you are lucky I don't own a sword...

It is not every day that you name your kid after a character in a book...with that said....while I am nearing the end of the 6th & last book to date in the Jean M. Auel Earth's Children series - a certain EVENT that happened to my beloved A.y.l.a. in the book made me so angry and sick that I was shocked at how I was reacting to words on a page. Betrayal...even literary betrayal...sickens me...Jondalar...you are an ASSHOLE of EPIC GAPE! Arrrg!

Aside from that horrific book story that I am CLEARLY far too involved in – HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTY CATHY! Lotsa birthdays coming up now...the next few months are like a cluster of birthdays...

Grad is but a fond memory...The dress will be sent back to Deanna this weekend...Ayla was at the dinner/dance less than an hour when someone spilled punch all.over.her...it came out mostly but needs a proper cleaning and Deanna is handling it as they may donate it to the Cinderella Project anyhow so it would get cleaned then. (Awesome idea by the way Ms Deanna!!) Pam and Jim are coming to town again this Friday...Pam is getting her old school 80s Pegasus Unicorn tattoo covered up with a new shmancy SLEEVE of owl, snake and craggy tree goodness! Saturday is her 1st appointment...outline only...ouch ouch ouch...outline is the worst. This enables me a nice mellow visit with her and Jim which will be a treat...AND HENRY ROLLINS THIS FRIDAY with Alex & Sarah....will be a blast of course...

Maggie, David and Sid and Pam will be down again June 29...which is awesome...Pam gets her 2nd appointment of pain done and I get a visit on the long weekend...In between those visits Tere is coming to visit...it is like I am mega-popular or something suddenly...
During all of this I am proclaiming utter poverty and NOT.SPENDING.A.DIME b/c I have not a dime to spend hahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I am going to start leaving my cards at home (which I know is going to annoy the shit out of me at certain times) and continue missing concerts (ie: Metallica in Vancouver, Roger Waters The Wall, Puscifer in Vancouver...missed em all...)

Have an appt. with the sports med doc in the morning re: the foot ultrasound I had done last week...I have LOW expectations...so if he has anything informative to offer I will be thrilled...but I fear it will be a useless interaction like the previous one. I guess I will just PIN him down and make him answer: if I walk on this foot like a mofo, like I need to, to be healthy etc. am I WRECKING it....??? If I am going to permanently wreck it so that even if I did lose weight I'd still be all crippled I want to know that before I change my game plan...guess i will find out or not find out tomorrow.

It is vengeance time...time to begin some sort of mindfuckery on someone incredibly deserving and worthy of getting played with a little. No one directly in my life but someone that I have been thinking about for nearly 7 mths...someone who during someone's lowest moment in life did some things that are deserving of some payback...this is not just every day, real life crap that ppl do...this is some heinous shit...stuff that makes you gasp when you hear about it...and like most pieces of shit he just carried on with his life as if nothing was wrong and like he is a good person...the extra kicker is he is a church leader...not that such hypocrisy is unusual...in fact it is almost normal nowadays but...b/c this has stayed with me for 7 mths and has become impossible to ignore...I feel it is my DUTY to try and exact a little justice in the name of the fallen and the people who were left to pick up the pieces...sounds dramatic doesn't it? I know...I am hoping to be able to do more than open 53 accounts for Columbia House in his name (do they still exist?) or order him some lovely Danbury Mint collectors plates – COD....but really...at this point in time I am willing to do anything even if it just inconveniences him a little...Fucker.