and connection, someone to lean on when the load gets to be a little too much, someone to sit on the couch with...sometimes its nice to do nothing with someone.

to use a recent quote from a movie...i am sucking the cock of karma this week in the parent dept...
all the shitty stuff i did as a kid, regardless of the fact i still feel much was justified, has come back to haunt me....it is disappointing and disheartening...this woman i nannied for once when i was 19 or 20 said something to me that ive never forgotten....that being a parent is a thankless job...truer words were never spoken.
thats all im saying on that topic.

i just ate thing full of gummy sour candies and i don't even like sour gummy candies.
i have tomorrow off....i am sleeping in...i am watching my loser daytime shows and then Aunty Leslie is coming over for dinner....and to hang out a little.

can not feel feet...must go get warm....

Aunt Flow, you can just fuck the hell off...

Ohhh yes interviewing tomorrow form the permanent position spot at work, bright and early at 9 am, right smack in the middle of PMS time....my hands today feel like itchy balloons...my legs and feet are dead, headache....ohhh yeah im gunna be drugging myself up shortly. I spent the morning seeing off Mel, Kelly and baby Maddie, then fell asleep on the couch til noon (eek!) and have been working on my answers for tomorrows interview ever since. They are pretty much the same as last time so im not worried about it, i am smart enough to know its already decided if im getting the job or not so if I do not I will be rather mortified and promptly looking elsewhere within gov't before my January 2009 auxiliary position is done.

Last night me, Mel, Kelly and Marc went to see the Pineapple Express again...again for me, they were virgins. Gawd i laughed......and laughed....the quotes from that movie....


War is upon you! Prepare to suck the cock of karma!
~
Angie, you're a fucking idiot. I say that with love.
~
Saul: Just sit back and get ready to enjoy some of the rarest weed known to mankind. [he lights a joint and inhales]
Dale Denton: It's really that rare?
Saul: [exhales] It's, like, the rarest. [he examines the joint] Saul: It's almost a shame to smoke it. It's like killing a unicorn...with, like, a bomb.
~
Red: [points to his armpits] You see these? There's no hair under here, bro.
Dale Denton: What is the significance of that?
Red: It means I'm aerodynamic when I fight.
~
Saul: [telling Dale to smell Pineapple Express] It's like God's vagina!
~
Red: [Red regains consciousness after shortly passing out from his wounds] I'm like the nerd at the sleepover who fell asleep at nine.
Dale Denton: It's okay. We won't put our dicks in your mouth.
~
I am so sluggish today.. I think tara is supposed to come over tonight but i dont recall....I will be a bundle of FUN! hahahaha

Sept Issue

http://www.bcmusicianmag.com/docs/issues/BCMusician08.08web.pdf

 

 

suck it...

apparently im a gramma and must go to bed at 10-1030 to not feel like a sac o' poo in the morning.

 

fucking great.

i hate the bus

I hate the bus when school is in...
This morning between students, and mothers with fucking strollers taking up 40 seats each and stupid ppl in general they should all be glad there wasn't a fucking blood bath. I especially love the ones who just wont move twds the back of the bus as it fills...i had my headphones on and this spaced-out looking twat would not budge until i yelled at her..."Do you think you could MOVE?" Do u need a fucking written instruction book to follow obvious bus protocol you stunned fucking cunt (oooo c word alert...) omg...I got off the bus early to escape the stupidity...I will give it one more shot tomorrow and if its gunna be like that everyday i think i am just gunna leave earlier and walk the 40 mins and enjoy the solace of not being on a crowded bus.

Same thing trying to get home...when a bus finally did show up (i waited 35 mins for a bus that is scheduled to come every 15) there were 398475983475983475983475 ppl at every stop so i was forced to sit by this crazy fucking lady...i was listening to a Matt Good/Tony Peirce podcast and this old freaky lady was ranting about the bus driver being a liar, and how the bus was LATE and how shes gunna complain to the phone company about it (wtf?)...go at it girlfriend...
the bus was full of Asian students and they all seemed oblivious to the bus protocol as well...."Excuse me" is code for MOVE OR I WILL FUCKING PUNCH U IN THE THROAT.

Work was its usual bs self...the politics are really starting to become apparent now and i refuse to partake...i just don't care enough...not only is this job unfulfilling on many levels im just there for a pay chq so....whatever.
Once i have mastered this job I will be moving on to a different dept/ministry.

After work i strolled downtown to the post office to mail a package...HA HA HA the guy in front of me was sending a GIANT moving sized box to the UK....so i was listening to see what they charged him cuz mine was so much smaller....yeah 120.00 surface and that takes 38475983475 yrs or 250.00 for 1 week.
I near shit my pants for that poor bastard...
Til it was my turn...they wanted 80.00 for mine....JESUS CHRISTTTTTTTTTTTTT...the guy was nice enough to tell me to take it home and split it up so it would go as a small package...so thats my goal tonight...split it up into 2 and it should be cheaper. Fucking robbing bastards.

Can u tell im in a shit mood? Yeah, I am. I blame the cunt on the bus this morning...oh and the fact my direct supervisor is a useless turd. When I have Q's I like to spread em around so I am not overwhelming one person etc...but I am not going to my s'visor again unless im desperate bc she sends me on wild fucking goose chases that end up being irrelevant to my initial question...If I go to the reg. staff I get much more direct answers and better training to boot. It is weird not being the boss...I don't wanna be in charge of anyone - don't get me wrong - but it is really weird.
Weirder not knowing everything either...haha What an egomaniac! Maybe i should be a boss again just in a different field...where I am not working with idiots...but really...how realistic is that? ha!

Ive been anally raped and violated by the school fees rolling in...and its just begun for the love of gawd! I am not sure *free education* is the correct terminology anymore. She seems to like her new school so far...has kids she knows in most of her classes so shes not a loner...except in english but thats not too bad...

I made some weird bean creation for dinner tonight...should make 4 an interesting day tomorrow...that will be my BUS REVENGE MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Did i tell u guys the shit Shawn made me listen to on the trip to PR? 1st it was some hideous gangsta rap crap...then some hideous new zealand pop music...they he had a learn to speak french cd in...i can not tell you how fucking putrid that was....
on that note....good night folks!

my foot in the appropriate place....

Well...I was thinking about it...I don't foresee another wedding in my near future...seeing that I assume Ayla will have the sense to wait that out for quite some time...

Today was another day at work...nothing life changing. Ayla's 1st day in HIGH SCHOOL (OOH LA LA) went well today...she's happy with the classes she got and the ppl in them...loves the new school and the "grown up-ness" of it. We bbq'd little pork chops in teriyaki tonight for dinner with a salad, she thought she was eating LAMB for some reason which puzzles me as to why she ate it willingly...BARF!
Eating lamb is up there with eating rabbit and possum...why would you if there is pig and chicken available?

Why is it so hard to find a clicky keyboard nowadays? I mean i don't want to pay 80.00 for a friggin keyboard with high keys...theres NO fucking reason they cant sell 20.00 versions with high clicky keys....you don't get it ~ do you? Well im not gunna explain the intricate workings of my keyboard needs here with all you clueless bastards so just forget it...Ayla gets it, thats all that matters. If anyone has a black clicky high keyed keyboard wit intact little elevation feet they dont want ill trade it for the 20.00 brand new Microsoft one i just bought that has flat keys.



- Damien Rice Lyrics

Weekend Wedding

Ohhh Maddie...how can u look so cute and not be eaten by everyone around you?
I basically took pictures of my kid and Maddie ALL weekend bc I couldn't stop looking at either of them....Maggie (bride) and Kelly (my cousin, sister of bride) looked rather stunning as well...their hair and make up was fab...and so relaxed...one good point about having an evening wedding is you have the whole day to prep and not spazz out.

Maggie and David and helper Maddie going through the loot!

My stunning offspring....

Maggie & David, bride n groom

mmmmmmm cake!!!!!!!!!

Erika & Matt

Maddie and Ayla...spinningggggggggggggg

Ayla DESPISED her dress but we ALL thought she looked lovely in it so shut up Ayla!

Lovely Kelly...being a goon!

Shawn & Ayla...does it look like Shawn has a bottle of wine in his jacket??? That time i dont think he did but....more on that later hahah

I shaved my pits for maggie's wedding!

Work til 11 am
Then me and Shawn are hitting the road...hopefully we will not be killed in an earthquake as it has been VERY active the last few days....I still haven't felt one but i don't wanna either.

Did I ever tell you Shawn has gay mans taste in music?? OMG help me it will be terrible ha ha ha
Patrick and Rich will stay here this weekend and be sure the cat doesn't commit suicide off anything lethally high...Rich really loves the cat so that will help as the cat attacks him and drives him mental as he tries to sleep.

Is there no school supply list in high school? Have I forgotten this? I cant find one for Ayla's school to save my life and it just occurred to me that may be bc there isn't one hahaha I hope thats the case!

I am fucking starving - there is no food in this place...Ayla - i promise we will get groceries on MONDAY!

he loves me, he loves me not

anyone still do that to poor defenseless flowers?