Monday Blabiddy Blab Blab...

I had the best laugh last night...going through my keepsake suitcase...coming across some of A’s items...emails to me when she was 10 about Gramma calling Avril Lavigne a hooker and deeply offending A...and her funny little cards...so absolutely hilarious to me all her little stories and cleverness...then it got me thinking that A. turns 18 in a few weeks. I have been pondering the empty nest syndrome a lot recently...she doesn’t appear to be leaving any time soon but...it’s coming around the mountain (you are welcome for me putting that tune in your head today)...the full circle of it all. Thinking back to where I was BEFORE she was here...thinking I am not all that better off aside from experience and age now that she is reaching the age of flight.

Interesting to me...you know all that ‘progress’ ppl supposedly make...yeah I have grown up and am certainly better prepared for life etc but I am grappling with the concept that EMOTIONALLY I am as wounded and decrepit as I was in 1994. WTF IS THAT ABOUT?! I may be headed into midlife crisis mode. Not too sure. Guess I will have to make the effort to meet someone I can stand in 2012 and see if that can benefit me as a distractionary measure.

A. seems to have survived the horrible stomach flu but is still unable to eat b/c it makes her sick. I am walking around with my fingers crossed that I will not get struck by the flu fairy b/c I do NOT wanna be barf sick like A. was. No. No. No. I vomited my share already being pregnant and have no desire to revisit that place.

I have ordered the grad pics...the website was easy enough to navigate but that just seemed like they were kind enough to use lube on your before they bum raped you. I am not gunna go on and on about the cost of it b/c ultimately it was my choice to order them regardless of the ridiculous price so screw it. They are lovely and it’s a memento and PROOF of sorts that we both accomplished something throughout this crazy 18 yrs together! –Though I am sure she would say I had nothing to do with anything she has done haha--

I cannot tell you the level of yearning I have for going home tonight and taking all my restrictive clothing off and putting on jammies and drinking tea while I do absolutely whatever the heck I want. You know the drill...walking in the door – kick shoes off, hang up keys, greet the cat & child, hang up coat and bag, socks immediately off and left in pile on the floor some sometimes days at a time, bathroom for the customary post-work pee &/or poop & tetris game, strip naked after washing hands and sneak into bedroom to put on jammies (or a mu mu as A. loves to refer to a nighty as) and then usually quite MIRACULOUSLY I have all the energy in the world that I did not have ALL DAMN DAY LONG...

I would like to publically thank KELLY M. for a comment he made recently as I was fretting about the impending doom trip A. is taking to Mexico in March...he simply said something to the effect of more Canadians are murdered in Canada than in Mexico so she is probably safer in Mexico. I like the way you think Kelly M. I owe you LUNCH next time I am in Courtenay!