Saturday, July 12, 2008

ohhhhh my she's in it 4 the money, no love dont mean a thingggggggg - Jenny Good u still suck

Heyyyyy Strangers....

ok well....newsflash....got that job I wanted...start July 21 so will be working FT there that week and then after work going to my previous job until July 25...then im a free agenttttttt.....itll be a shit week but ill manage.

It's all rather spooky....the transition but im gunna hold on to my holiday pay pay out from previous company and use it as a buffer if needed.

This new job is NOT providing me financial security at all, it will just be a better job, better hours, less stress and more opportunity 4 the future. I keep looking around and thinking that if i could just stand a man for longer than 5 mins and get em in here to pay half of the rent id be a styling unit....but....I cant pull that off so im paying rent on my own...which provides its own benefits...esp after having some lengthly conversations with Ayla's dad this week...my gawd. It is very difficult not to be cruel to him with the truth...
Ayla is being VERY mature and nice on her trip....she adores her little cousin Camille and her grandparents and her uncle Vince and her step mom Cindy but....she is still not warming up to her dad or her cousin Samantha...it is a personality thing and how do u tell someone that maybe their kid just doesn't like em? Maybe as she gets older she will become more accepting, I dunno but...4 now I think that's the case.

I had to explain to him the other day that Ayla grew up in a family of all women (with the exception of her uncle Jimmy)...that is a lot of estrogen and none of us are door mats or put up with a lot so in this unfamiliar family dynamic shes in its very different. It is normal for them that gramma and step mom cindy to get ripped on and teased for a lot of stuff....and it really bugs Ayla....makes her defend them and she thinks her dad and cousin etc are bully's...Her dad picks up on this and just can not see that from an outsider looking in that is how it could easily be perceived...i explained that he would get eaten alive at one of our family gatherings bc he would be the victim of that shit 10 fold but i dont think he gets it haha i was glad to hear Ayla being defensive twds her gramma and cindy...it may be just how that family is and thats fine - its just not what shes used to and i told him to just chill out and realize this is NEW for her....

My gawd he would not last 5 fucking mins at a family dinner with my family without feeling the daggers of judgement stabbing into his head hahahahahahha

It is going well...Ayla is being UBER POLITE and behaving very well and really being a fabulous sport...shes trying all sorts of new things, new food etc...today they go go-carting...tomorrow its manicures and pedicures/shopping with Cindy so....not all is lost haha

Well looks like im in the BC Musician Mag again.... (scroll to the bottom)

http://www.bcmusicianmag.com/docs/issues/WEBBCMusician07.08.pdf

Appears like it'll be a regular thing...who would have thought my rambling drivel would ever make it into print hahahaha cracks me up....it is fun though....I enjoy blathering on about music stuff so its perfect.

I have had the most HEINOUS heartburn lately.....i drink a glass of friggin water and have heartburn, its annoying as fuck....im hoping its bc im ditching the meds 100% and the weaning process may be responsible....cuz i think when i started taking them the same thing happened....weird.

G & D are coming to visit on the 16th woohoo....Rock Bay here we come....im sure we will go see strippers, eat thai food and cruise rock bay (hooker street) looking to see some weirdness.
Yeah we are all about quality entertainment!

My cat misses the kid...she wanders about looking to get mauled often...

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