Interesting to me...you know all that ‘progress’ ppl supposedly make...yeah I have grown up and am certainly better prepared for life etc but I am grappling with the concept that EMOTIONALLY I am as wounded and decrepit as I was in 1994. WTF IS THAT ABOUT?! I may be headed into midlife crisis mode. Not too sure. Guess I will have to make the effort to meet someone I can stand in 2012 and see if that can benefit me as a distractionary measure.
A. seems to have survived the horrible stomach flu but is still unable to eat b/c it makes her sick. I am walking around with my fingers crossed that I will not get struck by the flu fairy b/c I do NOT wanna be barf sick like A. was. No. No. No. I vomited my share already being pregnant and have no desire to revisit that place.
I have ordered the grad pics...the website was easy enough to navigate but that just seemed like they were kind enough to use lube on your before they bum raped you. I am not gunna go on and on about the cost of it b/c ultimately it was my choice to order them regardless of the ridiculous price so screw it. They are lovely and it’s a memento and PROOF of sorts that we both accomplished something throughout this crazy 18 yrs together! –Though I am sure she would say I had nothing to do with anything she has done haha--
I cannot tell you the level of yearning I have for going home tonight and taking all my restrictive clothing off and putting on jammies and drinking tea while I do absolutely whatever the heck I want. You know the drill...walking in the door – kick shoes off, hang up keys, greet the cat & child, hang up coat and bag, socks immediately off and left in pile on the floor some sometimes days at a time, bathroom for the customary post-work pee &/or poop & tetris game, strip naked after washing hands and sneak into bedroom to put on jammies (or a mu mu as A. loves to refer to a nighty as) and then usually quite MIRACULOUSLY I have all the energy in the world that I did not have ALL DAMN DAY LONG...
I would like to publically thank KELLY M. for a comment he made recently as I was fretting about the impending