Women’s Washroom Etiquette

I have a favourite stall in the washroom where I work. Stall #5 – the last stall against the wall. I walk over 100 steps to get to the bathroom so when I get there and some jackass is in my stall it bums me out...but onward I carry on using an inferior stall to get the job done. It doesn’t ruin my life but it is yet another little disappointment in life.

Now here is the thing – if someone is in Stall #4 I will not use Stall #5 b/c there are 2 others available that are not next door neighbours to Stall #4. My rule is never to use a stall right next to someone if at all possible. I don’t like using stall washrooms on a good day and I certainly do not enjoy someone coming into Stall #4 when I am in Stall #5 when they could have used Stalls 1, 2 or 3 for shits sake. Rude.

Am I the only neurotic stall person on earth? Depending on my mood this sort of thing really pisses me off...I don’t want to pee and be distracted by the bozo in the next stall peeing. Or by the shoes they have on. Or if they pee faster or slower than me. I don’t even like ppl LISTENING to me pee. I am still known to run water when I pee depending on the situation. Clearly I am not afforded this option at work though I have considered how funny it would be for someone to come in with all 5 sinks running and 1 person in the can. Ha. Ohh it is the small things that amuse us mutants.

Stay away from me in the can you drones.

I am still in the romantic throws of my Liam Finn obsession...sorry for everyone who will receive a copy of his music whether they want one or not...I am a little excitable and like to share. I want the damn CDs to show up so I can listen to him in my bedroom [do not think about it now – it only gets dirtier from here].

The weather has turned...on the weekend I was sweating my balls off - scared to go outside for fear the sun and heat would melt me like a piece of cotton candy in a drooling child’s mouth...today I am actually cold and I am indoors. They will turn the heat on eventually in here and it’ll be hideously hot and horrifying and I will be looked at like a lunatic for having my a/c on from time to time. I know most everyone is sad summer is gone but NOT I! ::insert happy dancing and lard jiggling here::

Maybe I will cut all my hair off to commemorate this grand seasonal change? Talk me out of it please. I have always hated my hair after a drastic hair cut...I have no idea why I am cyclically compelled to cut my hair off...truth is until I dump some weight cutting my hair off would be unwise...if hair was heavier I would do it as an attempt to un-tip the scales...I have considered what life would be like with 1 leg...b/c the weight loss benefit of my losing a WHOLE THIGH would be pretty substantial! I love it when I type for a while and look up and have made so many typos I can’t even distinguish what I was trying to say.

I feel restless...I feel jumpity...like I should be doing something...yet I lack the motivation to do anything but stare at my budget spreadsheet and wonder HOW THE FUCK I am supposed to have any sort of life after Ayla graduates...we decided it only makes sense for her to stay living at home so she can save up for school, it’s cheaper for her so more can be saved when she is working full time...I have been so worried about this grad trip and then grad expenses I didn’t really think too much about after that...I will be officially be lacking 350ish bucks when she grads...yet my expenses will not really change...BAHAHAHA CONKLIN! I am such a dick. It’ll come down to ditching cable and a land line I guess – I am determined not to worry about it. Ayla can start paying her own cell bill and pitch in a token rent amount and it will all work out – but you know how I love to panic about this shit a year in advance.

I have come to recognize my lack of being able to pair up with anyone [with a fucking job] has left me in a limited financial bubble. Single incomes are great if you have cheap rent, no kids and no debt. I have no debt....none...but my rent is lame and my kid...well I am not getting rid of her...I adore her despite her rude nature that I am convinced will be outgrown. I want to afford her some time to get all her ducks in a row and get herself sorted before pushing her out into the shitty world. Who knows – the plan might change 823759384x before graduation so...I should shut up now.

The Ryan McMahon Experience

I have been privy to a lot of live music in my 40 yrs...various genres, time periods and moods. I am a live music connoisseur of sorts...I like what I like and what I don't like offends the shit out of me. I wish I possessed the capability to be outwardly supportive and kind towards music and it's  performers when I am not in love with their music...alas...I suck at diplomacy. I am the Simon Cowell of my own tv show-less realm. I cannot stand shitty or mediocre music - this is because I love music I love so FUCKING intensely that anything short of my ideal is a waste of my gawd damn time and energy.

I see musicians who I know have been doing their thing (aka perfecting their craft) for over a decade and honestly it amazes me that they still are at it when after 10 yrs they are still very mediocre. Mean - I know. I am a mean asshole but when you have seen genuine talent which includes songwriting, singing, playing and stage charisma it is very difficult to feel anything but sorry for performers who will never reach that level despite their best efforts. Some people have it. Some people do not. It IS that simple. It is a package and a half full package just doesn't cut the mustard.

I don't want to spend any of my time fake clapping and bored out of my gawd damn skull seeing performers EXCEPT if it is what I have to do to get a 40 minute Ryan McMahon fix that I have waited a few months for.

The contrast between Ryan McMahon and other acts that I shall specifically not mention for the sake of me trying not to be as much of a mean asshole as I actually am...is obvious. You don't have to be a hardcore like me either...it is just very apparent. I don't understand why at his level he still struggles...it boggles the mind...but I guess the world is full of artists that never get picked up and shared with the world. A total shame...and the world is lesser for it.

After a long wait last night in a hot venue (though the venue was fantastic for vibe and mood for sure) Ryan played and it was like the last 2+ hrs of my personal suffering (insert Jesus martyr symbolism here) had been erased by that single first note...despite being plagued with professional speed bumps over the last few months - you wouldn't know it. Ryan was his witty, fun self and performed with his usual unfaltering wonderment. The set was short but I didn't even care...from the moment I saw Ryan on a stool playing solo at Steamers almost 9 years ago seeing him perform anywhere at anytime is a gift I have never taken for granted.

Thanks Ryan...

Please pass on...

Please pass this link on to anyone you think may be in the market for this show in Victoria - thanks.

All child pervs should die

I gotta say the recent Amber Alert looking for the 3 yr old ginger kid of cuteness from Sparwood, BC is rather disturbing...imagine waking up to find your kid GONE. At 1st you would think he was in the living room or hiding or something but it wouldn’t take long for that disgusting feeling to overtake you realizing he was actually missing. Absolute horror. Now that they are also looking for the creepiest, heinous looking freak I have seen in a while one can only imagine the mindfuck thinking that greasy inbred with perv tendencies has your toddler. Fuck. I just do not even know how you WAIT to find out what has happened.

In other news...ok not really but...how about this summer weather hey? You know how I just LOVE the sweaty boobness of 28 degrees...oh yeah just great...but victory shall be mine...the weather will turn and turn in my favour it shall – back to the cool, damp wonderfulness that I enjoy 8ish months of the year. MuHahahaHAHahahHAHHAHAHAA. Seriously though – if not for this welfare a/c at work I might die but the a/c changed my life...work life that is...even though by 2-3 pm it struggles to keep up and can only cool the room to 78 degrees that is a SHITLOAD better than prior to its installation I can assure you...it’s a good 20+ degrees hotter in here without it on so just in case I haven’t told the a/c how much I love it lately.......I LOVE YOU A/C!

American Pickers is my new favourite show...I like it better than Canadian Pickers...the American Picker guys are more likable to me, funnier...though I do like seeing the Canadian stuff the Canadian Pickers find...I am all about HGTV these days...House Hunters, Property Virgins, Rental Income, Holmes on Holmes...my gawd...men with hammers and such...oh my. Mike Holmes should come over for a sleep over.

Better yet send that bushy faced Liam Finn over for a sleep over...I am having a serious love affair with his music at the moment. I will spare you the gory, moist details and just say I am happy to add him to my Pretend Boyfriend list. As it turns out I prefer PRETEND BOYFRIENDS to real ones. I have decided the only way a relationship will ever work for me is if there is a serious level of intimacy and real, genuine friendship involved with a person with balls who can call me on my bully bullshit and respect the fact that the way I do shit is the way it will be done in my house. Is that too much to ask? Seriously...my neurotic brain needs a special sort of someone who can actually talk and articulate shit and get in my face without being confrontational....yes that is possible...I must be outwitted delicately...b/c if you get in my face for real without any sort of plan or procedure I will ruin you ~ you will lose. Ask anyone who knows me. I am a gawd damn machine. Vicious. Badger. Terrorist. Ha ha ha aaaaa

Mmmm lunch. Daal and brown rice and carrot sticks. Jealous aren’t you? I would rather be eating fish & chips truth be told. Some asshole got on the bus with fish & chips yesterday and I nearly had a convulsion. All I could smell was grease, salt and vinegar and it was bloody awesome. Rude.

Just go away already ...

This whole Gordon Campbell/Order of BC controversy sure is mind boggling. Even the info provided by the Order of BC office outlining why he is being 'honoured' makes me shake my head...he is being honoured for doing his JOB...there is nothing in there about the hours of work he has done altruistically for a charity or cause...no mention of being financially supportive of any charity or cause...it's all work done as part of the jobs he has held and was paid to do. And paid well I might add.

It was less than a year ago he resigned in shame for his HST trickery...then he is handed a cushy overseas job by the PM to rub it in ppls faces...so really...we have to bestow this Order of BC on this jackass FOR WHAT?

All his dealings are financially motivated for him or his friends and the already well to do...I see no reason he gets such an award ESPECIALLY so soon after his shameful posting as Premier. There is no legacy to honour here. It is really unfortunate for the ppl like Crystal Dunahee who are being overshadowed by this BS when they have made real contributions to our society/province, given their time over years and years with no giant paycheques...Seriously, why are we even talking about this crap and debating its merit when there is NONE?

That shit pisses me off. I am sick of Gordo and his seedy friends getting more and more of the pie while stepping on the throats of the people to get the last gawd damn crumb. This province is an embarrassment politically, like a bunch of drunken monkeys are running shit...oh wait...duh.

I love love love Mr. Finn

Gather To The Chapel - LIAM FINN

Your photo all over the altar

Your friends dressed in black

It's the first time I've seen you in ages

Hold on, my old time bomb

Everyone gather to the chapel, to the chapel

Everyone gather to the chapel, to the chapel

Everyone loved you, yes everyone

Everyone gather to the chapel, to the chapel

I walk through the park where we hung out

Saw signs long ago

Try hard not to argue the obvious

Hold on, my long time partner

Everyone gather to the chapel, to the chapel

Everyone gather to the chapel, to the chapel

Everyone loved you, yes everyone

Everyone gather to the chapel, to the chapel

You left us in the dark to cry

Why

Everyone gather to the chapel, to the chapel

Everyone gather to the chapel, to the chapel

Everyone loved you, yes everyone

Everyone gather to the chapel, to the chapel

**while most songs about suicide are grim and angry this song is really lovely... Jen**

shazam!

off to pick up the most awesome teenager I have ever given birth to today @ the Comox ferry...I am hemorrhaging profusely, Lisa my driver slave is sick and talks like a tranny...we are like a mobile porn unit today...ohh yeah....and don't forget the puppy that's coming along too! Ohh yeah!

Kelly M - if you hear someone yelling your name look up, I will be waving at you!!!!!!!

MP3 SHUFFLE TIME!

Bring on the zombie apocalypse via barb the Bad Tempered Zombie...

You know how it works, put your itunes on shuffle and so on and so on.

First song: overall theme for the apocalypse

COMFORTABLE CRIMINALS - Matthew Good

(I think they are comfortable criminals actually...)

Second song: plays when you kill your first zombie

WELCOME TO MY NIGHTMARE - Alice Cooper

(ok I dont think I could have picked a better one honestly...)

Third song: plays when you are being chased by a horde

KISSES & KEROSENE - Otep

(nice...)

Fourth song: plays when you have to kill your loved one

TRIPOLI (acoustic) - Matthew Good

(how moving the scene would be, killing a family member to one of my favorite MG songs haha)

Fifth song: plays when you find a group of survivors

A SILENT ARMY IN THE TREES - Matthew Good

(come on - this is getting to be too perfect!)

Sixth song: plays when you meet a new love interest

GIRLS OF PORN - Mr Bungle

(I do not even want to think this one over too hard...wtf)

Seventh song: plays when you have to make a final stand

MS GENOVA - Tin Foil Phoenix

Eighth song: plays when you think you've survived it all

I AM HUMAN - The Smiths

(ha ha ha)

Ninth song: plays when you discover a bite mark on you

DON'T STOP - Fleetwood Mac

(ooooh gawd noooooooooooooooooo)

 

Tenth song: plays over the end credits

DESTINATION UNKNOWN - Missing Persons

(seems appropriate!)

Your turn! (THANKS BARB!)

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When the 1989 grade 12 mullet comes back to haunt you in 2011 - you know you rocked the mullet.

this is a real conversation via email

A friend of mine fwd'd me an email she was involved in (names have been changed to protect the victim and the idiot)...we will call her Mona, Mona b/c she probably moans a lot in the sack but that's besides the point....anyhow 'Daphne' is well known for being a space cadet but this is pretty awesome.
ENJOY!
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Hello Mona

I need to know whose has overseas capabilities on their telephone. There used to be 3 telephones at this office who have this capability.

I know that Christine is one of them, but who are the other two?

Thank you,

Daphne

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Daphne,

I have heard Dawn’s phone. I know Bob's used to as well and assume he still does.

Mona

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Hi Mona

Please don't tell me what I already know. I need to know who presently besides Christine has the ability to call overseas on there telephone. That was my original question.

As telephone coordinator you have the ability to provide with with the facts so please do so.

Thank you,

Daphne

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Daphne

Please submit all requests and enquiries through your supervisor.

Thank you,

Mona

Farewell...

This funeral/celebration of life is blowing my mind. 

As an avid funeral avoider due to my inability to stifle empathetic sorrow and 

genuine emotion, watching Jack Layton's state funeral on TV is simply amazing. 

I am not going to go on and on about it b/c really...what can one say. 

There is no one like him in politics and it is a tragic loss for this country. 

Hearing his children speak of him...gawd. 

All the eulogies were touching and so genuine...

I am glad so many people are feeling this loss b/c I hope it sticks 

with us all to be better ppl and do things differently...

Sigh.

Steven Page's rendition of Leonard Cohen's "Hallelujah" ~ stellar...

I am going to de-puff my eyes now.

I am itchy. I am all paranoid I am getting shingles like my land lady has...I am being an alarmist of course but gawd dammit....2 days I have been itchy. Got out my ol’ Home Surgery Kit last night and finally managed to yank the last of the so-called dissolving stitches out of my incisions...dissolving...pffft. The pieces popping out of the incisions were not dissolving and hindering healing so I got in there and have decided I should be a doctor now...Doctor Jen – Medicine Woman. I want my own TV show too...and my own hot husband who wears animal leather and native beads. Yeah that’s what I want...anyway back to my hypochondriac-ness...I am not stressed at all really...but I am run down and such so the shingles diagnosis isn’t totally out to lunch...though I am being a dramatic tit for certain.

OMFG I finally have AC at work. It’s like a gawd damn miracle. It’s like Jesus has finally shown himself to me finally after all these years and I can call myself a BELIEVER. OK not really. Jesus did not get me this AC – my boss did....so really she is the new Jesus Gawd Damn Christ in my eyes! The thing has a timer...so I set it for 5 am to run so when we arrive in the AM its cool and fucking awesome in here...my mother would LOVE IT! My poor mother and her hate for hotness is intense as well so I can’t help but feel bad she works for a cheap asshole who will never get AC for the pub. The AC unit looks like R2D2 and is quite the welfare looking thing but I love love love it and want to hump it. I do not even care that it is as loud as an airplane engine and I have to pop an earplug in my left ear b4 I answer the phone. I LOVE YOU AIR CONDITIONER! (such a guilty pleasure)

After reading my latest book (CLICK HERE) I am even more convinced out society is doomed...and though it embarrasses me to say so I am glad I am 40 and will be long dead b4 everything REALLY starts to go downhill...mock me all u like but our civilization is on the same path the Mayans, Incas, Sumerians and Easter Islanders were on and where are they now? Yeah that’s right - fallen – we live in an unsustainable society and the world cannot go on forever putting up with our blatant disrespect and stupid greed...we rape the land, the sea and pollute the air and oceans with crap...we over farm, we fuck with our food, we eat garbage and produce mass amounts of shit no one really needs and our population is RIDICULOUS. All the plastic we make will outlast us all...for this I am certain. How nice that in a few million years when we perhaps evolve again or aliens find our planet they will find fossils of plastic dildos and disposable razors. Wow – what a legacy! (EYE ROLL) This book has seriously opened my eyes to the reality we all face. Most of us choose to ignore it, ignorance is bliss after all...I wish I was able to just go on my merry way and not be tortured by what is to come but...that is not the case. That feeling of helplessness to do anything about it on a grand scale is incredibly frustrating. I recycle, reuse, limit purchasing crap, avoid promoting the use of plastics, I bus or walk, consider where something was made or grown prior to purchasing it, etc. Meanwhile what really makes the world go round is $$$. Big business and commerce run the world and big business has no conscience, it is all about the almighty dollar. Most shitty things on earth are all about $$$. War/oil, poverty, cancer...yes cancer...many cancers are due to toxins and pollutants spewed out by govt’s and companies to make $$$ also I am not UNCONVINCED that cancer cures and research is hindered greatly by the fact that pharmaceutical co’s don’t really want a cure for cancer...their bread and butter has got to be cancer treatments right now with so many ppl diagnosed...fuckers.

Laugh all you like...I am not a conspiracy theorist in the slightest.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REGAN KEIL!

You gawd damn fishetarian MFer!

Ayla is in Powell River currently. I have quite enjoyed my time alone the last week...my house is so easy to keep clean...omg. I spent about 4 hours on her room/bathroom when she left and it looks bloody fabulous. My mom will be here on Saturday so I couldn’t very well let her enter Ayla’s room how it was...my gawd the child is a top notch slob. Did you read that Ayla...!!!!!!? Gawd I hope it is not a permanent affliction. I still have another week of kidlessness. Lisa & I will drive up and fetch her from the ferry Sept 3. Road trip style. Gawd I wish I was a better road tripper. I am in mega hermit mode currently...I don’t like being anywhere but home in my jammies...I cannot wait for fall...the gray cool days...COME ON!

Oh so sad to hear about Jack Layton's passing...what a grand loss for Canada and his family/friends...I am happy to see him getting the attention he deserves and touched by how many people are recognizing his contributions to this country...farewell moustache....

:o(

RIP Jack Layton...terrible loss for Canada & his loved ones.... :\


Now there is no one to kick Stephen Harper in the balls....

GO CAESAR!!

I am wearing jeans for the 1st time in 3 weeks. I feel as if I am being cut in half slowly...in a few days I will be used to it again. Last night I woke up sleeping on my stomach!! THIS IS AWESOME! Soon I can go to sleep on my stomach and actually have good sleeps again!

Went and saw RISE OF THE PLANET OF THE APES and loved loved loved it! I was an Ape virgin...hadn’t seen any of the old movies but I really liked it...then I went home and saw that the original Planet of the Apes movie was on Netflix so I watched it...and laughed a lot. Man it was cheesy as hell but still interesting enough to keep me all the way til the end....the end I found particularly decent – the moment he realizes he is on EARTH...it all kind of ties in with the book I am reading about societal collapse right now so I didn’t feel like I wasted 2 hrs of my life...though I admit I am not likely to seek out the other movies.

Ayla had a grody case of strep throat as it turns out so her antibiotics worked quick to make her feel better though her tooth has been the bain of her existence all week...she thinks her one wisdom tooth is coming up and it has made hamburger of her back bottom gum and really is rather sick looking. She is seeing the dentist today and hopefully there will be some solution.

The rest of the weekend I cooked, cleaned, organized, watched movies, read, ignored Ayla’s whining and answered emails. My shower head died so I had to go and purchase a new one which is always a gawd damn nightmare....getting stuck with a crappy shower SUCKS...you know the ones where you actually can pee with more pressure than the shower puts out...I did opt for a water saving eco one and it isn’t as much pressure as I PREFER but....the water saving part is fine and I am sure I will get used to it in no time and not want to replace it...

I am at work and have absolutely NO WORK TO DO yet...better hope the mail guy brings me a stack or this day is gunna suck ass.

gibble gobble gabble

I am finally going to see Trooper with the Coleman Clan...I have managed to somehow never see Trooper live (or April Wine for that matter)...the fact that they are charging 55 bucks a ticket (I KNOW! WTF!) is a little much but if I had seen them a few times over the years it would have added up to that so what the hell. This will be the September musical experience. October it's Sam Roberts with Ayla & Donna...November is Matthew Good...just me and MG...oh yeahhhh 1st row...then December it is Tori Amos in Vancouver...then THAT'S IT...good gawd...you'd think I was wealthy or something. :\

Sprog is dead sick...her Salt Spring Is. camping trip was a bit of a fiasco sadly...she came home after 1 night sick with her classic sprog razor blade throat...she is currently on the couch dead and I am making her listen to Gordon Lightfoot...she doesn't seem to mind. We will see how she is when Neil Young comes on.

Aunty Cathy has booked her flight to visit for a few weeks in November...weee! I booked off the same 2 weeks from work so we can go to PR and visit! :) YAY! This month Mags and Sid (maybe Pam??) are coming on the 17th for a few days then taking Ayla back with them for a few weeks...in that time my Ma will be here for 3 days so we can get a good hang out going and go drive around and see some beaches...

How am I feeling these days you ask...you did not ask but I am telling you...I feel shyte...oddly and in a different way worse then the 1st week...I guess things inside are still mending of course and that along with all the stretching and bending and such at work is making me sore and dead. I am tired as a mthrfckr too which is kind of debilitating on my brain. So tired...soo sooooo dead tired. Looking fwd to that passing...my gastrointestinal condition is delicate but I will spare u the gory details and just say my diet is rather limited and I have learned this week its best to not stray into old eating habits b/c it is not okay...so its all about small snacky frequent mini meals of very simple non-fat foods.

Ohhh yay Michelle B in Bellingham just called me...I gotta make a plan in Sept to go visit for the weekend...Ohhh yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! She is gunna feed me tofu that doesn't taste like BUTT! WOOHOO!

SQUAWK!

Fuck u squawking gulls.

Moving on...it is a quiet Saturday morning...all I hear are gulls and a siren in the distance. I watched the Girl Who Kicked the Hornets Nest last night...I managed to forget there was a 3rd one and never saw it...it was a good wrap up...I liked seeing her win finally. (sorry 4 the spoiler haha)

I am going gay-raj sale-ing with Lisa at 9:30 am...I am all organized with a list separated into areas and a map. ha! I will probably still get us lost...the great navigator I am not.

I booked a week off in December so I can go see Tori Amos in the Vancouver and have time to visit with Laura as well as hang with Deanna for the show. I still have enough holiday time to take a good chunk off when Aunty Cathy comes in Nov. too so maybe we can trip up to PR for a weekend or something...? YOU NEVER KNOW! Exciting...My mama mia is here for 3 days at the end of the month...and Mags and Sid are coming for 3 days the week before! Busy Busy Busy...love having company since I am feeling so detached and deprived of family these days.

Zach, Lindsey & Nolan

Mama Lindsey & new baby Costin

My pseudo-sister Lindsey had her new baby recently. I adore this woman...I have not had the pleasure of spending much time with her over the years at all (she used to actually be my brothers girlfriend way back prior to her mother marrying my step dad Don - Don being my brother and sisters dad) but there is something about Lindsey...she is a level headed thinking human who has really done well for herself and exudes a type of goodness you don't often see.
I am sure that my fondness for her also stems from the fact that my brother loved her hugely and massively when he was alive...anyway...she has had her 2nd son recently and my sister was just informing me of some 'family drama' on that end that I found to be rather bizarre and silly so I feel kinda shitty for her that ppl decided to dump their unhealthy shit on her right after having a baby...rude. People's ignorance is unending...but HELLO to baby COSTIN born at home and doing perfectly oblivious to the inconsequential drama and retardation that is life apparently...just enjoying the boob and sleeping and pooping - what a life!


I took a picture of myself right after surgery while I was high as a kite and had that oxygen thingy in my nose...I must have been high bc I sent it to my friend Michelle in Bellingham WA...haha I also took a picture of the incision where I am convinced the Drs and nurses were punching me b4 I woke up from the surgery...the other 3 stab wounds as I like to refer to them as look normal, slight yellow bruising on one...but this one...this is 2 weeks AFTER the surgery and its still quite impressive

Oooo soooo pretty

looking...exactly the size of a fist....uhhh-huhhhhhh...I have cropped this picture for your own protection...trust me - u owe me for that.
So that's all the grossness u get from me today...IF YOU ARE LUCKY!

I did not die

I did however start the day at the bus stop watching the mangiest squirrel eat a cherry off the ground and it was SO EFFING cute...with his little hands and little mouth...munching on it...I took a grape out of my lunch and threw it at him...he picked it right up and munched on it...I truly though I would die from the cuteness.
Then when he discarded the grape he just stared at me - willing me to throw more food at him...the never-ending stare. It worked. I will take peanuts tomorrow morning.

Work was long, hot and draggy as fuck as I am half speed and sloth-like right now...but it is what it is...only 2 more days til the weekend!

back to work....

rude.

meh

im too tired to even type...i got all cocky today and went for a walk........bad idea...i stranded myself at fairway market on a bench after hitting 'the wall' and called a cab to get home b/c I couldnt walk steadily enough to get to the bus stop...eejit. i came home and slept for almost 3 hrs and have been feeling awful ever since.
needless to say im staying home all day tomorrow...the prospect of work wednesday is rather daunting but i figure ill go in and see what happens...if i hit that wall ill go home. the end. shit all i can do about it.

yesterday i was hanging with lisa at her dads place and had a good day...i got a few fantastic pictures - the dragonfly ones please me greatly even though they totally wig me out...my gawd those things are crazy looking but it just sat there posing for me for so long...thank u mr dragonfly.

my mom is coming to visit! aug 27-29...ayla will be in PR and will have to see her early in the visit before coming down here...we will have a few days to CHILL, check out a few sights around town (she will have her car - woohoo), go on a few walks...itll be nice. aylas gone aug 20-sept ?
ayla has her 1st driving school driving lesson thursday...hehehe fun!
ok im back to the lay down position...

blahhhh