I miss you Freddy

Another weekend zipped by...Shawn was in town from Kelowna. He made me eat a bog bowl of quinoa which was actually not putrid with berries cinnamon and vanilla almond milk. Did some computer chatting and bought something off him that should apparently change my life and make my computer so fast it is ridonculous. Sweet.

Glad Halloween is nearly done...not really in love with my kids intense love for all things Halloween as it translates into one giant excuse to party 4 days in a row so I am pissed off at her and don’t feel like looking at her currently. There is gunna come a day when she ‘gets’ what it is like to give a fuck about something more than yourself and when she “gets” it I am gunna point and LAUGH SO HARD my oxygen mask is gunna come loose and I might almost die from lack of oxygen but I will still laugh at her and the suffering she will experience...I do understand there are varying degrees of this sort of thing...some ppl are chill and that shit doesn’t keep them up at night at all...while there are some of us who are constantly tormented and worry like a head case...I admit I am borderline psychotic about it but contrary to popular belief I reign that shit in pretty good b/c I know its irrational...though I still expect common courtesy and a heads up about her whereabouts and plan just so I know for peace of mind and safety reasons but OMG you would think I was the FBI the way she whines and snivels that I am stalking her...she has a skewed perspective of my intentions quite honestly. She has a fairly inflated sense of how interested I am in what she is doing...that I tend to prefer being ignorant about but to me knowing her plan and such is just common sense safety...how the fuck am I supposed to sleep if I think she might be in a ditch somewhere dying of hypothermia? Or was clipped by a car and tossed out of sight to die in the tall grass?! If I know her ETA or she checks in via a quick text msg then that seems like a decent solution...though truly it KILLS her to offer up any morsel of consideration or kindness twds me...how convenient that that she can just say I AM CRAZY and blow me off...little a-hole. Yeah parenthood...for all its trials and tribulations it is still better than not...I reminds myself of a few friends who lost their kids recently and all this shit seems unimportant in the larger scheme of things.

I have a few craft projects on the go....but I have decided to really DEFY the xmas disease this year...I usually have $ set aside well before now and have most of it done, bough and organized but this year...NOTHING. I do not have 1 dime or 1 item for the ingrate sprog even...nothing...I have a few token things for Maddie & Squid planned & that’s it...THE END. I MAY or MAY NOT even do xmas cards this year. Whatever small item Ayla gets (she was pre-warned due to her mexico trip) will be got from my Dec 23rd payday HAHAHAHAHA OHHH AWESOMMMMMMMMMMMEEE!!!

I am already thinking about my xmas tree too...gunna forego the twig this year I think...the cat is too douche-y about all those pretty dangly things. Problem is the wee tree I have is not big enough I don’t think for all my weird ornaments...I may need to upgrade...I am SO PISSED I did not snatch Kelly-Jean’s awesome xmas tree at the garage sale last spring.... ::stomps foot:: It was a plug in self-lighting one and it was GROOVY!

OK I think I am done bitching about things now...I was at a baby shower lunch Sunday only it wasn’t stupid with games and other retarded activity...at this shower was a baby named Freddy who I instantly glommed onto...he was just about 5 mths old (perfect, not floppy and smiles etc) and cuter than cute can be...oh sweet jesus I thought I might lactate right at the table...not.even.joking. He smelled so good...he was my afternoon bliss...it was a good few hours with friends and baby sniffing...Tara is due in about 6ish weeks with baby Isaac...she scored some great loot...

OMFG Donna dressed up like the Hamburglar today for Halloween and Erin is Kermit (News Reporter Kermit) @ work....cracks me up...didn’t see many costumes on the way to work sadly...1 PIKACHU, 1 SPONGEBOB and 1 WITCH....that’s IT! Boo!

Season of Blasphemy

ok im not going near a mall again until WELL after xmas....

Aunty Pam & Cousin Maggie were here shopping this weekend, had a pretty good time considering we seemed to just shop the whole time, that usually drives me into a RAGE but i was pretty mellow...i think the mall air rendered me helpless.

Anyhow had a good visit with the family...lotsa laughs....got all ym damn gawd forsaken shopping done, just need one more trip to the grocery store and ill be prepped and ready 4 the biggest commercial holiday of the year...

Soke to Brucifer today...all sounds like a go...he will be here the 23rd or 24th...and it looks like the englishman will be hanging around as well...itll piss ayla off but its a little more about the bigger picture this time of year...Ive got bruce whos got uissues with xmas, which makes me wanna have him here so i can distract him, and we always have a fucking blast togehter so itll be FUN...and the englishman has no family in canada and his daughters live in vancouver so whatever time over xmas he is around and not over there then he is welcome to hang with us degenerate blasphemous pricks...

Everyone give a YAY KAILA! to Kaila at work who left her idiot boyfriend today after he nearly strangled her poor cat to death in a drunken rage.

She packed up her shit while the piece of shit was at work and is GONZO...im gunna buy that girl some chocolate!

Survivor Finale was cool...I was kinda going for the Oz Meister, strictly due to previous financial standing...but Yul was groovy too so...im not bummed or anything...this is the 1st time i havent been pissed off about the winner.

My landlady called me today-

Her: were u vacuuming last night at 1130??

Me: no it was the ppl across the hall from me

Her: (snottily) ohhh realllllly vacuuming at 1130...

Me: maybe they just needed to quickly clean a mess up or something

Her: well her son was removed from the apt by the police at 10 pm

Me: well then possibly he went out with a hissy fit and she had to clean up after him

Her: well still thats so no necessary

Im thinking LADY SHUT YER FUCKING YAP AND GET A LIFE. My gawd...really...is it THAT big of a deal? Does it really mean u gotta phone around and find out who was vacuuming? Fuck.