last night i had a fabulous dream...until the end when maynard/nolan (a morphed version of the 2) dumped me for no fucking reason and i spent the end of the dream so fucking pissed off i woke up with residual anger hahahhahanolan (see above with gene simmons) is this guy i was in high school with, cool rocker boy who has maintained the cool rocker guy status....not sure why the morph thing was happening but im not complaining...til the end of course...fuck even in dreams men are disappointing....HOW RETARDED!
so...today i scored hot donna to come to my store and HELP so im super happy about that...will be a FUN night and shit will get done....
im grooving to the aEnema cd currently....
guess what i did? i removed bruce form my facebook and my address book....yes...its true...u know once yer off facebook your OUT of the loop entirely.
and why did i choose now to let that go? well a week ago i decided to take the high road and ask what was up...why this silence was in its 6th month....told him i missed him...hoped he was ok.
NOTHING.
thats right...nothing...keep in mind I DIDNT DO FUCKING ANYTHING WRONG...it was him who fucking ditched me in vancouver for rollins...so i decided to just let it fucking go...i will love him from afar and hope he is always ok but im not maintaining constant and obvious availability like a fucking door mat any more for someone who so flippantly can make it very clear we are not on the same page.
it is disappointing but what the fuck else is new? i have a bunch of VERY cool ppl in my life and they deserve any time i have for friends/family...
so thats that...
really fucking gay...pisses me off that its all so unresolved but ive resolved it myself by making the move to just give up and move on.
got aylas NEW birth certificate today....wow they are rather fancy....now on tuesday im going to get her passport done downtown.
ok im going to get my groove on.....its friday WOOOOOO fucking HOOOOOOOOO
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