Nov 20 2009

I am too scatter-brained to write anything....lots going on...lots to do...times running out with Kim....some impending doom going on.....

MEH!!!

Labels: strippers

Nov 17 2009

HAPPY BARFDAY UNCLE JIMMY!

Heading up island today until Wed. night....keep the fires burning!

vacation week commencing....woohoooo!!!

Labels: vacation

Well, thank gawd that is over. Job interviews are not usually the end of my world...I don't get too effed up over them aside from the normal discomfort of having to be social in general...and committing fakery (let's face it, it's all pure fakery)...fakery is a quality I despise and when I am socially forced to commit it I hate myself but...such is life...the nature of the beast. This interview was quick (makes me slightly suspicious that they already have their minds made up...?) and I wasn't asked any questions pertaining to how my previous skills may relate to the ones required for this position. I had questions though, one being TRAINING.

My short time in gov't has taught me one thing...gov't doesn't train you for shit. Sadly, for this position there is NO training...you will be walking into it virtually blind, u will get a few mornings of ppl sitting with you and yep, you pretty much are left flailing. I have absolutely no doubt I could do this job (glorified secretary) even without training I will pick it up and own it but...I am not gunna cry if Jim or the other person going for it gets it AT ALL...in fact I called Jim and gave him a heads up about how to prepare and told him to DO WELL PLEASE GAWD PLEASE DO WELL AND GET THE JOB haha

**I was informed that the other person interviewing went before me and I think they picked him already which is why my interview was short and honestly he would be way better suited for this position so unless Jimmy blows him outta the water i think Terry's got it...WHEW!**

With that over with I can concentrate on my company, travels and such for my next week off...

woohooo! I hope Ayla isn't a raging EMO kid the whole trip up island....gawd...I am gunna make her have fun even if it kills me! The driving will kill her I am sure but...whatever....for as often as we do stuff like this she can suck it up! IT WILL BE FUN GAWD DAMMITTTT!!! {insert freak out crazy face here}

Sushi on Saturday was yummy...I forgave Shawn for being late b/c he actually 100% completely forgot, he wasn't just late b/c he was being willy nilly etc. I was pretty PO'd at him at 1^st though...but interestingly...as I get older I don't have the same energy for staying mad at ppl as I used to have...this is not a bad thing. Plus he fixed my MP3 player issue...haha YAY! I needed to get my rockabilly tunes on there to explore how I feel about that genre of music...

The Wii is FUN....I played Mario Kart last night...It is tough not using a toggle to steer TOAD to victory! Haha OK so there wasn't a lot of victory...just a few fluke victories! I traditionally suck at video games but they are fun...and it gets Ayla out of her bedroom!!!!

Labels: fakery, job crap, no thank you, wii

November 16 2009


HAPPY BIRTHDAY COUSIN KELLY!!! XOXOXOX

Labels: birthday, kelly

November 15 2009

Full house yesterday...Phil and Shawn were here for sushi fest (Shawn managed to only be 40 mins late this time...no comment...but he fixed my computer so he is forgiven) - then Kim and Rob of course...then Aunty Pam and cousin Maggie with baby Sidlet were visiting...
Mags brought our xmas gift down and we were forced to open it...and it was a Wii for gawds sake with the Wii fit game and one other game....Holy above and beyond! Thank you Maggie and Co! I cant wait to start the Wii Fit game so the dude on it can tell me how obese I am hahahahaha

Sushi was good...I think I have perfected my spicy tuna roll...Guy...would u try it if I made it?

Today its breakfast with Loren & Maria...then I dunno...I work tomorrow and have that interview then I am off for a week THANK GAWDDDDDDDD...

Rob and Kim bought a hookah at the smoke shop...for smoking flavored tobacco...that was fun watching them set it up and put it together and use it ha h ah hahah ahaha the house smelled of fruitiness all night. lol I am not much of an inhaler so I don't get this sort of thing but it was interesting to watch all the same...plus the 2 of them are just funny so....

Labels: hookah, sushi, wii

November 12 2009

I came to work 45 mins early today. I had to bring in my new monkey attire for the POSSIBLE interview b/c gawd forbid I wear it all day! It is hanging in my cubicle...if I get this other job....BIG IF as I am sure there are others in the running with skills like mine (I gotz wicked skillz) – if I got this job it would involve having to be dressed well every day...which is slightly mortifying. What is more mortifying is the SHMOOZING requirement. My days of blissfully ignoring all ppl around me, MP3 blaring in my head would be over I think...sad but...I would be so busy I don’t think I would care much...I crave being busy again, being purposeful...

At The Bay yesterday I misted myself with some yummy overpriced perfume and today it still smells so I am in SMELL HEAVEN...MmmMMmMmmMmmm...stupid looking bottle though.

Great visit with Kori, Cedar & Mary yesterday...Mary attempted to nurse my cat...my cat is pretty neurotic as it is...she doesn’t enjoy being picked up and has a very hard time with eye contact...well Mary is a Cat Molester and the cat was hilariously tortured the whole time which I found quite enjoyable...Cedar is funny...I swear to gawd when he says “GOOOOOD COOOOKIN’!” a little part of my blackened heart pulsates and turns pink again! Mary also makes a killer tuna fish sandwich I must say...so for all your fancy catering needs please call her! Hooked Kori up with some new tunes so the day over all was damn sweet!

Hot Donna & I plastered the town with Ryan McMahon posters...wish we had WAY MORE but...such is life. Will see if I can get some more...really want a good turn out for him this time for a damn change...so all u locals prepare to be annoyed by my insistence you attend...we had a good afternoon til I killed her with my perfume stench...Sorry Donna....don’t die of an asthma attack please.

The Wildfire Bakery here on Quadra has the outside of its bldg dedicated to art; basically they let artists do murals of a graffiti nature on either side of the bldg of whatever they want...well apparently the current one depicts pigs in cop uniforms and ppl handcuffed in Olympic ring hand cuffs...awesome...really want to go look at it and get some pictures but of course there is an uproar...ppl are complaining...writing letters and making calls saying its atrocious...Ummmm, how about you focus your RAGE and letter writing skills on something WORTHWHILE YOU ASSHOLES and not a piece of art work you happen to not agree with? Pick your battles...there are hungry ppl in your town with nowhere to live and u have a Premier who is raping the shit out of the province and u decide to be outraged over a fucking painting? Idiocy.

Will go get pics of this ATROCITY tomorrow I think.

Donna saw the Misfits last night...said they are way over-rated....but the Jolts kicked ass.

Gawd it is gunna be busy as shit the next 10 days starting Saturday...Sushi day with Shawn & Phil, Aunty Pam, Mags and Sidlet are coming that afternoon for a visit too...then my sister Kim & Rob arrive Sat evening for the week! On Tuesday we will head up island for an adventure and catch the 3 pm ferry to Powell River to go visit/socialize with the family and friends for the night....then head back down island Wednesday, visit with Pam and Jim....then I think Kim and Rob go home Friday or Saturday, not sure...then Saturday evening is the Ryan McMahon show and VonBones afterwards...SUNDAY is quiet resting day and Monday Guy & Donna will be staying over b/c they are coming down to see Billy Bragg...then life will be quiet, still and somewhat boring again...til December :o)

I haven’t seen my sister in so long it is gunna be great...lots of laughing...

Ohhh just got a call...interview is Monday!! WOOHOO!!!

Labels: art, busy as shit, Jolts, Misfits, perfume, Ryan McMahon, VonBones, whiney assholes, Wildfire Bakery

Labels: Cedar, Kori, Mary

November 11 2009

1st off: HAPPY BIRTHDAY JERRI ANN!!!!!
and it is Remembrance Day so listen to some bagpipes and get teary today please...Me, I am going to listen to a few Matt Good anti-war songs {I recommend Can't Get Shot in the Back if You Don't Run & A Silent Army in the Trees}....

I have made a decision about my ovaries...I am not resuming the birth control pill on Sunday...I cannot bare it... ***ALL MEN NOW SHOULD SKIP TO THE NEXT PARAGRAPH IF YOU ARE SQUEAMISH AND DELICATE ABOUT THIS SHIT*** I have had my period for the last 30 days...no shitting you...99.9% of women on the pill get a lovely regular cycle light and fabulous...sure I get a lighter experience but 30+ days worth can go fuck itself. This will impact me getting laid next month and I am NOT risking such a travesty...add in the zit cluster that WILL NOT go away, I know its the fucking pill fucking my shit up so I am just done...sure my MAC COMPACT helps with this zit cluster but...I don't want zits...they are not conducive to getting laid. THE END.

Kori, Mary and Cedar are visiting today! WOOHOO! They should be here anytime...and then Donna and I are going for a Tudor style lunch and plastering the city with Ryan McMahon posters for his show Nov 21...woohooo!!!!!

No word on that interview but I was advised there would not be a days notice so tonight I have to study the job description and cross reference my own skills to it...so I am ready to dazzle...I will take my dress clothes to work so i don't have to wear them (HAHAHA) and put them on as needed....yes I hate wearing dress clothes...

My walk last night was great...I walked by myself {Donna was at swim class and Alex blew a stitch whilst humping} and have taken to just singing without sound as a I walk....which is why I prefer walking at night, it is less noticeable...I just rock the fuck out...and have a great old time...I am confident it looks like I am talking to myself but whatever.

Yes, I still want to punch that snitty email lady in the face @ work. I have added her to my FUCK YOU list.

Labels: anti-war, birth control pill, birthday, Matthew Good, walking, zit cluster

Labels: assholes, cottage cheese, jackasses at work, mindfulness, rant

Labels: dress clothes suck, idiots, job crap, scarf smell

I am wearing a dirty shirt today to protest going to work. ha!

Labels: live, Matthew Good, mgtour2009, pictures, scarf, sign, ticket

November 9 2009

I have to work today. This should be my flex day but I traded it for a day next week so I could have a week off cuz my sisters coming. Blah. Wah. Sob. Meh.

It has JUST occurred to me that there are only 4 pay chqs prior to the end of Dec when I am to be laid off...and also only the 4 pay chqs before xmas...by now I am always done and have xmas covered/saved for oh but not this year no - all my shit is fucked up. I am buying for Ayla this year and that is all...I am not even sure I will be doing xmas cards honestly...I am dead set against getting nickled and dimed to death this year...which always happens, it seems, to this atheist xmas hating grinch...I don't even have 1 iota of a clue wtf to get Ayla for xmas...that's how uninspired I am. Blah. Wah. Sob. Meh.

I went grocery shopping last night...idiot...Sunday evenings are NOT the time to go...I must remember that...I was behind a pair of ladies in line who I swear to fucking gawd it was their 1st time ever grocery shopping...one had on this garish leopard print coat which just made me laugh b/c it was like they were rich and never had to shop for groceries before (cuz the *help* always did it 4 them) til the recession and now they had to do all their own shopping or something so....they looked weird being in the ghetto Fairway Market all dolled up in cat print and shit...seriously had no fucking idea how to navigate the check out.....

Yesterday I had so much make up on left over from the night before that I didn't bother to wash my face, I just wore it all again yesterday...same hair too...all I did yesterday was mope about on the couch watching shitty tv movies...GHOST was on....fuck...that was painful to watch yet I did. Sucker...although I did enjoy looking at Demi Moore's face...I did not enjoy Patrick Swayze or Whoopie Goldberg in the slightest.

Labels: Matthew Good, shopping idiots, xmas sucks balls

Nov 8 2009

I am suffering from Post Traumatic Matt Good Show Syndrome....cuz now the shows over and im showless. I got nothin'....

Labels: banter, Matthew Good, mgtour2009, Victoria BC

I am leaving to go to MATT GOOD right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Labels: Matthew Good, spazz

Nov 7 2009

5+ hrs til MATTHEW GOOD!! WOOT!

OK....who wold have thought losing weight would be complicated? Apparently you have to consider the muscle loss along with the fat loss...and incorporate other exercises to strengthen joints and such so you dont end up injurying yourself...what I have found recently is if I go like I need to to keep up the weight loss (walking 10k per day 4-5 days a week) I end up with crippled hips and knees....so apparently one has to do resistance training to ensure these areas are strong...I still am hauling around a lot of myself so until a bit more of me is gone it will continue to be an issue I'm sure...but who cares! IT'S MATT GOOD DAY!

And today I finally passed someone killing myself coming up the hill home......that's right ladies and gents...I PASSED a 70 year old woman in a pink jacket...I kicked her sloth-like ass...fuck yeah I RULE!!!!

Labels: Matthew Good, walking

November 7 2009

8+ hrs til MATTHEW GOOD! WOOT! WOOT!

I have had a terrific morning...I got up after a decent sleep in (for me, was up at 745!)...tiddled about...made some calls...did dishes, moved shit around...listened to MG all morning...sigh...life is sometimes decent, you know?!

Ayla's Ugg boots......were actually REAL UGGS! This shocked me...I don't fully understand it but 110.00 for 200.00+ boots...not a bad deal at all...I did learn they are now made in China, not Australia anymore and since the parcel was shipped from China I am sure someone broke into the factory and made off with a shit load and is selling them and I am OK with that...ha-ha Ayla is thrilled out of her head....she has Uggs and a Y Membership..what else could she need in life?!

I am gunna go for a walk this afternoon...so I am all spritely (I made that word up...I have the definition in my head) for tonight....which of course, in case u forgot, is MATTHEW GOOD @ THE MCPHERSON THEATRE!! WOOT! Then off to Monty's for a beer and people watching...oh and plus there are boobies there. Speaking of boobies:



If you cannot appreciate that MG rant then...well...I feel sorry for you. (Adele, this is worth the dial up download time!)

Labels: Matthew Good, Ugg Boots

JESUS I have the perfectest hair today and the minute I go outside after work in the wind and rain it will look like poop.

Hmmmmf!

Labels: hair

(I love how some Q's are just missing)
1. What is your best friend's Mom's name? Marjorie
2. Where is the weirdest place you have a mole? I don’t really have any that I know of...who wants to be my mole inspector...(ewww)
3. Who was the hottest teacher you ever had? Art class, grade 9, he had a limp but you could tell he was kick ass and held back in order to keep his job...
4. Have you ever made out in a movie theatre? Oh yeah
5. What body part do you wash first? Arms...how weird is that?
6. Do you hover over the toilet in public bathrooms? Nope if it’s too gross to plant my ass on I just won’t use it
7. What's the strangest talent you have? I don’t wanna say b/c then the calls will start flooding in and the line ups outside my apt bldg start.
8. Do you have an innie or an outtie? Innie...
9. What's your favourite flavoured Pringles? Original but sour cream and onion is good...so long as you don’t read the fat content of either.
10. Have you ever been tied up? Do you want to be? Nope...and I don’t think so...
11. What was the last thing you ever got grounded for? Oh fuck when wasn’t I grounded...I am pretty sure I was grounded from 1983-1987
12. Do you parallel park or drive around the block? Neither
13. Have you ever had two dates in one night? Yes...
14. How many times have you been cussed out? I cannot count that high
15. Which shoe do you put on first? Left I think
17. Have you ever been to a gay bar? Yes....fun!
18. Girls—are mental
19. Is there one thing all of your love interests have had in common? Sense of humor...oh and they are dirt bag liars.
20. Did you French kiss before you were 16? Yes...
21. Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting? Wtf.
22. Who is the last person you usually think about before you fall asleep? A boy
23. Have you ever had a poem or a song written about you? SHUT THE FUCK UP!
24. If you had to choose to not ever wash your bed sheets again or not wash your bath towel ever again, which would you rather not wash? Ok what a disgusting question...oddly enough and even though it likely doesn’t make sense.....the towel.
25. Have you ever found anything in your parents' bedroom that was questionable? Hahahah hahahah hahahahaha Yes and I am not telling
26. What was your childhood nickname? J.J.
27. When is the last time you played the air guitar? This morning in the elevator at work
28. Have you ever peeked in the opposite sexes locker room? Uhhh yeah duh
29. What's the weirdest thing you have done while driving? Don’t drive.
30. Have you ever bitten your toenails? As a kid yes, I wish I was that flexible now, I’d be far more popular with men
31. How do you eat your cookie? Raw chocolate chip cookie dough please
32. When working out at the gym, do you wear a belt? Like I could find a belt that would fit me...OR WORK OUT IN A GYM!
33. Name something you do when you're alone that you wouldn't do in front of others: Sing/Rock Out/Dance
36. How many drinks does it take before you get drunk? Depends...sometimes a few sometimes no amount will do it.
37. Have you ever sniffed an animal's butt? Jesus Christ I am happy I can say no to this one
38. How often do you clean out your ears? Daily
39. Do you scrunch or fold your toilet paper? Loose scrunch
40. About how many times a day do you pick a wedgie? I don’t have wedgies daily.
41. Do you have any strange phobias? Strange, I dunno if they are strange but...bugs/flying insects like moths that are unpredictable and floppy, bears, my teeth breaking or falling out
42. Have you ever stuck a foreign object up your nose? Yes..
43. What is the stupidest thing you've ever done at a bar? Aside from falling down probably the time at Club Soda in Vancouver circa 1989...the line up to the bathroom was long and I couldn’t go outside b/c they wouldn’t let u back in and I was certain Nikki Sixx would be there (ha) – we had just had WAY too many shots of some disgusting alcohol and I was gunna throw the fuck up, no stopping it...so I put my head under the table, threw up all over the floor, sat back up...impressed no one noticed.....then when everyone gravitated back to the table I said “OMG this table smells, let’s move to this one over here.” I somehow managed to avoid all humiliation...I did however arrive home later missing my shoes so....
44. Have you ever been dared to do something you totally regretted? No but I have done shit I later wished I hadn’t haha
45. Have you ever called your love interest by an ex's name? No. That would be hideous.
46. Have you caught a guy/girl farting while on a date? “caught”....well that would require dating ppl who tried to hide the fact they were farting on a date.
47. Have you ever played naked Twister? No and I am very confident I never will.
48. Have you ever been drunk at work? No but I wish I was drunk at work every day
49. Have you ever found your dates/lover's brother or sister more attractive? Does brother in law count?
50. Do you want to bring sexy back? I think I did. Duh!

Labels: 50 Random Questions, Time waster

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Nov 4 2009

Aunty Cathy has H1N1 - which would be ok IF she didn't have Lupus and a very compromised immune system...fucking germs.
She lives on a farm in the middle of nowhere for shits sake...its like it was waiting for her the minute she went into town to get groceries.

RUDE.

:o(

Labels: H1N1 can lick my balls

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Labels: religion flow chart

November 3 2009

Labels: hissy fit, Matthew Good, sobriety, zits

Nov 3 2009

My arms feel much better today....I can pick up binders without dropping them today...THANK GAWD! My binder picking up duties have suffered a horrible blow the last 2 days.

Union Rep meeting in a few minutes...there are some pretty PO'd peeps here re: the inept placement process...see, I am lucky...I have ZERO expectations and expect nothing but ineptitude and the bullshit run around from the gov't so I am not shocked or mortified at all.
Some ppl have gotten the run around extra crispy style as of late so they are gunna be ranting like mofos...I am all for listening to a good rant...esp a justified one.

I could eat a wheel barrow full of chocolate bars today. But I will not. I will eat a tuna sandwich and get heartburn from it at lunch...cuz that's how I roll, bitches!

Labels: fuck the world, tuna, union rep

won't stop twitching!!!!!!!!!!

It's like I am on Prozac again!

Labels: eye twitch

Nov 2 2009

Wow...day 1 of the “Re-Org” and I can assure you there is nothing organized about anything going on here...NOTHING.

Labels: I love you Rick Springfield, Olympics suck, William Katt, work sucks

November 2 2009

Karma is a bitch.
Every shitty thing I have ever done (this week anyway) has been paid back in shit karma...my PICTURE folder vanished....that's right....just disappeared....thats all my Matt Good pictures I have taken at shows.....video....pictures of family...friends...all other live show pictures...all of it...just disappeared...was there yesterday morning....then Ayla was on in the afternoon and then in the evenings I go on and SHAZAAAAM! Gone. (U have no idea how tempting it is to go in and delete all her shit and pretend it was an *accident*...)

Needless to say I shit the fucking bed....I am trying to run data recovery software but the shit doesn't come with instructions and I am having a hard time navigating the shit....
I may have to have Shawn come over tonight....b/c I am a little sick about this....

Back to work this morning....ugh.
I think I am gunna invest in an external hard drive.....

Labels: data recovery, fuck, oops, wah wah wah

Nov 1st 2009

If you have known me for any length of time you know how the time change is a complete and utter mindfuck for me...I have to purposefully NOT think about it or it just fucks with me...I think myself in circles and get obsessed with the concept of losing/gaining an hour when in all reality it doesn't friggin matter at all.

I thought I was awesome sleeping in til 8 am this morning....yeah well its 7 really...annoying.
Especially to the ppl I called this morning thinking it was an hour later than it really was hahaha oops sorry

I am sore today but not as crippled as I expected...did I tell you how long I lasted with face eyelashes on my eyes Friday night?? About 2 mins...glue didn't even dry and I yanked em off...COULD NOT STAND IT....if i try it again next year I will have to have someone do my eye make up before I look at them....then I might leave them on hahaha OK maybe not....too girly girl for me...felt like a fraud!
The bullet hole lasted til after 1 am though....finally me and my HOT head couldn't deal anymore b/c the heat was making the wax go weird so i went in the bathroom at lucky and removed it and the bloody....which left an awesome red stain down my face..HAWT!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAN BRAZIER AND CRAIG MY COUSIN!!!!!!!!

Labels: fake eyelashes, time change

Oct 31 2009

Everyone feeling ghoulish?
I am settled in for a quiet night of thin crust pizza and a movie. (EDIT: already ate it and watched it, I LOVE YOU MAN)

Today I helped Erin and Amanda move...so I am broken but it was great to meet their good friends Elaine and Carmen, who I've heard so much about it just seemed like I knew them already...
Moving their crap has inspired me to start getting rid of more stuff....haha

Last night...omg was so fun! The music was friggin divine and the eye candy was crippling!
I didn't know where to look...hot stand up bass grrl, Big John Bates or the nudie chicks! Its a wonder I don't have whiplash.

Had a fab chat with Alex today...inspired me to take care of some unfinished business I had been waiting to deal with...my summer hump, while fizzled ages ago due to issues of incompatibility and general weariness, has turned out to not be NEAR the honest and upfront person previously claimed and it was clear pretending to be pals was not something I could do in good conscience being that any integrity I thought was there no longer existed. It is a shame b/c aside from his cocky, player bullshit persona I think there is a good person in there but I am too old to wade through misogyny, dishonesty & other such bs to have a so-called friendship with someone who really is not interested in a real, genuine friendship at all. I will miss the banter but in the end that's all it was...there was nothing genuine about anything that went on, that much is clear and while it is too bad b/c there was a bizarre kinship there it's also hardly the end of the world. It feels better this way...

Considered trekking to Nanaimo tonight but moving went too late...plus I have lunch plans with Thomas who is in town tomorrow from Winterpeg! That should be fun...he is a hoot.

OMG 7 days til MATT GOOD!!!!! Weeeeeeee!!!!

Labels: Big John Bates, dirt bag liars

Labels: gordon campbell, Olympic protest, steve harper, torch relay ceremony

October 30 2009

The weather couldn't be worse except if a real hurricane started. lol
Wind and rain....will only strengthen my resolve motherfuckers. Now if only I had a rain coat gawd dammit...

(I am so hardcore haha)

Guy & Donna should be here shortly....

Good luck to lovely Alex today with her surgery....please send her all sorts of awesome vibe-age...!!!

Must not drink anything...no place to pee down there....
Pictures to follow....

Dissident out!

Conklin Surname Origin:

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Labels: Ayla, cute, friends

October 29 2009

I think it is fair to say a lot of people don't understand the dissent over the Olympics issue...It's just sports right?...on a grand media driven scale...tradition...no harm done...if it wasn't happening here it would be happening somewhere else anyway....right?

Sure it would...the big machine would roll on without a doubt...but the fact is IT IS HERE...and it shouldn't be here...not when BC has the highest child poverty rate in all of Canada...why aren't we all ashamed of these numbers? This is BC for christs sake...a province rich with beauty, resources (?), spirit and culture...yet we suck at taking care of the ones who need it most. I am ashamed...we should all be ashamed.

For me, protesting the Olympics tomorrow is about voicing shame. I am embarrassed to live in a province that mirrors the ideals of greed, profit and indifference to basic human needs of its people. I don't think for 1 second Gordon Campbell or his team of greed mongering mouth-breathers is going to give a shit that we are out there full of anger, shame and frustration...I don't think it will do anything to stop the machine...but if it makes one person stop and question wtf they are doing out there RAH RAH RAH'ing a fucking torch relay then it is worth doing. Even if it just triggers 1 person to consider another perspective...totally worth it.

Guy's opinion of this travesty says it all quite simply:

I'm out of humor on this subject. I'm so angry that I can't even joke about it anymore. We can't afford school buses in this province. We can't afford to have a functioning environment ministry. We can't afford humane care for our elders. We can't afford programs to help kids with autism. We can't afford sweet fuck all, but we can afford 4 billion dollars on silly games designed to make real estate speculators rich? FUCK YOU CAMPBELL!

Yeah....that's why Guy should be the Premier. In an ideal world it would be Monty vs Campbell...not in votes (too corrupt) but in a bush-wacking contest...winner gets to run the province...fuck yeah!

So while you fuckers are NOT thinking about anything beyond Olympic hockey tickets, mascot stuffies and fashionable Olympic hoodies try to consider that this is a much deeper issue than a bunch of fun & games...this is the heart of self-serving people running this province, being irresponsible with your money and not having your back at the end of the day. How this sits well with people is beyond me...

Labels: dissent, fuck the olympics, gordon campbell, protest

JERK CHILD!

Just when I thought I wanted to go back to working for a private company I come across this old post of mine:

http://cherishedmisery.blogspot.com/2006/03/hmmmmffff.html

Oct 28 2009

I am so broken today...10k in new shoes = bad idea. I also have a brain bleed...I am sure it is a brain bleed...it feels like my eyeballs are filling with blood...the pressure in my skull is intense. I just wanna get home and go to sleep...crawl into my bed under my warm fuzzy blanket and spoon a pillow (I have even named this pillow, I am such a romantic!) and drift off...into a post-work coma. I think the headache is making me blind as well. Maybe I should leave early.

After work I have to wander down to the store to purchase some signs...for Friday...that’s all I am saying about that. I have the bluest shirt on today and I can’t stand it...listen ppl, I have given this bright color shit a try...it is just NOT me...I don’t friggin like it...ok...get off my back...lemme stick to my dark colors. I don’t wanna be a bright sunshine-y slower asshole. In fact I am not a flowery fucking human at all and I dunno why I gotta keep feeling compelled to TRY to be cuz I don’t even wanna be one...Happy chirpy ppl fucking irritate the shit out of me...even the few friends I have who are positive, I adore them and love them but that quality irks me. SO THERE.

Wow I got hostile right there...it’s the brain bleed. Maybe a disgusting spider crawled into my ear/brain and is munching on it, causing severe pain and damage...it could even be permanent...! That would be tragic for you all...not me b/c the spider will keep chomping and I wouldn’t know the damn difference. I will be Cerebral Palsy Girl in a matter of minutes I am sure.

10 days til MATHEW GOOD IS HERE! IN MY TOWN!!!!! OOOOO!!!!!!!! (shut up Kelly M)

Is there a better internet treasure than youtube? Seriously...as a music fan who in the 80s and such has to search and stumble upon certain music...and had to pay for it just to hear it you tube is like a dream come true....the stuff on there is amazing...I love it..I can look up Rick Springfield performances from when I was 11...sigh...gone are the days where you have to buy an entire album for 1or 2 good songs...

By the way that funny sign on that pole from yesterday is still on the pole HAHAHAHA

Oct 27 2009

The readership here has increased lately...I think the readers should go into the comments and say HELLO....Just to be nice & sociable...that’s what the internet is all about right? Then you won’t just be a creeper, you’ll be a participant of sorts.

Today I defied a donut...that’s right bitches. A box of Tim Horton donuts sat on the potluck table and we had a showdown and I won...eventually I slammed the fucking donut box lid closed and screamed “STOP STARING AT ME!” and left. They will miss me here, I am sure of it.

Matthew Good is only 11 days away!! SQEEEEEEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is coming up fast and I am super pumped...so I am just hoping Master Good kicks the pneumonia and feels better by then...STOP INFECTING HIM WITH YOUR DISGUSTING FAN GERMS PEOPLE....gawd! Selfish bastards. My poor sick pretend husband...I would make him Miso For Sick People Soup if he would let me...next time any of u are sick and local lemme know...cuz my fabulous Japanese Canadian ex boss Chris showed me a secret soup recipe....miso, garlic, green onion, smoked salmon, veggies, ginger, egg, etc.....all boiled up good... mmmmmmmmm...


I am helping the Awesome Funny Lesbos move this weekend...moving other ppl is so fun (ok not really) b/c you don’t have to be the stressed out one...you are just the mule...I am a good mule. Hee Haw!

I saw the FUNNIEST sign someone put up on a pole on the way to work today...I will post the picture...it is pretty damn awesome...I am not sure what the point of it was but it made my day so who cares.

I need to invest in one kick ass so sharp it will cut your gawd damn finger off fancy Henckels knife...
I frigging hate cutting up meat with a shit knife...DO YOU HEAR MEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?

Labels: donut, germs, Matthew Good, miso soup, sharp knife

October 27 2009

I am too tired to live.
I haven't been at work since Wednesday and it has been BEAUTIFUL...sheer bliss...even with that seminar of weirdness. But the party is over now...so over. Back to the land of bullshit liars & disorganization...the land of poor work ethic & dog fuckery. Sigh.

Operation Dumbo Drop is underway (that means they are dropping the torch off on Friday - Greece to Victoria)....Guy is coming down Friday so we can protest the Olympic Torch Relay crapola...will be a fun adventure...and also interesting to be around like-minded people.

I have to go try and become human in the shower.

Labels: fuck the olympics, work hatred

Labels: murals

October 26 2009

I don't wanna go back to work tomorrow. I kinda almost wish they would lay me off...and get it over with. I cannot put into words how fucking hideous work is...the shit going on, my own apathy...bad combo...I know buck up whiny bitch and be happy u have a job for a few more months....wah wah wah fuck.

Ok...someone I haven't seen in a million yrs just contacted me on FB...she's the ex of an old friend of mine who had a daughter I was completely in love with....completely...so she & I met on a few occasions when I had her daughter to pass off to her but we never KNEW each other...although I knew enough. So now she is chatting me up which is okay - I don't talk to her ex anymore so there's no conflict of interest really - but she is telling me stuff that is freaking me the fuck out...I am not easily freaked out...I dunno what to make of it...but I am completely MINDFUCKED. I don't even know what the fuck to do with myself. Stay the fuck out of it Conklin....RUN JENNNNNAY RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!

We both know it was a girl, back in Bethlehem. <--favorite song lyric of the day

Labels: in old yellowcake, rasputina

Michael Moore's CAPITALISM was pretty good....I do like him a fair bit though...so I am probably not super objective about his work. He makes ppl think...and gets worked up and that's what ppl need. The whole world needs it really.

Re: Friendship ~ ever noticed how women tend to give men far more breathing room in friendships than they would ever dream of offering to female friends? I have been thinking about this recently...it is sad...its beyond the acceptance of the fundamental differences between the sexes...its like we expect less of them b/c they are inept in so many ways...and we accept this ineptitude...if our girlfriends treated us like men do as friends, well, it just wouldn't fly.

WTF is that about?

When I look back at a number of friendships I have had with males it is astounding to me that they made it past month one, they wouldn't have if they were being graded like the women are... My gawd the shit we will put up with just to be near testosterone - sickening...on the other hand...when you have different expectations for that group of individuals it seems perfectly fine until they piss u off and u start examining the give & take ratio of the friendship...not a petty score keeping look but simply asking yourself "What am I getting out of this exactly?" That should be what we ask ourselves on a regular basis, wtf am I getting out of this? how is this enhancing my existence? More often than not you are getting fat fuck all (and truth be known you should ask this about all friendships, not just the ones with men)...and u just like how the motherfuckers look and smell. That is the ghey! (I do have 1 male friend I have known for a long time who doesn't fit this stereotype haha You know who u are...)

Now with all that said...I'm SURE men feel women are just as fucked up for different reasons...too bad they are wrong. (j/k sorta haha)

haah hAH HAHahah HAHHAahhahahaah HHAHAh ahHAAHAHAH hahahahaha

Labels: boys suck at it generally, capitalism, friendship, once

October 25 2009

OMFG today feels like a complete pig out day....I woke up thinking about ice cream, nachos and cheese and chips n dip. If I had to pick one I would pick Lay's plain potato chips and Philadelphia onion dip. (typing that just gave me lady wood, not even kidding) Eating that would likely make me sick...but I can dream...that onion dip is a food I cannot be near b/c if I taste it the whole tub is gone...don't even need chips for it hahaha Will be walking long and hard today avoiding the badness.

Today...Sunday...how I loathe the Sunday....I went back on FB Friday after my little sister made me feel sad...she is good at guilt tripping me into things...I don't even think she tries which is the scary part. FB has lost its luster for me now though...which is not a bad thing in the slightest. Am trying to avoid things that facilitate my isolation...meeting new ppl has not panned out in the slightest...the last thing I need is to keep doing is invest time in ppl who are so fucking high maintenance, non-straight fwd and weird that it defeats the purpose of broadening ones circle.
Yes coming from me I am sure that is a funny statement but trust me, it is true.
And all these ppl who are crawling out of the woodwork from yesteryear can take a hike as well please. If you burned me once I can guarantee you you wont get a 2nd chance.

On a positive note...it is a very gray, cool day out there...it is a wandering day today I think...camera in hand....might make my way downtown for a flick as there are a few I have my eye on...the new Michael Moore movie Capitalism will certainly get me hopping mad...or Couples Retreat if I feel like a mindless ha ha movie experience....or Zombieland...

A few phone calls to make first...

October 24 2009

My little brother was the funniest person ever...not just his sense of humor...but just they way he was ...I guess b/c we had similar mannerisms and familiarity (had to look up the spelling for that, it seemed all wrong) he was always able to make me laugh harder than anyone else could. He had the same effect on our sister Kim as well.

It has been 9 years today since his suicide...an event that certainly rocked any sort of foundation that I managed to build for myself up until that point in 2000. Of course the last 9 years have been spent "getting used" to his absence, against my will...lamenting it in my head. There isn't a bigger mindfuck than losing someone this way...losing someone who was for all intents and purposes a kind, non-selfish, non-asshole human being who always put others before himself. Yes that's right...contrary to popular belief people who commit suicide don't do it b/c they are selfish, weak or gave up - taking the "easy" way out. I think that is an incredibly narrow and simplistic ideology...you are entitled to think it of course but I will certainly think less of you for lacking any iota of empathy or ability to recognize the effect that serious depression has on the human psyche. If someone attacked you with a knife on the street....what human "gives up" ? Nooooo you fight to the fucking death to save yourself, you rip eyeballs out, kick, punch, gouge, tear, you fucking run if u have to in order to save yourself....b/c instinctually we are programmed to do so...making suicide CLEARLY a mental health issue not a character issue (I cannot explain the amount of human ignorance I have encountered on this subject).

None of Glenn's issues surrounding his exit were permanent...he simply lacked the ability to cope with them all at that particular time. Coping skills are the 1st thing to go when depression inches into your brain...this I know 1st hand...just not on such a grand scale. Bottom line is Glenn lacked the ability to yank himself up by the boot straps...the depression ate away at his core for so long he was just done. Do I wish he went and got help like he said he did? Of course...the right help could have sailed him through the severe rough patch to get him on a path of recovery...Do I wish I flew out there and dragged him to a hospital before he was left to his own devices? Of course. I wish for a lot of things...

Seeing as I rarely get what I want {mad face} I have to settle for remembering him as the warm, caring, funny music guru that he was...24 years with someone is a drop in the bucket of time...especially when so much of that time was wasted in midst of family turmoil and bullshit none of us as kids had any control over...there is no video of him anywhere that my sister and I know of which is heart breaking...what I wouldn't give to hear even his voice/laugh right now and not just in my head. There are 24 years worth of fun and games with Glenn...and for that I should be grateful...but I am a glutton and it just wasn't enough of a good thing.

Today is not a woebegone sad day...its like every other day he isn't here...it sucks but what do you do? Fuck all.

Funny story: after the divorce it was like Glenn was in prison and in order for me to send him GOOD music I had to get creative...I was 13ish....he was 7ish...I tried to send him cassettes previously but his new step mom was like a warden and always censored everything, listened to them and deemed them INAPPROPRIATE....so he never got them....so what I did was made tapes that always started off with a completely flaming lame gheylordfocker Michael Jackson song......then all subsequent songs filling the cassette were 80s hair metal like Motley Crue etc...This worked! He got the good music by awesome trickery tactics! (yes I realize the word "good" is not necessarily accurate NOW)

It was really uncharacteristic that my younger siblings & I always managed to stay very connected throughout our childhoods - we all did lead completely separate lives & childhoods, provinces away from each other and were connected by nothing but some sort of invisible tin can and string device. I don't think the parents had much to do with it either (I could be wrong but I don't feel like they did their due diligence in that department either, sure they could have denied us contact of each other but there was no reason for that so they get no credit)...it just was what it was and whatever the reason for it I am glad it worked out as it did.

Today I will play some of Glenn's favorite music....and just be glad I ever knew him at all...
that is all you can do really...be happy with what you had and have and move forward...

NO COMMENTS PLEASE.

Labels: Glenn

Oct 23 2009

Yesterday I was having a conversation with someone about dinosaurs, how the t-rex variety were so gawd damn angry and ruled the world for a long while, brutal killers...ultimate predator etc...so today...im in this gawd forsaken course, drifting off b/c it was so boring...and suddenly...I was struck with the most amazing epiphany...Out of the blue I know why the t-rex dudes were so mad all the time....sexual frustration! Look at their wee little gimpy arms...they could not masturbate! I have always said mother nature was a fabulous force for allowing humans to evolve with long arms for such activities and here the poor t-rex's were denied.....!!! It made them fierce and unrelenting killers but....sheesh. Rude. So after I had this epiphany I thought I was a gawd damn genius and decided to finally file for Genius Status after putting it off for so long...

Then shortly after this epiphany....Coral made a comment about a really weird lady in the class...her name is Merry (the spelling alone is odd), she was odd, she has tourettes-like sneezes, she spoke kind of weirdly loud b/c she is hearing impaired, sure not her fault but it still made her bizarre to watch and listen to...anyhoo...im sitting there all minding my beeswax and Coral writes on the notepad that Merry reminds her of the Albino from The Princess Bride movie....well fuck if I could stop laughing. I didn't go full blown lose my shit laughing but gawd dammit I was on the cusp! It was close....

Ate the most awesomeness of burgers with Coral and Jeremy for lunch today...you know sometimes u get a burger that is just a step above a regular burger and you wanna bronze it and put it on a shelf to remember it always...? That was the burger I had today! It was at Smiths Pub in case you wanna go there for one and see 4 yourself...

O.M.F.G. Ran into the Englishman 2 days in a row....TWICE IN ONE WEEK!!!!! Jesus H Christ. If phone calls resume after this I am going to change my number.

It is windy & stormy out...I am grooving to Master Good...15 days til MATTHEW GOOD! squeeeeel!

Ok I gotta go find some Velcro!

Labels: albino, masturbation, Matthew Good, princess bride, Smiths Pub, t-rex, velcro

October 23 2009

I would hump this day if I could...that is how much I love it!
I quite enjoyed walking in the rain last night...DIVINE...it unfortunately perked me up so much I was awake until 12:30. Wide awake puttering...looking fwd to some down time this weekend...catch up on some sleep...

It has just been reported to me that there is a website where a woman humps a new cake every day...I gotta go look for it......{please wait patiently while I search}...ok...it does exist...I saw pictures....in the meantime look at the fun cakes I found!


OK im off to go endure the day 2 of crappy seminar hell......gawdddddddddddddddd

Labels: cake, hump

Labels: fuck the olympics

Oct 22 2009

Omfg - I think faking ass burning diarrhea is in order for tomorrow...The seminar itself is boring as shit but...there's this woman in the group who loves the sound of her own voice...you know the type...always has something to say...but it's only of value to the voices in her own head...knows everything and has an opinion on everything, doesn't know when to shut the fuck up or how to not sound like a 1st rate twat. She is grating. Coral & I near pissed ourselves when Allen, another seminar victim, basically told her to STFU in a polite way...He deserves a cookie!

Even with her there though it is better than being at work so...I will go and try to stay awake tomorrow despite the threat we have to do some gay homosexual role playing...when I know when that is then the ass burning diarrhea may kick in.

Coral bought me lunch so I said I would do a post about her...just her & her awesomeness. So I will do that later...

Bought Shawn dinner and traded him a new router...Ohhh I love the barter system. Apparently I have no gay-dar...we were out and I was bantering with the waiter b/c he took a shining to my caustic sarcastic nature and Shawn told me he was gay...makes sense...only the gays appreciate me...DAMMIT! *tosses self off patio*

The FB pressure is mounting...ppl are threatening me. I will resist.

Labels: annoying people who should die, gay, poop

Oct 22 2009 Thursday

Sweet Jesus I slept like a dead platypus last night...I don't have to be at that seminar until 9 am so I get some extra start time today which is nice...and I don't have to walk through the usual hood so I can avoid the crazy pants lady for the next 2 days at least, actually I am not back at work until Tuesday so WOOT! WOOT! to that...

I think my anemia is kicking my ass...I gotta start taking those dreaded iron pills I think..I was INSTRUCTED to do so back in June and I have been a dick about that. But really...who wants to willingly take something thats going to turn their poop to stone? NOT I!!!!!! Noooooooooo...better load up the fridge with fruit. Ugh. Don't worry, I won't offer a play by play or post an epic photo expose (that's ex-po-zay) on it...I do have boundaries! (seriously!)

I guess I better go...I wouldn't wanna be late for this 2 day seminar the gov't is so graciously offering up to its laid off employees...good BUSINESS DECISION...{eyeroll}

Before I go....I love it that the Canadian looks like a full blown douche wearing mittens and a toque in fucking GREECE where its a billion degrees warm.

BOYCOTT THE BULLSHIT

Oct 21 2009

I am eating a plate of cabbage and cauliflower. I actually like it. Not like I like pizza but I still like it.

That crazy pants fell down lady was following me around wellburn's market today...I shit you not, she is trying to make eye contact with me and I just refuse...I think if I make eye contact with her now she will pull out a knife and say "you saw my crotch, you must die!" as she tries to stab through my blubber...I am gunna avoid that scene...mainly b/c if her knife puts a hole in my new hoody it's gunna get real ugly.

Shawn is trying to convince me to move to Australia with him...its a nice offer...he will pay me near what I take home now to just cook for him and keep his house tidy...to me that seems incredibly insane....it's too bad its Australia...its really hot there and there are nasty spiders and snakes. Plus it is REALLY hot there. Hey you never know...I have certainly done weirder shit in my life than move somewhere warm and far. (I won't mention their names though hahaa)

I just turned the heat on for the 1st time.....

I am listening to Matt Good demos currently...gawd...Matt talked to me once...twice actually...once on his blog....in the comment section and once in a private email that to this day makes me pee my pants when I read (gawd dammit I cannot find it right now and I am panicking!) it b/c the subject matter was rather haunting. Anyway...I just stumbled upon this so go ahead and REVEL at the massive exchange we shared. hahahaha

Matt did you catch the CBC's Sunday program about the Iraqi Jarrar Family blogs? The footage was amazing... Touching program.... http://afamilyinbaghdad.blogspot.com/ Stark reality...makes you wonder wtf is going on that ppl do not understand the pure insanity. http://www.cbc.ca/sunday/ ~Jen~ | Homepage | 07.17.05 - 1:12 pm | #

I did Jen. It was great. I've been reading their blogs for a while now. In fact, I've been trying to get a hold of them to donate to their initiative to help displaced Iraqis. Matthew Good | Homepage | 07.17.05 - 1:23 pm | #

Ohhhhhh remember this post...omg don't get me on a fucking roll about his ex wife Jenny No-Good.
Ohhhhhh Matty....he's all better now...I still hope she gets the worst cellulite ever seen by mankind. That would ruin her...Oh I hate you fondly Jenny Bitchface No-Good.

Labels: gross, maggots, Matthew Good

Oct 21 2009

Sweet Jesus I am tired. Gotta try to get to bed early tonight...I need a quiet night alone on the couch so I can lapse in and out of a Jen coma, drool on my pillow and wake up startled 45x b/c the cat thinks its HILARIOUS (love how I humanize the non-human cat?) to stealthly JUMP right on my gut when I am asleep it gives me a heart attack.

Aunty Pam's computer bit the big one last night....that blue screen of death business...uh oh.
Might be having to swap her our spare while I fix it....that's when mine will die of course. ha!

Shawn invited me to a Halloween gathering of all gay men...sure I won't likely meet my dream boy there (HAHAH) but imagine the pure hilarity of a room full of flamers, drunk and dressed up like girls and such? Too bad it's a social situation hahaha I will likely be dead from the previous night at Lucky and then the moving extravaganza that morning...but you never know. I will take my camera and please you all with photographic evidence.

I am so tempted to crawl back into bed right now...

Labels: bad cat, gay, tired

Oct 20 2009

Shawn and I are going for a trek shortly...he is in really good shape and keeps up well when I am on a mission to shrink my ass...although getting up that hill....he can chat and talk the whole way up...I can answer with OH YA's and THAT'S COOL's but I am not the talker as we end the trek with that hill (I am the heavy breather)...I am bothered that even though I can motor up the hill now and not die b4 the top I want to be able to get to the top w/o sweating my pretend ball sack off...hopefully by spring....by spring I want half my face gone too...its smaller but not enough for my liking....

What I miss about Facebook:

-making up my retarded status updates
-fun banter

What I don't miss about Facebook:

-fb chat
-invites of retardation (fuck u farmville and yoville)
-annoying ppls comments
-not being able to find the 2 other ppl I have been looking for and cannot locate {pout}

Now that I am on a FB break maybe I can just blog about FB everyday and be a complete moron? Yes?

The best video footage of someone getting instant karma....

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Oct 20 2009

Fuck I crack myself up.

http://www.imnotamonster.com/2009/10/he-took-a-face-from-the-ancient-gallery-and-he/

I love this.
Her view on art....


In the film THE DOORS Oliver Stone captured Jim’s spiritual intercourse with the universe quite accurately – I have known those moments – Jim compared his art to being a shaman in ritual – a mortal touching the immortal – indeed, absolutely.


But I have them without the aid of drugs or alcohol – I refuse to take the easy way –otherwise it’s the booze or drug taking me there – not the ART.

It takes more discipline – more dedication – more time & effort – but it’s well worth it ….. I live for those moments. Truly.

Oct 20 2009


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TERRY McK!

I met Terry when I was about 19...my friend Stacy was in jail with him....Terry and I wrote for many years, he was the 1st junkie I ever knew. Was the 1st time I humanized addicts. Prior to that they were something I was far removed from and had little experience with...what I liked best about Terry was his unapologetic attitude, he never made excuses, he still doesn't...he is a very interesting human and I am glad to know him. He is getting on in age now, he was 20+ yrs older than me when we 1st started writing but he is still cool as shit....so Happy Birthday Terry!

Win some $ playing online poker and treat yourself to something nice!

(Adele...all that writing I was doing when I lived with you in the little shithole house...a lot of that was to Terry...)

The BS @ work is getting more intensely ridiculous by the minute...I have made a concentrated effort to steer clear of all BS here...and have done so successfully up until now...imaginary conversations are being put on record against certain people and this is most amusing seeing as the said person (moi) had no such conversation with anyone about anything in the context it is being presented...and wasn't even here when the incident occurred.

Is the whole world riddled with assholes or just mine? Ok that was kind of selfish of me to assume only my life is plagued with asshole-itis....my apologies. Either way...I am eager to get pulled into future meetings b/c you all know how I love telling it like it is. What a bunch of horseshit. I can do without the grade 9 drama.


I have no skin left on my thumb today...gawd dammitttttttttt.


Donna and I are gunna have to do a practice run with the bullet hole/head wound make up for Oct 30...I want to bloody the shit out of the side of my face and hair I think to make it extra authentic. I did consider wearing rabbit ears but then thought in order to be a proper dead rabbit I would have to paint a gay ass (sorry Amanda & Erin, gawd dammit I am sorry for my use of the gay!) bunny nose on me...im not so much into bunny noses. So no rabbitness!

Oct 20 2009 Tuesday

What purpose does it serve to wake up at 4:25 am when you are not a fisherman or you haven't shit the bed? I HAVE NO IDEA!

My Facebook withdrawals will soon subside right? The twitching...the trots...the unending itchiness of my skin crawling...? I am sure no ones ever died from it....right? No such luck I am sure.

18 ish days to Matt Good....gawd I cannot wait. He is sick right now...I dunno what it is but he always gets really sick right b4 a tour starts or while hes on tour...start gagging back the echinacea my lovely man and come visit my town!!

The Neighborhood Lesbos called me last night and left a msg while I was on the phone about DEER trolloping down Hillside Ave....Deer. How odd!
It is super foggy right now...I am hoping it lasts til I walk to work...I do love the fog despite its effect on my hair...gawd knows my hair IS indeed my life after all {eyeroll}...

I walk by 3 fancy new car lots on the way to work every morning...yesterday as I walked past all the shiny new Mazdas I tried to imagine myself in one...possessing one...and I could not...so I started examining my place in that scenario...I have never had my license and truly have no desire to at this point realistically, I would be a shit driver at 40, very nervous and probably a menace to the safety of everyone on the road...with that said...I tried to imagine what I would do if someone handed me a new 40K Mazda & a magical drivers license. I'D SELL IT.

haha If I decided I needed to become a driving human being all of the sudden I couldn't fathom sitting in a new shiny over priced car...I look at ppl in hot off the lot vehicles and wonder what drives a person to want to be in that car...and I think the *status* is the main objective, whether it is a conscious choice or not & even though they will tell you its gas mileage and reliability. It is part of our culture, new fancy cars = status...even if you are a dirt bag loser. How truly disturbing. Barely living but we're living large...I'd drive a gawd damn Pinto or a Monza! (omg Laura S & I had a lot of fun in her old Monza...living in Vancouver prior to the sprog...that includes accidentally driving over meridians...oops)

Oct 19 2009

I am gunna be blogging a lot more.
I am ok with that, it is self directed...

This week is looking good...short day at work tomorrow...and also on Wednesday, then a 2 day seminar Thurs and Fri (no work at all but I am sure it will be agonizingly boring if that makes u feel any better)...it will be glorious...then 3 days off to go hard and make a dent in some stuff I wanna get done.

This FB wipe out has been coming on for a while...it kind of turned into something I was enjoying less and less...I may eventually go back under some weird name like Guy did and only add who I want. I found myself accidentally & most unintentionally in a triangle of weirdness that I certainly was not seeking out so it was the catalyst of inspiration to bolt for a holiday...
This mornings post was some pretty decent foreshadowing if I do say so myself HA HAA HAA HAAAAAAA HAAAAA HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA Gawd sometimes I scare myself...im so dead on...

Anyway...lets see how my latest interest pans out...dirt bag?? non-dirt bag...? Time always tells...in the meantime...may as well have fun...I certainly deserve it!

Labels: anteater

October 19 2009

Deleted my Facebook account today.
Liberating is an understatement.
If you want me to see your pictures and your goodies you'll have to stick to emailing me the goods...and you'll have to check flickr for mine... HERE

The load is lightened....

Labels: giant facebook fuck you

Oct 19 2008 - Monday

I am so tired I could fall asleep in my own shoe right now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN McMAHON!!!

Thanks for getting yourself born so you could make fine music for me b/c it is without a doubt the reason you were born after all...to cater to my music whims and obsessions....

Last night I watched Menace II Society...on Z's recommendation....yeah its gangsta alright...although I was too distracted by the plot and the impending doom to really pick up any gangster lingo...it is pretty intense and by the end I felt demoralized and hopeless...
I so wanted that kid to get outta dodge...gawddammit!!!!
The fact that the plot parallels real peoples lives is mind boggling...I am the whitest girl ever...I am the Dempster Sesame White Bread Girl...can't get whiter...couldn't be less gangster if I tried...I am staying the fuck outta Compton on my travels to LA...I'd get shot just for looking like a douche. Killed on account of being a douche. Awesome.

I am however in awe of the giant bottles of beer they drank in the 90's. I dunno why but *packaging* in other places is fascinating to me...even from the US to Canada the differences are so obvious...

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