quit shooting yourself in the head already.... sighhhhhhhhhh
12 years gone... I recall the moment well...sitting in a very ugly tan and rust colored chair in my suite in Wildwood (Powell River BC), nursing my then 2 mth old sprog, listening to 107.7 The End radio when the announcement came on that a mid 20s blonde male had been found dead in the Cobain house, gunshot wound to the head. Who the fuck else would it be...not like Courtney had a penis....not that that would be ODD for her but ive seen enough of her to know she lacks the appendage.
some ppl dont give a shit about dead rock stars, esp ones who take it upon themselves to end it all...but I have a fondness 4 them, and any other person who feels so fucked and lost that thats their only way to find solace...broken ppl are my specialty...
i ponder the existence of the guy sleeping on the sidewalk, wondering how he got there...if he once had a job and a home like I do...and $ to pay rent...what
tipped him over the edge? was it mental illness? childhood trauma? internal rage? bad ass luck? a death/loss? so many variables...sure we all have a choice as to how we are going to handle something life throws in our direction but...some of us have more coping skills than others...and 4 that reason I will always hold the broken folk near and dear to my heart.how uplifting. ha!
today is going to be freakishly productive @ work...im considering wearing my MP3 player so no one can draw me into their conversations, thus distract me fr my tasks.
its like in grade 12...adrienne and i sat at a table with rennie and bob...soooooo cute, esp. bob...gawd damn he was hot...anyhow...i spent the whole yr socializing in biology instead of doing anything so the last week of sch
ool after it was already clear i had failed (hahahha) I made a martyr-ish move to a non cute person table, hoping the teacher would appreciate my initiative....lol a little too late im sure....adrienne still laughs at me.ok i better get a move on...my face needs some serious grout and filler today.
BTW...RIP Layne Staley too...what a crap day
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