Spazz

-I am too unsettled to write.

- Wedding was GOOD...Kori & Mary are hitched...fun time!

-I miss the hotel pool.

-My kid hates me b/c I don't want her kidnapped by a Mexican Crime Ring and forced into human trafficking/international prostitution...I can live with that...

-I am tired...

-OMFG my Rick Springfield memoir arrived and I am LOVING IT!!!!

-Friday I have to attend a sex toy party...have I mentioned I loathe such events? I must really like Alex!

-After that Donna and I have plans to go rock it at Logan's - ROTTERDAMMMMMMM WOOOHOOO!!!!

-Fuck Donna leaves for Australia for 1 mth Nov 2....POUT
-I stole some cool shit from the hotel: shampoo/conditioner & plastic Days Inn cups....OHHH YEAHHHHHH

According to Amanda F.

Donkey

To see a donkey in your dream, represents your stubbornness and unyielding personality. You are unwilling to cooperate with others. The donkey also symbolizes menial work. You may be feeling overburdened or stressed. If the donkey is dead, then it denotes that your party hearty attitude will lead to unrestrained immorality. Alternatively, the donkey is representative of the United States democratic party. Consider your personal associations and feelings about the democrats.
To dream that you fall off or are thrown from a donkey, signifies separation and disharmony in love..
To dream that you are kicked by a donkey, suggests that you are afraid of being caught in some illicit activity. There is a cloud of suspicion over you.
To dream that you are leading a donkey by a halter, signifies your leadership abilities. You have the gift of convincing people to see things your way.

Hole

To see a hole in the ground, denotes hidden aspects of your activities. On the other hand, it may mean that you are feeling hollow or empty inside. This dream may be an awakening for you to get out and expose yourself to new interests and activities. Alternatively, the dream may be a pun on "wholeness' or completeness.
To dream that you fall into a hole, represents a pitfall in some waking situation. You feel you are stuck. Perhaps, you have dug yourself into a hole and cannot get out of it.
To dream that there is a hole in your clothing, indicates that there are some flaws in your thinking or thought process. You may need to undergo an image makeover.

Water

To see water in your dream, symbolizes your unconscious and your emotional state of mind. Water is the living essence of the psyche and the flow of life energy. It is also symbolic of spirituality, knowledge, healing and refreshment. To dream that water is boiling, suggests that you are expressing some emotional turmoil. Feelings from your unconscious are surfacing and ready to be acknowledged. You need to let out some steam.
To see calm, clear water in your dream, means that you are in tune with your spirituality. It denotes serenity, peace of mind, and rejuvenation.
To see muddy or dirty water in your dream, indicates that you are wallowing in your negative emotions. You may need to take some time to cleanse your mind and find internal peace. Alternatively, the dream suggests that your thinking/judgment is unclear and clouded. If you are immersed in muddy water, then it indicates that you are in over your head in a situation and are overwhelmed by your emotions.
To dream that water is rising up in your house, suggests that you are becoming overwhelmed by your emotions.
To hear running water in your dream, denotes meditation and reflection. You are reflecting on your thoughts and emotions.
To dream that you are walking on water, indicates that you have total control over your emotions. It also suggests that you need to "stay on top" of your emotions and not let them explode out of hand. Alternatively, the dream is symbolic of faith in yourself.

Aunty Fern said something cool too but I lost it haha Oops!

POOR DONKEY!!

I had a dream the other night about a donkey falling into a deep hole someone was digging. I was riding this donkey and fell in too...but I was able to crawl up and out...this is 4 sure a dream b/c I would certainly perish in a hole if it meant I had to use my upper body strength to pull myself out...HA! Anyhoo...I am out of this hole, covered in mud and talking to the person who dug it giving them shit b/c now this poor donkey was stuck in the hole...and the person just intended to bury the donkey alive. I was protesting of course – I was clearly attached to this donkey – saying that was bullshit and the hole digger needed o take responsibility for their poor hole digging placement and help get the donkey out.

They refused and were totally apathetic. So I decided to pretend I was some genius engineer...and stated to fill the hole up with water so my donkey could float to the top treading water all the while rather than drowning like he likely would have in real life. My donkey was fine and got out of the hole successfully thanks to my water idea....and was walked off into the sunset. I have never dreamed of donkeys before. Fuckin’ hole digger jerks!

I am glad to be back at work. Unless my 3 day weekends are BUSY I don’t enjoy being such a stagnant loser. I now have about 200 scrabble tiles etc with little pictures on ‘em, half are finished and need magnets etc put on them...the rest need the goop to make em shiny and purdy...plus a few I may make into necklaces but i gotta wait for the leather thingys from China...see if I like ‘em well enough to go that route.

My mom’s b’day was Oct 10 – 10 10 10 – as well as Barb’s!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BARB!

I can’t believe it is already close to mid- Oct!I am looking fwd to my little mini getaway next weekend. Graeme and I are going up to Nanaimo for Kori and Mary’s wedding extravaganza! I have a room booked – the place has a POOL – I am STOKED!!!!!!!! We are going the Friday before to be sure I get lotsa swim time in...there will be no deathly barnacles in this pool so it should be an uneventful swim experience – unlike last times...which I may add has left my leg pretty scarred up...I still have some scabbage over a mth later as well. Well done Conky...well done.

I got some great b’day loot this year...turning 40 was kinda fun! Lol

Yes, your mother can BURN steamed veggies!!

Craft Monster!!

Ok thank gawd that is over...whenever I get a little cocky and comfortable in the kitchen this sort of shit always humbles me and brings me back to the fact that I am not in love with cooking big dinners....

Awesome Jesus present from Amanda & Erin

Whilst saving the gravy (I gave that job to G b/c I didn't want the pressure hahaha) b/c it was a disaster I neglected the vegs on the stove and didn't NOTICE they were steamed out of water and the pot was BURNING on the element...so when i took them off the stove and opened them the smoked burned smell wafted into my face making it impossible to ignore.......not realizing the pot was so HOT I even managed to burn a ring mark into the counter top....ohhh yeah it was classic epic fail cooking of the vegetables...the chicken was fine, potatoes were yummy and stuffing...even the gravy was quite decent.....we had emergency canned corn and frozen peas 4 vegs...I ten spent 30 mins SCRUBBING the fucking pot (its my fave pot!!) to get all the BURNED CHARRED BADNESS out of it...fuck. Then I was thinking I completely wasted 80 bucks to go down in history as the asshole who burns steamed vegs when we could have (SHOULD HAVE) ordered in Chinese food for half the cost.................................................yeah I am bitter...what else is new?
Graeme and I played Wii....he is so HUMBLE its REALLLY ENJOYABLE....(insert sarcasm here)...I killed him at tennis - bowling - baseball but he killed me a Mario Kart gawd dammit!

Yeah I stole this from VV - piss off.

SHOOTER was on late last night so I got to fall asleep to the image of Marky Mark with no shirt on.....sigh. Fittingly I woke up to massive amts of drool on my self this morning...was kinda gross actually.

little chinese finger kids - thanks!

Ok maybe little Chinese kids with small fingers assembled my new glasses frames but grown up opticians made the lens' so whatever...

I will NEVER pay 500.00+ for glasses EVER AGAIN when I can see plain as day they are actually worth a fraction of that...I am really sickened after talking with Dee who used to work in an eye dr. place and learning how massive the mark up is...i mean really...the frames are plastic in my case...we all know how cheap plastic is...the lens's are apparently about 50 cents bought in large quantities so...WHY am I charged 500.00 for something I can also get for 25.00 (and u know there is still profit involved with that price) - anyhow...my new glasses arrived...the Rx seems perfect for each pair...and the frames are exactly what I ordered and good quality...my faves are the ones I have on (middle) and the top ones....WHEW! Glad that's done...if any of u care to order some lemme know I can walk you through the great info i got from Dee via sizing etc.

Tonight Alex and Kelsey are coming over for pizza and visiting....Kelsey and Graeme will play Wii Zombie games while Alex and I craft at the table...buttons first then maybe some scrabble tiling...woohoo! I am sure we will talk some good shit about the 2 bozo's over on the couch, oblivious to anything of major importance in girls lives....

Today is exactly 1 year since I met Mr Milligan. how weird is that! I entire year! I snuck into the bedroom before I left this morning to wish him a happy 1 year of knowing him and I pulled back the blanket and kissed his forehead not realizing he was completely sweaty and hot and I ended up ingesting his forehead sweat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANKS MAN!!!!!!!!!

40 is kinda whatever...

I was starting to get heartburn from weird food anyhow...bananas...salsa....now peanut butter...fug.

Had an AWESOME night Monday - Alex is getting hitched @ the end of the month and we had a little girly get together to make her a button bouquet...omg this craft is SOOO fun when u have a BUNCH of buttons to use...and thanks to Jen W. bringing her Granny's box of buttons (she recently passed away so it was nice to watch Jen go through the box and show us all little things like the buttons on a wire that her Granny used to teach her to count as a little girl etc) that she collected forEVER....some really AWESOME stuff in there...got to meet 2 new gals as well Becca and Alisa...both very interesting and I am better for meeting them for certain. I will admit sitting on the floor was a bit of an issue for me...by the end of the night I was doing the beached whale shuffle on the floor and trying to avoid the full leg muscle spasm flail...gawd I am a social retard sometimes...but omg it is FUN!! I love buttons now...SAVE ME YOUR BUTTONS!!!

Naturally b/c I am ancient now I felt like I was on a bender the next day...all that hardcore BUTTONING you know ::eyeroll::
Good birthday all around...love my new deadly voodoo gnome from Graeme...and the night out was fun too aside from the ear shattering volume (that may actually make me start taking ear plugs to shows from now on) and seeing some guy get a beer mug smashed into his face...Rotterdam KICKED ASS....Loot was ok but their sound SUCKED BAD and it really ruined it for me....could not hear the vocals all that well and the guitar was just gruesomely too loud....I think I could feel my eardrums rupturing!
Graeme was a trooper despite not being all that interested in either band or being up front with Donna and I...we cabbed home and I stayed up waiting 4 Ayla and I was a bit drunk alright and she arrived home drunk so we bonded over pizza pops and a stupid shark movie...

Rest of the w/e was fine....I am in super craft mode...done wanna do anything else but monkey with my scrabble tile crafts and such....

hmmmmf

whilst drunk last night I could not feel my uterus....
this morning...
it is alive and well...contracting at a rate at which I think it ridiculous 4 a 40 yr old...


the end.

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flowers from my work peeps....!

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gotta say it....Rotterdam kicked Loot's ass.

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Sara of Coolville

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HA HA HAAAAAAAAAAAA ok I was trying to take a pic of Donna with her new girl crush Sara and some a-hole came smashing into them and sent them both flying as i took the picture and this is what I got!

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LOOT - Tool Tribute Band
V Lounge, Victoria BC

UK Firetrap "Deadly" Gnome from Graeme!!!

In 2004 Deadly was born – a macabre gnome, used in Firetrap promotions, who quickly became a collector’s item. In 2008 a series of Deadly’s were vandalised by underground artists in conjunction with zeitgeist busting fashion magazine Super Super. The results were exhibited at a party during London Fashion Week.
In 2009 Firetrap has announced via its official website that Deadly the Gnome will return in 2010.

...last day in my 30's

That was my little epiphany this morning on the way to work...today is OFFICIALLY the end of my 30's.Wow. I think my 40's will be more fun than my 30's so I am game.

I did not manage to escape a work birthday thing - the 4 of us are going across the street to the Legislative Rest. for lunch...not likely to see Gordo there but it is my dream that I will see him in real life again so I can scowl and throw him eyeball daggers. I laughed reading some gLiberal a-hole whining in the media about the HST campaign harboring ppl with extreme views...UHH YEAH FUCKTARD...and then he went on to say how calling Gordo a turd is really extreme...actually I think that is the norm right now smart guy...ppl not callng Gordo a turd are the extreme ones.

Craft night last night was fun....we got right down to business and Donna and I are gunna do another giant batch of "MAGNETS OF COOLNESS"...sad part is she is gone the whole mth of Nov to Australia and Fiji and that is PRIME crafting time....well it will be for me anyway when I am not in Alberta! I am in denial about how much its gunna suck for her to be gone so long.

Crafty..in more ways than one

Tonight is craft night with the lovely SARAH, Queen of the Craft! Looking fwd to this class as it will be the catalyst for my xmas gifting this year...keeping it simple and practical this year.
Donna is joining me - although begrudgingly - as it means she will miss Survivor. ha ha ha She may ditch by the days end. I won't hold it against her. I will be taping Survivor for myself but due to Donna's severe cat allergy and no VCR she cannot enjoy the fruits of my VCRing. I am sure she can catch it online somewhere.
I am also gunna be racing home to see Hell's Kitchen b/c last week was so volatile I can't wait to see who gets beat up or yelled at this week. Gordon Ramsay - fake or not - talks to idiot ppl like i dream I can talk to people all day long...so yeah he is an ignorant prick and such but he is kind of my Mentor in Ignorant Behaviour.


2 job interviews coming up! FRIDAY: Operations Clerk the TUESDAY: EAW (yes this is the 3rd time I will be going for this position...3rd times a charm right? lol)
Naturally I am not getting 2 excited here b/c after all I have been interviewing for NUMEROUS positions in gov't in 2010 and competition is brutal and I am not the BEST at competency bases interviews obviously. Most frustrating part is I am qualified and often over qualified for the jobs I am interviewing for but if you don't nail the interview it means shit all. Either way - I am going for it and fingers are crossed rather aggressively. Yours should be too.
(Plus I think getting the one I am interviewing for on my birthday just seems RIGHT!)


Ayla bought herself a new camera yesterday...her new job at STAPLES has perks...she gets a bit of a discount on purchases (only 10% but that almost covers the cocksucking HST at least) - its tiny and small and hopefully she wont lose it...she was smart and got the DROP IT warranty. Last night I spent some time cutting out celebrity magazine pics and making fake joints to glue on coming out of their mouths to decorate a box that she was putting a b-day gift in...while I was doing that that hideous TEEN MOM show was on (the only time Ayla will come out of her room is to eat and to watch those hideous shows) and I gotta say if there was ever  a show to demonstrate shitty parenting THAT WAS IT. WTF are these ppl doing allowing themselves to be filmed and parenting so badly...?? Someday they are going to be fucking MORTIFIED...clearly right now they dont know any better and are too stupid to work that shit out in their head but OMFG....just having it on on the house makes me wanna stab myself. Makes me feel less guilty about my Hell's Kitchen viewing.


New glasses on the way! Super stoked. I have a friend who used to work in an Eye Dr Office and she and her partner have a buttload of these glasses that work really well for them: THIS SITE
So she walked me through what was needed to order the right glasses....so I have 3 on the way...
#263215
#263221
#237121

all 3 for 65 bucks total inc. shipping.


Now....that whole TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE thing is in my head but I am hopeful seeing as Dee and Sue have so many pairs as does a friend of my sisters that theyll be ok...my sister however had bad luck with them so...we shall see.

Friday is gunna be FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN @ the V-Lounge...Rotterdam and LOOT, a Tool tribute band...fug I am excited!!! Graeme darling bought us tickets and with Hot Donna in tow it should be a hoot...providing all breakable wine glasses are kept out of reach of Miss Donna. MuHahahahahahaha!!!

JEEZZZUZ H CHRIST!

I get back to work all excited and wtf - theyve turned the boilers on while I was gone and it is a gawd damn sauna in here...worst than most of the summer!!!!!!!!!

FUG!

Ayla's sick now... :o(
I am just dealing with residual snot and cough - no biggy.

Graeme is volunteering tonight for the Rifflandia Festival (as is Ayla) and gets to shoot some cool bands...Class of 1984, Start with the Cobra, Dayglo Abortions....etc....just confirmed this IS the final show SWTC will do....fuck man thats a gawd damn drag...this is wrecking my life....

Tonight b4 I enjoy the splendor of aloneness at home I am meeting with Donna for dinner and a visit...then its me, the tv and the couch humping commences.

Greetings...

I have been sick and neglectful.
I am hope for the 2nd and last day from work...probably could have gone back today but my hacking clearly was found to be very objectionable on Monday so...I am giving it one more day. I have been sleeping way too much though and need to get out 4 a walk today no matter how opposed I feel to it.

Today I shall finish my column and clean off my desk...G has an appt so I will actually get 1.5 hours BY MYSELF!!! and tomorrow night he is going to volunteer/shoot pics for a Rifflandia show at Rehab (seeing my fav local band Start with the Cobra - wah for me!) which means I get a glorious 6 pm - bed time ALONE!!!!!!!!! I never get to be alone...it drives me bat shit crazy...so I will be loving that!

I had a conversation recently with a few ppl about how deadbeat dads/men who go on to date new women with kids (or not) and suddenly get all inspired to start seeing their kids...maybe even paying child support....I imagine having a woman you are sleeping with chirping at you about whats fair and right and blah blah blah is the catalyst for this inspired life change....but then...oddly enough and I have seen in a buncha times...the min that guy is single again he reverts right back to his old self...deadbeat...cant keep up the change without someone mothering him through it...I have seen this twice in the last month...no kids involved in one case but a blatant time machine role reversal, 4 years later man reverts back to exact life prior to relationship...all signs of growth - non existent. Also saw one involving a kid...which makes it all the more of a piss off b/c for 3+ yrs this person was a deadbeat...contributed nothing even while being afforded leeway and generous visitation....then lo and behold...he gets a girlfriend who knows how custody and courts work and whammo...mom gets a lawyer letter about how dad wants 50-50 custody...a dad who cant even keep fucking milk in the fridge when he knows his kid is coming over...or brush her hair for school...etc. You know the type. Then u start finding out he has resorted to guilt tripping the kid about where she lives which is not only a shitty thing to do its bad parenting and really irresponsible...as someone who spent her child's entire young life with it always in the back of her mind that someday someone might show up and pull this crap - I can feel for this mom in a big way...I think it will all end well but it is a terrible mindfuck and a great insult to a mom who has been pulling all the weight the child's whole life. Fuggin a-hole.

Ok more later...my butt hurts.

2 in 1

Sept 15 2010 - I am recovered from my barnacle trauma...now I am just enjoying the delight in dealing with all the scabs all over both legs. I am just glad the swollen itch thing has passed. Gross little creatures those barnacles.


Now I am getting a cold which is annoying but not the end of the world. Ayla went in for her 1st round of vaccinations on Monday...with heavy heart the deed was done – 5 shots in all. She will need 2 more appts in the following months to finish up the rest. She was brave seeing that she is quite unfamiliar with needles and I don’t think she will be all that worried about future needling now as it did not bother her too much. She didn’t watch like I do but she managed fine. It helped having a humorous Russian male nurse administering the shots for sure. While I did not have the same fear I experienced when she was small over the whole thing I cannot help but feel very apprehensive about it. If she ends up with MS or some fucked up neurological BS thing as an adult I will always wonder. Ugh. It was ultimately her choice to go forward with it –if it were up to me I would have for her the Hep B shot and that’s it.


Woke up to the glorious sound of the cat retching this morning...my 1st words are “IS THE CAT ON THE BED?” – No. Good. Barf at your leisure animal. So I get up walk out to the living room, promptly stepping in the throw up – awesome. Thank you cat. You are great. I especially enjoyed it b/c while we were away the cat went kinda coo-coo for cocoa puffs and decided peeing in Ayla’s room would be a good idea...along with the vomiting of course. I spent Sunday steam cleaning Ayla’s carpet – looks great but the smell still lingers a little tiny bit...but not as bad at least. I think I will spend Sat. doing that spot again a few times and then do the entrance and the living room before returning the machine to my girlfriend. Handy machine I must say! The DIRT taken outta Ayla’s carpet was NASTY.


Sept 16 2010 – Not dead yet...discovered black cherry cough drops...yay 4 me. It is Thursday and I will be busy at work so it should go fast at least thank gawd. Tomorrow I have testing to do for a job which I expect to fail miserably at....”We are inviting you to a written test session on Friday, September 17th. This test is being administered to clarify your skill level using Advanced Excel, compiling statistical and summary reports, and working in complex spreadsheets and graphs.“ This is not my strong suit at all...so it should be a proper gong show. I don’t even know wtf Advanced Excel is...Excel in general I can manoeuvre around but nothing fancy – I have been meaning to get better at it but it’s so...friggin...unappealing.


Watched the new Survivor last night...haven’t watched it for a few years but thought I’d give it a go...I do enjoy the show if I catch it from the start of the season. Donna and I texted through the whole thing making comments and laughing at the people with their junk getting blurred out on day 1! Hahaha I hate it that Donna lives so far from me now....hate hate hate.

EDIT: There Ayla - Feel Better?

Through the itch - I shall endure...

Such a martyr I know...
It is a cool Sat morning here...I am itchy as a mofo but hoping it'll pass soon....
Loved sleeping in today...gawd the last 2 morning getting up at 530 am nearly killed me...but ill get back in the groove next week.
Got my tickets for the wedding in Nanaimo next moth...Kori and Mary are getting hitched...my room is booked, bus tickets to get there and back are bought...and I will get to swim in a hotel pool WITH NO BARNACLES wooohoooo...mind u ocean swimming is still #1 for me but I think I now fear barnacle attacks more than shark attacks.

Ayla's 1st week of school at her new high school seems to go ok...hard to say, she only doles out what info she feels like...so far so good though...she's a jerk of course but what else is new...loving her is like being  battered wife. Not even kidding.

The SMELL emanating from her room....seems to have faded but I am not sure...??? It was SOOOOOOO strong then not so bad but still lingering...makes me suspicious so I am borrowing a steam cleaner from a friend Sunday and doing her carpets anyway...her rug is pretty bunk anyway and could use a going over...I will be leaving her a list and I am sure she will whinge but oh well.

Last night Donna and I went and saw THE KIDS ARE ALRIGHT Pretty good flick....kept thinking the lesbos Amanda and Erin should been there with us hahahaha We quite enjoyed it....
Tonight we are debating out plans...we aren't feeling super rock and roll...but Start with the Cobra are playing and they KICK OUR ASS and we love them...but its beer fest and the place (LOGANS) will be packed with drunks...we may just go see a movie instead...

Work was fine all week...all 2 days of it....caught up the 3 days I was away in one day (see what I am saying about this not really being a full-time job) and the office was quiet, 2 other ppl are away so....yay for me! Next week and after will be back to reality...

Guy's b'day was Sept 8th, he turned 17.

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Visiting my mama at work...getting all the gossip, listening to a very drunk girl i used to go to school with sing karaoke and it is NOT a karaoke bar....