Sunday Rapture....

So...all this old treasures I have been discovering while repacking and such I have to say it has been most interesting rereading some old letters I have kept. Coming across old letters my brother wrote me as a teenager in school, lamenting about his grades and saying how all the shit he was in for it was really affecting him but clearly he deserved it and needed to use that to get his shit together. He was always so hard on himself...such a sensitive boy. It absolutely breaks my heart if I let myself think about what life must have been for him from really early on...such a lonely little soul. It tears me up inside almost 14 years since his suicide. Fairly certain I am going to my grave full of regret and sorrow over the loss of him. There is no getting around that - I have realized...just have to put it somewhere and get on with shit, only visit it sometimes.

Other items of interest - some old letters from a gal I wrote from a place in BC telling me the sordid details of how her and her partner got together...I won't use names or places...but here is the soap opera: Tanya was single...and met Monica...Monica was with Nathan...Tanya and Monica became BFFs and eventually fell for each other...Monica was going to dump Nathan but Nathan caught on to what was up and pre-emptively gave Monica permission to "do" Tanya and he watched...this went on for a while...then Nathan got sneaky and started to hump Tanya on the side...Tanya got pregnant...Monica freaked when she found out about getting dbl cheated on...dumped them both...after Tanya had the baby Monica and Tanya got back together and were a couple raising the baby together - Nathan was not in the picture....I did a bit of sleuthing and found the child in question...shes in her 20s now, super cute girl...Tanya is with someone else, I found the someone else - it appears they have been together a long time...kinda cool to see shit all worked out in the end...not going to say hello or anything...I have enough lesbian friends I think haha Pretty Maury Povich hey?!

Cannot believe this apartment rented already...only had to endure 1 viewing so that is nice. I pity the new ppl...the seagull hell they are walking into...the silverfish....the noise...the stinky hallway...the anal land-lording...I feel like a bad person for not sneaking them a message...LOL

Gotta get to Home Depot soon...buy some plastic wrap for A's new dresser that I am terrified might get a scuff on it from the move...and some mattress bags...was contemplating getting a new friggin bed but decided I am not a Rockefeller and will invest in one of those magical foam topper things...A has one on her bed and it is gawd damn divine...that is a sensible compromise! Otherwise this shithole is coming along nicely...cleared out the storage closet today and was thinking how annoying it is to move an earthquake kit (60 bottles of water, no real food or anything else LOL lame earthquake kit)...I guess I should stop worrying about how much work it will be for the movers b/c they are being paid for this work...not like they are my poor friends who offer out of obligation.

Serious Dexter withdrawals...he became my boyfriend over 8 seasons in 1 month...hahaha now I feel like I have been dumped. Oh and a big F-U to this time change...AGAIN. Ughhhh!!