Saturday, July 11, 2009

control

This is mind boggling....a big fuck u from beyond the grave...
I am not often shocked by many things but this is amazingly fucking malicious.

One of my oldest and dearest friends, Connie, recently got an interesting item in the mail....but lemme back track a little and share some history (ive asked her permission already)...

When Connie was 8 her dad murdered her mom. She was instantly an orphan - her mom was dead and her dad was in jail. Her family - as she knew it - was obliterated. She was the youngest, her other 4 siblings were mid to late teens...she was sent to live with a paternal aunt who was a cruel bitch and would eventually send her off to live in a Kansas Roman Catholic Boarding School until Connie & I met 5-6 yrs later.

In the mean time her father did a 10 yr jail stint....complete with "family trailer visits" etc so they could all go and be a "family" during holidays and such....
The years following her mothers murder all but 1 sibling cut off contact with their father. Connie waffled...being that she was daddy's little girl her whole childhood she felt a very real connection to her father but was so mind fucked by it all that it was not easy to maintain any connection to any of her family, not just him.

Years passed, eventually Connie came to a place where things were clearer for her. Having babies does that to you. She started talking to her dad a while ago...sending him pictures of her babies, asking him questions about how she was as a kid, etc. Feeling good about it finally.

He died a few months ago. She was very glad they were in contact, she felt at peace with him - as much as you can when something like this happens in your family....but really felt like it was put to rest.

Then she got a registered letter in the mail this week...weird...she wasn't expecting anything....she thought maybe her dad had left her a letter...or a journal...pictures...etc...she opens it....reads it.

$10.00

That's right people. Her inheritance from her fathers estate. 10 bucks.

And no it's not a matter of that's all that was left after the debts were paid....ohhh no this was a deliberate amount of $ left to her by her dear fucking father.

She called her siblings to see if they received similar letters. Jury is still out on that but....back to the point at hand....

$10.00

Apparently he never understood why only 1 of his 5 kids was able to forgive him (...and I will say the 1 kid who did stay in touch with him has spent the last 30+ yrs drunk and isn't really all that coherent)...
I guess Connie's sporadic efforts over the span of her 30 yrs as a motherless daughter were not considered a valiant enough attempt to forgive him.
I guess Connie's own very intense and pain-filled existence was not really a concern of his...or the fact she put herself through school to get her Masters in Clinical Psychology without him lifting a finger to help her...I guess Connie being orphaned at 8 yrs old wasn't seen as that big of a deal to him...

So...here we are full circle...her dad made a point to let Connie know even after his death that his needs and feelings trumped hers and since she would not ever fully comply with his wishes she garnered a 10 buck inheritance. 40 quarters for a lifetime of pain and betrayal....

Ron Greshner...my message to you...you get what you pay for old man - fuck you.

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