mmm pecan pie

it is saturday...
i am listening to music with headphones on...waiting at any moment for ayla to come up behind me and scare the fucking be-jesus outta me forcing me to then chase her down and pummel her.

owner of a loney heart....it really is a good tunes...still....dontcha think?

its a foggy crap day out...yeeeehaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

have ya ever listened to the words to death cab for cuties song
"I Will Follow You Into The Dark" ?

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

in the wrong mood, premenstrual and vulnerable that song makes me feel weepy hahaha

ok i gotta say that the only issue with listening to your comp. music with headphones on is every beep and whistle windows does scares the living fucking shit out of u....along with websites that have music...ive had 4 heart attacks already....

ive asked for another batch of anti-inflam. from my Dr.
im a little fucked up over the fact this may end up turning into a chronic thing i have to deal with....
whine whine whine
i guess considering my potential for chronic health problems i shouldnt complain really.