My Logic by Jennifer Jay C.

If you make 10+ errors at work per day, at work where you have a barracuda boss who refuses to let things slide, and you are called on all these errors does that give you the right to whine that all the feedback is negative? How about this you fucker...how about you do your fucking job and do it well CONSISTENTLY and then expect some positive feedback?? How about that?

WTF, do I look like a fucking daycare provider? Am I supposed to tell someone she doesn't suck when she indeed does? Am I to pretend she isn't all bad when really there are 4 month CSRs doing a better job than the 2 yr CSR in question? Fuck that. She can rot and whine her stupid fucking face off, especially after being given the opportunity to speak her mind about it and she said shit all.

Fuck off....

OMFG I am so NOT management material...i want to fire EVERYONE lol

After the epic staff meeting I went and hung with Adrienne and we went 2 the pub and ate/watched the hockey game. I am not a hockey fan but it was a good game, nice and violent....woohoo!

Gawd tomorrow is monday and im just so NOT into it. Barf.

one foot in front of the other, one step back to counter it

I do not like the time change...ever.
It ruins my chi.
I get myself so fucked up trying to figure out if I lost or gained an hour that my rule for the last few yrs has been to NOT think about it or pay any attention to it...

So ~ this am when i woke up at 8am and the History of New Music was on an hour early I was like...FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!

I have a short 2 hr staff meeting today...in truth I want to bludgeon one specific person there...but I have to talk in generalizations to be FAIR AND JUST. Fuck as if.
Whenever this ONE person is working at my store all sorts of shit happens...chqs go missing, mail is never put in the right box, things are lost, things arent signed, really stupid mistakes...when shes not in my branch...this crap all stops.
It makes me insane.

Ayla was having a mental meltdown last night. I walked in after having been out seeing *ZODIAC* (ill get to that later) and she is all over me to look at these IPODs on ebay that are so cheap. naturally, when shit didnt go her way she stomped off to her room...after some time things started hitting the wall...I put a quick stop to that with the ol "Do you LIKE having a DOOR 4 your bedroom????" ~ but she never came out again all night and I still dunno wtf her problem is. Spoiled ass.

ZODIAC...was really quite good. I didnt know a lot of the story which probably helped...but it was almost a 3 hr movie and I didnt notice til it was over so thats a good sign i think. I really liked how the movie was more about the ppl involved in trying to solve the crimes than about the actual creep...very cool flick. I am glad I saw it in the theatre.
One part that really made me laugh was Paul Avery in the movie hated the cartoonnist at work LOOMING over him and his desk....
I HAVE THE SAME ISSUE...only for yrs ive called it HOVERING. Hovering makes me violent....even at work I snap at ppl who are hovering...Ayla is a hoverer sometimes...etc it bugs the ever-loving shit out of me...so that made me laugh.
Jake Gyllenhaal is a boyfriend as well so that always helps. Robert Downey Jr made a fabulous addict/alcoholic .... imagine that haha

Today I have a buncha work shit to do b4 the staff meeting of death...
I am already in a state of irritation bc of the damn kid...I should drink 1st thing in the morning.

hilter and a banjo

sighhhhhhhhhh ~ the weekend is here and i am off.

fuckin eh!

i cant stand the banjo.

whoaaaaa

ok the topic of the day for me is SIAMESE TWINS....

<------ I was watching the Iranian Siamese Twins doc. the other night and it was quite interesting (joined at the head with 2 sep. bodies)....then today im on the fone with cousin Kelly and WHOA!! a different kinda conjoinedness! One body, 2 heads!

Now this got me thinking....

2 brains/heads...one body...they have their own heart...their own rib cage...their own set of lungs...

but they are like one body, 2 heads....they drive...now WHICH ONE IS WATCHING THE ROAD....? Do they both have control of each arm bc while they were doing math the one on the left was writing with the left hand and vice versa...but can the one on the RIGHT use the LEFT hand?? If Lefty wants the right hand to pick Righty's nose can Righty STOP IT/control the arm?? Im just gunna think about this shit all damn night!!!!!

Aunty Pam is off to Vegas the same week Matt Good is...I wonder if they are likely to meet up at the beer gardens?

AUNTY PAM ~ POSTCARDS PLEASE!?!?!?!?! xoxoxox

Ok wanna hear about my trauma today?

I put 100.00 on my mastercard lastnight so i could get tickets for Incubus this morning, cuz i scored that pre-sale code so i got to buy mine 2 days earlier than they go on sale...

So I wait around all morning...it gets to be 10 am...so im clicking the link 500x per minute, waiting to weasle on there asap...

I get in....I secure 2 floor tix....i go to pay....its 102.14!!!!!! I ONLY HAVE 100!!!!!!!!!! arggggg So after a frantic call to aunty pam to wrangle her visa #...but i only have 4 mins bc otherwise they release the tix for someone else to get ACK!!!!! so it was rather stroke-worthy but i managed to score them with 3 seconds to spare (it even has this little digital timer at the top of the web page to really fuck with your mind)....

So, YAY AUNTY PAM!!!!!

ha ha ha the CRA (canada revenue agency) is having technical issues...so NO TAXESSSSSS ALLLLL WEEEEEEKKKKK....omfg....im thinking they were HACKED but they just prefer to say its nothing as embarrassing as that.

ALEXANDER is on tv....i saw Colin Farrells balls man!!!....PRIME TIME TV! wow!

Ooooo dear gawd

Matthew Good ~ the new album
1) I produced it.

2) I played all the instruments except the drums and a few guitar and bass bits.

3) Here’s the track listing, because what does it matter:

- Champions Of Nothing

- A Single Explosion

- Metal Airplanes

- 99% Of Us Is Failure

- Born Losers

- Odette

- Black Helicopter

- The Boy Come Home

- The Devil’s In Your Details

- Moon Over Marin

- Girl Wedged Under The Front A Firebird *looking fwd to these lyrics!!

- I Am Not Safer Than A Bank

- I’m A Window

- She’s In It For The Money

- True Love Will Find You In The End

..............................

so there....thats another thing I have to look fwd to this year....wooohoooo and a new tour....

Incubus tix are on special pre-sale this am so thats my goal for the day, that plus UNPLUGGING my toilet...as soon as I hear my landlady walking around upstairs im gunna zip up there and steal her plunger...and yes ill be buying myself one.

Plungers arent something i feel compelled to bring with me when I move...like the toilet brush....ugh...so i must get one 4 myself...on payday...bc i have 18.00 til payday - LOSER

INCUBUSSSSSSSSSSSSS

is coming to Vic in May and I am so going.....

bc i am getting presale tickets tomorrow morning and that means i get to be late 4 work and im the boss so i can...even though its setting a bad example but fuck the company, we are talking about BRANDON BOYD and the Boys here....!!!!!! woooohoooooooo

satan lives in my pants

anyone wanna come over and put hinges on my bathroom cupboard doors...?

yeah thats what i thought.

ill do it myself then.

assholes.

ayla ripped them off, too busy staring at herself in the mirror to care that she wrecked em.

damn kids.

guy was on the news tonight...dazzing the world with his bird knowledge and the need for herring.

guy also told me he that he predicts i will unexpectedly marry in the next 7 yrs.

yeah...stick to birds my dear man....

funny when there is a recurring *theme* in your life...that being trust...or lack thereof...in yourself, in all others, in the universe...

(thats just me thinking out loud via a keyboard)...

social distortion is coming to victoria in april...erica nearly (she ACTUALLY might have) wet herself when she got the news and has been driving herself out of her mind all day due to the impending trauma of NEEDING to get tickets tomorrow...

ever been there...? thinking you will physically be unable to go on NOT getting concert tickets for a show that is surely going to change your life? i have....

but im sure she will get a ticket tomorrow and then all will be well in the world!

(Mike Ness is another of her future ex husbands)

I have a manager meeting tomorrow.

Look who turns 29 today...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTY PAM!

I googled PAM today, see below:

get your hands off my goodies!

im blogging shirtless today...im sure the neighbors are still flat out on their livingroom floors over the sight...only i dont care...dont look in my house if u dont wanna see a fat chick, shirtless at a keyboard.

im getting ready to go see a few IMAX flicks with a friend...im gunna see if i can transfer Ayla's imax pass to her since Ayla has said shed sooner kill herself then go to an IMAX with me...I have the option of torturing her and forcing her but then its not really enjoyable 4 me bc shes an ass so im not bothering with that...i have a million other ways to mess with her.

i hurt my ankle writing a letter yesterday.
yes thats right...hurt my ankle writing a letter.
im special.
{olympics}

AUNTY PAM's BIRTHDAY is on MONDAY...w00t! w00t!

ayla and dylan are into making retarded YOUTUBE vids at the moment...ayla eating a mouthful of salt, dylan chugging ketchup...bouncing off wire fences....eating chapstick etc. it is all rather dumb...and ive had to go and disinfect my salt shaker and ketchup bottle after seeing the videos.
Atl least they arent chugging gin or stabbing their eyeballs out for a good laugh on YOUTUBE. Dorks.

I ALMOST FORGOT!!!!!

Today I was sending western union for a guy from Kazakhstan...yeah! And I couldnt help myself so I asked him, "Soooo, I guess you didn't like the BORAT movie too much hey?"

His answer: "Uh, no"

HAHAHAH HAHAHAH AHHAHAHAHAA

Misogyniacal Insanity of my Big Toe

Things about today:

*I have an anger problem

*Today a toothless old woman yelled at me, spit all over my window and the started bawling her head off

*Someone called me from Fort McMurray just to yell at me about Western Union

*The new girl is going to be ok I think, she wasnt hideous on day one and this is always great! She is a cute little red head.

Aside from all that no one died, although there were a few times I felt like it would be best if I just gave up and did so. ha ha

Ayla hung out with some gals after school and it seems like she had a good day...and wasnt even up to no good! IMAGINE THAT!

She has been pretty nice lately, well for her...so this is good.

I just tried reading a Margaret Atwood book...I loved the Handmaids Tale but a few others ive started never really reeled me in...

So I started reading this book called Misogynies: Reflections on Myths and Malice by Joan Smith....yeah, like I need more reasons to be in a perpetual state of pissed off-ness....jesus christ... { In this collection of stinging essays Joan Smith explores the phenomenon of women-hating in politics, religion, history, literature, and popular culture on both sides of the Atlantic. A fascinating collection from the mind of a scholar, educator, and observer of our society, MISOGYNIES will make readers of both genders wonder more about the excuses for hatred of women we create as a society, why we accept them, and what it means to all of our lives.}

I bought the book over a year ago from a thrift store just b/c the cover is COOL....its a painting of these 2 naked women, with weirdo boobs and nipples and giant afros of red hair....I cant find a pic online of it, sorry bit anyhow...its proving to be a very cool read and its making at the little braincells in my head go *ooh la la*

hmmmm

if god or some other imaginary force struck down all the assholes in the world how many ppl do you think would be left?

just curious...

i definitely got my quota of ASSHOLES today, actually all it took was one super asshole the 1st 5 mins i arrived to get the day going in a shit direction.

tomorrow is march! wow! feb flew by...tomorrow i get to start training the new person...oh yes im oh so excited about that...

HOLD ME BACK!

pffft

HALF NELSON was an interesting movie....I liked it...and not just cuz i think Ryan Gosling is the cat's pyjamas!
Was just an interesting look at life and the reality of it for ppl...I liked how the ending wasnt a Disney ending.

STRANGER THAN FICTION was ok...not quite as funny as I thought it would be though.

I have to go to work now.
My hair feels really short...I feel like I have a pixie cut ha ha ha only I dont.

WORD OF ADVICE: pay your taxes!

theory of a dead nickelcreed (thanks kelly)

my dreams have recently taken a turn for the even more demented...

the other night I had a disturbing one about getting it on with a friends dead husband, completely betraying her (hes dead in real life but in the dream he was alive, just to clarify the weirdness) and i woke up feeling the most disgusting guilt ever...

then last night i was married to chad fucking kroeger of all rock stars on the planet...i was thinner with black hair (weird!) and he married me b4 we ever slept together so i spent the whole dream waiting to screw him while he and his drummer did archery using knitting needles instead of arrows....WTF.

that will teach me 4 flicking through much music b4 bed and seeing their (nickelfuck) amnesty international type video...

all i could think of was now they can claim they're *deep* and matt good couldn't slander them so much...

I'm afraid he still can, sorry guys.

today i put the word out for no one to call me at home unless it was a level 5 emergency...after my raging yesterday i need a quiet NON WORK day...so I'm going to get a fucking haircut cuz i cant stand myself...my irritation level is through the fucking roof so if i can eliminate ONE factor of irritation I'm doing it.

the fucking englishman called me at work yesterday and then came in and did his taxes....this is what put me over the fucking edge yesterday (I'm saying fuck a lot, just so u know I'm conscious of it)...can i never be rid of the twat? am i doomed to forever have to hear from him and see him under the guise of *doing business*?? lesson learned...i will never philander with a person who uses my store as a place of business... EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

i have now launched into full on hate mode and if he calls me at home again I'm going to completely fucking freak out at him to ensure he will never contact me at home or work...its tricky at work bc i cant do shit all so long as hes inquiring about a SERVICE we provide...

"No I'm sorry, we don't fuck our customers anymore, we have discontinued that service due to lack of interest on the part of our employees so if you would kindly go fuck off and die and bore someone else to death we would appreciate it."

gawd i should be a technical writer for our company!

So yeah today is hair cut...grocery shopping and other such odds and ends.

I am determined to buy those foil stove inserts 4 my burners...I could tin foil em but...i wanna try these....

omfg....leonard...be still my beating heart....you looked so hot at the oscars i thought i might piss in my PJs...talk about growing into ones self...my gawd....

(omfg I'm an old perverted lady now)

Crash....Oh My!

ok last night, late is see CRASH is on TV...im thinking cool, havent seen that yet, so i turn it on...James Spader...cool...im wondering when Matt Dillon's gunna pop up in it...I mean it won an oscar last year so im thinking its gunna be a good movie....

so the movie gets WEIRDER and fucking WEIRDER....theres so much sex in it im amazed it won an oscar....

then it gets FREAKY DEAKY...ppl getting off on car crashes and disfigurment...

anyway so im thinking about it all night cuz its just fucking ODD....I google it and OHHHHH LOOK there are 2 CRASH movies....2004 and 1996

CRASH 1996:

Since a road accident left him with serious facial and bodily scarring, a former 'TV scientist' has become obsessed by the marriage of motor car technology with what he sees as the 'raw sexuality' of car-crash victims. The scientist, along with a crash victim he has recently befriended, sets about performing a series of sexual acts in a variety of motor vehicles, either with other crash victims or with prostitutes who they contort into the shape of trapped-corpses. Ultimately, the scientist craves a suicidal union of blood, semen and engine coolant, a union with which he becomes dangerously obsessed.

CRASH 2004:

Several stories interweave during two days in Los Angeles involving a collection of inter-related characters, a police detective with a drugged out mother and a thieving younger brother, two car thieves who are constantly theorizing on society and race, the white district attorney and his irritated and pampered wife, a racist white veteran cop (caring for a sick father at home) who disgusts his more idealistic younger partner, a successful Hollywood director and his wife who must deal with the racist cop, a Persian-immigrant father who buys a gun to protect his shop, a Hispanic locksmith and his young daughter who is afraid of bullets, and more.

YEAH, LITTLE BIT O' CONTENT DIFFERENCE HAHAHAHA

So yeah that was kinda funny...im watching this movie thinking WOOOHOO Oscar gone kinkdillly-ishus!

Shut Up & Sing To Me Leo!

Went and saw The Number 23 today...was interesting...I have a little OCD where #'s are concerned so I thought i would find it interesting...

There was this part where a body hits the pavement from a 3rd story window and someone in the theatre yelled GAWD DAMMIT bc it scared the shit out of him...that was the best part of the movie haha

I watched THE DEPARTED last night with a friend...omfg Leonardo, arent u just growing up and looking like a man! I have always been a Leo fan...no one plays a retard like Leo...OMG I LOVE YOU LEONARDO!!!!! (oh yeah and Marky Mark you fucking rule)

I have now just watched SHUT UP & SING...gawd that whole thing was so fucking insane...which is why I smiled so broadly when the DC's won all 5 Grammys they were nominated for. Fuck you redneck shits and fuck you chickenshit country radio...oh yeah and fuck you Toby Keith...hahah i love saying fuck you....fuck you George Bush....fuck you Paris Hilton...fuck you Stephen Harper...fuck you Gordon Campbell...fuck you Cher...fuck you Donald Trump...and fuck you too!

Theraputic!

So yeah its been quite the movie weekend.

Ive booked my holidays for April 3rd...being away from work for a week will be great bc ill be out of town and completely UNreachable. Ohhhh the bliss.

Im ditching the Bettie Page book...I just can not make myself finish it...im tempted to rip all the pictures out to make it worth even buying and then turfing it...

a poorly written book is blasphemy...and this coming from a person not even highly educated...if i can tell its poorly written then fuck yeah it must be bad.

I am not sure what I will read next...I have a stack of possibilities though so im not too worried...and whatever I choose is sure to be better than the last piece of crap.

At www.matthewgood.org there is a good post about the effects the 2010 Olympics will have on the non-wealthy ppl of vancouver, most specifically the poor...like when expo 86 rolled into town and the rents sky rocketed and social problems were hidden away for the good of tourism. It really is rather disgusting that none of that $ will be rerouted into any social programs. It was clear by some of the comments left that the ol GET A JOB OR DIE attitude is alive and well in the hearts of many.

I just dont think its so simple...I see ppl who appear capable of working cashing welfare chqs every day...it can be disheartening but most of the ppl I see cashing WF chqs are legit folks who arent trying to fuck anyone over.

And a lot are clearly not workforce material, whatever the reasons...maybe i over identify with fucked up, down and out ppl, i dunno but...have at it...the $ spent on gov't waste and sending the military to Iraq pisses me off far far far more than anyone on welfare double dipping.

I watched a show about contact lens' today...BARF! I can not touch my eyeballs...I will wear glasses my whole life.

Fall on your Ass Friday

SURVIVOR is kinda gay this season...I know I know u all think its gal every season...but...

I will say I thooughly enjoyed watching them all FALL HARD ON THEIR ASSES last night in the slippery slide challenge... ha ha hahahahahah I was yelling and screaming and Ayla kept telling me to shut up...it was like i was watching a hockey game or something. Dork.

Guy, you will be happy to know my strip club injury has now stopped festering and I dont seem to be suffering from lockjaw (although im sure there are ppl at work that wish i couldnt talk)...

I have to go to work.

i need extra mascara today to get me through the Friday rough patches, that and the bottle of vodka Mary left here last weekend.

i went to school in olympia...ok not really, but i did have sex there

im am freezing cold.

im getting sick.

my lips get this weird smoothness going on when im sick.

im also getting stuffy.

yay.

i could use some cold medication coma sleep right now anyway ...im hoping it wont go full blown cuz i hate being a snot factory.

i was thinking today i seem to have lost a few friends recently...it makes me wonder about myself...in regards to being judgemental.
now, while i did send connie a letter for her birthday, explaining i loved her but i was so mad at her for making self destructive decisions that i wasnt quite able to let it go enough to *pretend* i was fine with it all, i never heard from her after that and likely wont by the looks of it.

im not in a place in my life where i feel the need to chase ppl around for friendship....regardless of how much i love them, miss them and all that good shit...gawd knows im not famous for treating myself right so its kind of fucked up of me im sure but u know...i might treat myself like shit but i dont let other ppl (kid not included, im not allowed to kill her) treat me like shit... and i guess thats just something i cant wrap my head around...

id rather be alone than be with someone i dont trust to do right by me.

it seems so simple...yet...for some it is apparently not.

so yeah i guess im a judgemental fuck....ask me if im losing any sleep over it?

i need a haircut...why i dunno...its so long now it just lays there, like a pile o' hair (haha)

i could experiment and see how long i can grow it...like i do with my pit hair sometimes, see how long i can grow it til i cant stand it anymore...and ruin a brand new razor mowing it all down...

see, if your were single like me u could have FUN with things like this too!!!! gawd yes im the poster child 4 encouraging women to be single in their 30's HA ha HA ha HA

i had the weirdest customer today...stomps in...signs his chq...turns sideways and doesnt face me and wouldnt make eye contact, but spoke VERY loud, like a robot...

"I AM CHANGING MY LAST NAME TO FLETCHER, NOT THAT THERE IS ANYTHING WRONG WITH PERRY, AS IT IS A PERFECTLY FINE AND FUNCTIONAL NAME BUT FROM NOW ON IT IS FLETCHER"

ME: OAKEEDOKEE (im thinking whatever freak...but i dont dare ask for ID cuz he will lose it)

HIM: AND I WILL ALSO NOT BE USING YOUR SERVICES AGAIN AFTER THIS, NOTHING PERSONAL I JUST WONT BE NEEDING TO UTILIZE THEM, THIS IS A PERFECTLY FINE PLACE, DONT GET ME WRONG...

(he is still standing sideways to me and not looking at me....and talking so loud the whole lobby has stopped what they are doing bc hes talking in a mad voice only he isnt mad)

I count his money to him, he wont look at me still...and before he goes he tells me

"THANK YOU VERY MUCH, PLZ CHANGE MY NAME TO FLETCHER IN THE COMPUTER AND CLOSE MY ACCT, AS I SAID I WONT BE BACK AGAIN, SEE U NEXT MONTH"

HAHHAHAHAHAHA

jesus fuck i was horrified if i started to laugh he would shape shift through the glass and beat me to death.

I did win the ODDEST CUSTOMER OF THE DAY prize though!

Pete, I would have made out with you in 1985

EDIT: hey all my Pete Burns pics are fucked???! Weird

Pete Burns, what were u thinking? When Dead or Alive was at the height of their one hit wonderness I really loved the spin song, I had the 45 and everything and thought he was excessively good looking (I was a horny teenager), I still think looking at his old self he was yummy but then...something happened...he decided to be a fucking girl or just mutilate himself with lip operations and other plastic surgery...

Looking for these pics I came across an article where hes suing the Dr who botched his lips...but jesus christ...doesnt personal responsibility come into play here...?

Anyway.... enjoy this b4 and after display...it should turn you right off your brekkie.

Wanna hear something funny??? Guess who is LOOTING all *MY* cds these days??

Thats right...MY KID is looting her fat, uncool moms cd collection...raiding all the Fiona Apple, Hole, and other such cds....

This makes me laugh inside bc shes been telling me for years my music sucks ass...although u can always catch her knowing all the words when its on...and now....MUHAHAHAHAHAHHAA

Shit..I still know all the words to every Crystal Gayle song I hear, thanks mom.

I am SOOOOOO not in the mood to interview ppl today...I wanna ask them shit like "Are u even planning to show up for training or do u plan to take a different job and fucking us over?"

or "Do u have the fortitude and GUTS to do this job, cuz this job isnt for pussys, we dont want any wimp ass motherfuckers working here who will quit when it gets a little rough????"

Although im quite sure im not allowed to ask those questions. I am so stifled.

For breakfast ive been eating the things from V is for Vendetta...u know the egg in the middle of the toast thing, bird nest or whatever... they are actually good....although im sure im making them wrong.

Britney's bald head looks good for a bald head I think...not many ppl can pull that off, especially girls...

Do I think it was a genuine FUCK YOU statement to the masses, maybe...but it is more likely something to make everyone stop talking about her leaving rehab...like THAT is so fucking original or something...? Jesus... I dont understand...shes having a life crisis clearly...but shes got MILLIONS of dollars...move to fucking Tibet and chill the fuck out sister. If she lives in the middle of fucking no where and doesnt tell anyone the media aint gunna find her, so long as she doesnt wanna be found....

I dont get it...I cant stand stupid girls.

OMG check out my new favorite song of the moment:

*GRACE KELLY* by Mika....

DL that sucker....it's so gay I love it.

Ok I better go get mentally prepared for my forced socialization today....

BORINGGGGGG (say that like Sid Vicious did in Sid & Nancy)

**click on the stick man, he does cool stuff with his head**

How do you do it...? All you ppl who get off work and are able to not think about work again until u arrive the next day? HOW?

I need to master this quickly...im heading for mental burnout...and im starting to think a pay cut for a less stressful job might be worth it...but then again i think a less stressful job would be stressful anyway bc im a fucking spazz...

It has occured to me recently that im fucking boring...

I used to be a lot more interesting as a human being...now im in this stagnant zone where I work and it wastes me so that after work i am pretty much useless...

and when I am home I hardly wanna be b/c my kid treats me like I have ebola...and I cant help but take it personally bc im so fucking tired and spazzed out from work that I go off the deep end over stupid shit and then get to thinking I have the most useless life EVER and im wasting it being a *coaster*....coasting along, day to day...futureless and BORINGGGGGGGGG there is nothing fucking worse than being a gawd damn BORE. Ive never been much of a planner...the future is always so uncertain...retirement 4 example...

it doesnt occur to me 2 plan 4 that b/c im likely gunna be dead...and id rather have the $$$ now.Im so simple.

Anyway...thats my personal pity party these days...I hate my fucking job...my kid is driving me insane and IM FUCKING BORINGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!

I have go to do something about that...b/c I can deal with being a fucked up, depressed, headcase but BORING is just not something I can tolerate.

I have had company the last 2 weekends...and omfg I felt like the most BORING DRONE...I couldnt think of anything remotely interesting to talk about...didnt feel like i was myself at all...