The Gorge

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Makes a few crackheads worth it - having this right across the street...really like it down there - aside from the stink of goose shit in a few places.

Medical Miracle

Going for my 1st walk in 2 months...knee finally feels like it might be normal again soon. Taking my camera for proof.

Worst photo ever...hahhaa

Probably wondering wtf is up with my eyebrows in this picture huh? This was my idea to show my darling daughter how I feel about her penciling in her eyebrows... again.

See - she did this before she went traveling and on a daily basis it cut me deep inside to see those Brooke Shields/Caterpillar Atrocities she would draw on herself. She did not do it right before the trip once she got them all shaped and prettified or during...until now...

She is so friggin lovely it boggles my mind why a person would want such a feature to be the only thing you notice on their face. Admittedly, I am no fashionista or glam gal - I do not know shit...but if all I can do is STARE IN HORROR at your eyebrows I am pretty sure I am not the only one so quit that shit. I won't post a picture of hers or she will fly back just to light me on fire...I am also too chicken to post this on Facebook b/c I do not want her mad at me. (haha coward)

It is Friday....FML I love Friday. This has been a rough work week...any time a consulate changes their policy re: document authentication not only does the volume of my work increase but it results in an influx of emails and calls from frantic ppl shitting their pants b/c they have to have their documents PRONTO - thus it becomes my problem b/c that is my personality...I suck up everyone's anxiety and make it my own. Fun times. It will simmer but until then it will be a little hairy...better than slow and boring though that is for sure.

Ms A is enjoying Melbourne....such a city gal. She has found some work starting next week, not her ideal but it will tide her over until something more to her liking comes along. She has made a bunch of friends and seems to be reveling in the experience...even if she is starving. Starving by choice. The hostel has a bit of a kitchen issue...no oven, very busy and she is just not in love with cooking in general. She needs to get in a groove is all. She send me some great little gifties that arrived a while ago...some really cool chopsticks and a cloth koi wall hanging for the wall once framed. I have so many cool chopsticks (thanks Chris and Fangfang)...

Pool is still closed...they are replacing the boilers apparently. Big job....it's ok b/c my knee is not better yet....I have turned a corner though and if I keep favoring it and taking it really easy it might eventually be its old self again. But will it really? I am only 43 and every time I friggin hurt myself (which 95% of the time is due to exercising for the love of gawd!) I am never quite right again...that seems a big young for that. Thanks obesity. You are awesome. I am at a crossroads right now - the degree of my antisocial behavior/agoraphobe tendencies is getting a bit uncomfortable even for me...I am recognizing the need for a shift or I will be "that person"...you know "that person"...the one that ends up on the news b/c it took weeks for the cops to find her in her hoarder house, dead and rotten. I know if I died my fucking cat would eat me too...eyeballs first...tender eyeballs. That pisses me off. Ingrate cat.

23 JUMP STREET....hahahaha I laughed...a lot. I really enjoy those movies. I actually hope they do a 3rd one.

Let's talk about TEA:

I like a good cup of orange pekoe tea (you know the stuff gramma's drink, the stuff the english love)...with sugar and milk....mmmm but I am trying to wean myself off it mainly b/c I would rather have  NO tea than use artificial sweeteners b/c they just gross me out....and herb teas are just a cruel mean joke....hot, good smelling water with NO TASTE....smelly hot water. Rude. Until this tea came into my life...
It came in this variety pack I got for Xmas (thanks Aunty Pam or Maggie or whoever it was - you rock) and it is amazing. IT HAS A TASTE TO GO WITH THE HOT WATER SMELL!!! I actually had to check and make sure they didn't sweeten it b/c it wasn't bland and gross. I just ordered myself a whole tin online...I am stoked. Let's not talk about tea anymore. Gawd.

A few concerts coming up....end of the month - Heart with Jason Bonham on drums (his dad as the Led Zeppelin drummer, John) and they are doing a set of LED ZEPPELINNNNNN covers....if you have never heard Heart do Led Zeppelin covers I just feel sorry for you. They made Robert Plant cry ffs....Heart made Robert Plant weepy. FML. I cannot wait.

July 3 Holly McNarland rolls into town, Sidney actually (BOO! SIDNEY!) but I am going anyway despite the pain in the ass to get there and back. I have wanted to see Holly McNarland live since the early 90's so 20+ yrs of pining shall end soon...Love the gals with big voices....would kill a nun riding a donkey to see Sinead O'Connor live too.

Fat Lamentation

A is settling in nicely in Melbourne – despite being sick right now...she has a zillion resumes out and hopefully she will get a job in the next 2 weeks. She has about enough $ to make it 1 month....after that...tough choices...I am pretty sure she will have a job in a few weeks though so I am not going to worry about the what ifs. Glad that she is there and safe and connected with Zed's mom, Sasha.

I have beef barley soup in the fridge at work calling my name....the Aegean Cafe makes THE BEST beef barley soup on earth...my mouth is filling with spit as I type about it...jfc.

Last pool day today...despite being a cripple and regretting it later I am going to swim tonight and that will be it for likely 3+ weeks. I need 3 weeks of no swimming sadly to get this knee in order. I swear I am the only person on earth who injures herself no matter what kind of exercise she tries doing to lose weight. SWIMMING...??!?! Who the fuck injures themselves swimming – OH I do apparently...and it is a common swim injury too...which is probably not as bad for ppl not lugging obesity around with them once they get out of the pool. F-U swimmer's knee....life wrecker!! Not enjoying being a limper...being fat draws enough negative attention to one's self. Really looking fwd to getting rid of this knee BS and utilizing the gym etc instead while the pool is down. Not sure I can treadmill quite yet but the weights for my upper body stuff are better than nothing.

This seems to be how it is now...every waking day I wonder what kind of physical ailments await me. One would think that was serious incentive to lose weight...it is...I have incentive coming out of my arsehole – no shortage of incentive. Incentive is awesome (prepare for impending sarcasm) b/c with so much incentive you feel like an extra loser when you don't use the incentive as it should be used. And to all you "oh just do it you lazy asshole" a giant fuck you b/c you have no idea how layered this issue is for many people...so jam your judgment up your favorite hole and mind your damn business. Even I am shocked by how deep this shit is...the key is to break it down and make it simple. In the end it is basic math...eat less, move more...a lot more. More than you want to...and do not stop. Until you break it down for  yourself though - you are essentially a slave to your own dysfunctional psyche...

I wish there was a food rehab place...a place you get sent by your Dr like drug addicts get sent to drug rehab....where you talk about your shit with someone who doesn't suck whilst being forced to be CLEAN....and are taught how to shop and prepare food and schedule your life and time so that it is a priority - permanently...brainwash me while you are at it...hypnotize me and make me forget I love fries and bread and all things evil. Make me forget about my passionate love for sitting down with dinner while I watch TV after work...Make me forget about chocolate, chips, Pepsi, candy....make for forget food is my boyfriend...make me forget I prefer food to the company of most others...brainwash me to think I am full after a small amount of food and to eat slower...it is all rather sad and pathetic. Fuck it...I will do it myself. Or I won't...thing is...time is a tickin'...control needs to be taken before it is too late. Apologies to my heart and kidneys...I will try and do better by you.

EDIT: then this was posted on CBC after lunch....how inspiring...how long do you think it will take the medical community and society in general to shed themselves of the idea all fat ppl must be lazy, weak and inferior humans....?

READ THIS

Watched AUGUST: OSAGE COUNTY last night with Kim....what a great movie. So dark but funny...that family dynamic....jfc. Highly recommended if you enjoy family drama and humor (and swearing!)...http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1322269/