it isn't until you are up late with freezing cold feet that you realize how alone you are in the world...the ultimate futility in that conscious/unconscious search to seek understanding and connection, someone to lean on when the load gets to be a little too much, someone to sit on the couch with...sometimes its nice to do nothing with someone.
to use a recent quote from a movie...i am sucking the cock of karma this week in the parent dept...
all the shitty stuff i did as a kid, regardless of the fact i still feel much was justified, has come back to haunt me....it is disappointing and disheartening...this woman i nannied for once when i was 19 or 20 said something to me that ive never forgotten....that being a parent is a thankless job...truer words were never spoken.
thats all im saying on that topic.
i just ate thing full of gummy sour candies and i don't even like sour gummy candies.
i have tomorrow off....i am sleeping in...i am watching my loser daytime shows and then Aunty Leslie is coming over for dinner....and to hang out a little.
can not feel feet...must go get warm....
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