Wide awake at 4 am....

Why not? 2 hours ahead of a proper work wake up time...what could go wrong...?

Kim - TC10K 1 hour 8 mins

Just had Pam & Jim here for the weekend, always fun. Pam never stops singing or delighting us with her enormous amount of gas. It really is phenomenal. I have no idea how 1 person produces so much excess gas...I almost feel like she has a defective valve that the rest of us have. Though she at least is all hot air while Jim drops bombs that you taste for an hour afterwards so...take your pick. haha

Kim ran the Times Colonist 10K Marathon this weekend and kicked its butt pretty awesomely...1 hour and 8 mins....pretty good! She is rather proud of herself and is not too crippled either...great prep for her 40K marathon in a few months from Tofino to Ucluelet. Scary business, that one!

Miss A and Jaime, Mui Ne, Vietnam

Miss A is enjoying Vietnam much more than her travels though Cambodia so that is good...they went to this fantastic water resort the other day: VINPEARL 27.00 for the day included EVERYTHING. Fun!

Connie is waiting to hear if she got a job in Campbell River so her and her family can pick up and leave Red Deer and move to the island...crossing my fingers!! Would love having them closer even if it is shitty CR and 4 hours away by car...beats the shit out of Red Deer, a million and 3 miles away.

I am teetering on the edge of insanity at the moment, hormones are a delicate matter...I have a full on rant that I have been wanting to spew forth for some time but just cannot muster up the effort and in all honesty....some things are just not worth the energy it takes to spew them forth. It is disheartening that even into your 40's people can be such disappointing creatures...just when you think you finally have a circle of the right people the ol' monkey wrench gets tossed into the mix and you are left reeling over the complete and utter degree of asshole dysfunction some ppl practice in life. On the upside...these moments remind you who you can count on in life and the importance of nurturing familial and friend relations. I am pretty fortunate.

Hearing Ryan McMahon's "I'll Be Damned" song on Californication S07E03 was AWESOME. Seriously amazing use of that song....I sure hope it gets him some extra exposure he deserves.
Listen here: I'll Be Damned

All they want is absolute control, no ifs or buts, just your body, your soul...

So...I finally bought some wireless headphones (nothing fancy)...naturally, I am too inept to get them configured to work so I can watch TV with them on...BUT one perk is they come with a wire so you can use them as plug in headphones as well and let me tell you they sound divine plugged into my computer speakers...fml...now I am curious what a 200.00 pair sound like...!!!
I will get them working for the TV tomorrow...I am too tired and cross-eyed tonight to even read the damn instructions properly. In the meantime...it is music time!

My house is a wreck. I blame Dexter Morgan. I am chatting with Miss A right now...so funny. She is the worst chat communicator. I never know wtf she is saying half the time with that young kid text slang...she is still waffling about the elephants...nice park or not she says she would be just as happy to feed an elephant a banana than ride one...I told her to stick to her guns then b/c once you do it you can't go back and you are just a shitty tourist like the rest afterwards ha!

The Ginger Beard Syndrome: I saw it in action today...you know dudes with brown hair but their beards grow in ginger...love it...so I see one today at the bus stop...sneak a snapchat picture...save it and send it with some stupid nonsensical commentary...then I look at it later and JFC...dude had a ginger beard alright...but he also had
on flood pants and 2 different color socks and ugly ass shoes. BLINDED BY THE GINGER BEARD...dangerous.

Ryan McMahon House Concert: Was very good...Kim's basement had good vibe...small crowd made it pleasantly intimate...he sounded good as per usual and it was nice having newbs on the scene (Doris from work with her friend, Esther and Kate plus Kelly and Mel came from PR)...Ryan made some solid fans that night. When he told the story about Megan McNeil and sang Wake Up it was a real tearjerker...

Musings From a Different Planet...

Sick at the moment...finally got me. I was due...haven't had a cold for quite some time so hard to complain especially when so many are plagues with the flu at the moment. No thank you! I am blessed with my classic tranny voice that I usually have while sick...makes for some fun conversations. I ditched work today b/c the coughing is a bit too much...hoping when I get up tomorrow I can go in b/c I have a lot to do missing Thursday and all...plus I actually like the ppl at work...wait...let me clarify that - I like the ppl in my 5 person radius...I don't care much about the rest.

Tia and her dad, Uncle Paul

So much sadness right now for the ppl around me...Barb's mom isn't doing well - neither is my friend Adele's mom...Elizabeth's mom just passed, my Uncle Paul just died and it is the 1 year anniversary of Deanna passing on the 27th...I guess this is what we all have to look fwd to as we get older, watching this sort of thing go on..and on...Kim was pretty sad about Uncle Paul so I took her out for some chow on her dinner break at work and cheered her with ice cream a little.

Uncle Paul - I haven't seen him in a long while. I do have fond memories of him and my time at their house. His kid's - my cousins Tia & Craig - were such fun when we were little. They lived in Regina and we visited often. They had such a fun house...pool in the backyard, excellent toys in the basement. Us kids had run of the house when everyone got together b/c the adults would be upstairs smoking and drinking - playing cards - having their own brand of fun while us kids were weaving fun and magic in the basement playing, listening to records, playing dress up...oh and Atari...they had an Atari...cutting edge back then! Loved the pool the most - always though they were the richest ppl ever, I didn't know anyone else with a pool. We had such fun there. Uncle Paul was always kind, a great dad to his kids and it is sad to think he is gone even if I haven't seen him in a very long time. RIP Uncle Paul...you were a good shit.

Tia, Glenn, Craig & I - I hope we were playing dress up...

Kelly and Mel get here tomorrow...they decided to come down to see Ryan McMahon play at Kim's house Sat. night...should be fun.
Even though I am feeling like poo I will enjoy hanging with Kel, Mel, Kim and Kate...along with Hot Donna too!

Man I watched a lot of Dexter today...even though I find a lot of it far fetched and a bit silly I am completely attached to the character now and have to see it through to the end...Did  a lot of packing today as well...I need to simmer and work on turfing more stuff. Must...purge....more... Like do I really need 2 fly swatters? Wtf?  

Windy City Tonight

Attractive isn't it...? Dental dams are the DEVIL.

The wind is shaking the whole bldg tonight...Not sure how bad they are out there but they are impressing me in here...inside in the warmth...

My dental nightmare is complete for this round but it will take a few days to have my face feel ok I suspect...I won't bore you with the sad story of my nerve issues on the upper left side of my mouth but I will tell you - next time...if I need anything else done to either of those 2 back molars I am demanding they get pulled b/c the nerve issues - I am done with that shit.

I did find it amusing that I asked for a dbl dose of freezing and it ended up going up into my eye...hahah FROZEN EYE IS WEIRD. Also - a noteworthy piece of advice...1 hr and 50 mins of being upsidedown in a dentists chair renders you completely unable to walk properly for 10 mins.
The dentist asked me how I felt and I was honest and said "It feels like I just gave birth out of my mouth." That was a new one for her.

Last night Ryan McMahon was in town...it is always nice to see him and Cathleen...I effing LURVE Cathleen...she is just one of those people you WANT to know...Ryan sounded good and his percussion pal Mitch was fab. CAJON's are awesome....if you have never seen/heard one before it's a box drummers sit on and play like drums only it's just a box they tap and such...Mitch has designed his own called the 'MitchSlap' and it sounds pretty incredible esp with all the gadgets he uses for effects - every area of the box is rigged inside for a different sound...you can check it out here...



Great show! I love it...

Can't believe my sprog is going to be 18 in a week or so...HOW WEIRD! We are going to go for sushi on her b'day...me, Pam and Maggie got her 4 mths of unlimited yoga for her b'day so she is STOKED...I have a few other things for her but they are for the day of her b'day.
She went up to an orientation/info session at Camosun College the other night...checking things out...still undecided but getting prepped to make some choices in the next year... :o)

Stay tuned for my CAT SHOWDOWN.

The Ryan McMahon Experience

I have been privy to a lot of live music in my 40 yrs...various genres, time periods and moods. I am a live music connoisseur of sorts...I like what I like and what I don't like offends the shit out of me. I wish I possessed the capability to be outwardly supportive and kind towards music and it's  performers when I am not in love with their music...alas...I suck at diplomacy. I am the Simon Cowell of my own tv show-less realm. I cannot stand shitty or mediocre music - this is because I love music I love so FUCKING intensely that anything short of my ideal is a waste of my gawd damn time and energy.

I see musicians who I know have been doing their thing (aka perfecting their craft) for over a decade and honestly it amazes me that they still are at it when after 10 yrs they are still very mediocre. Mean - I know. I am a mean asshole but when you have seen genuine talent which includes songwriting, singing, playing and stage charisma it is very difficult to feel anything but sorry for performers who will never reach that level despite their best efforts. Some people have it. Some people do not. It IS that simple. It is a package and a half full package just doesn't cut the mustard.

I don't want to spend any of my time fake clapping and bored out of my gawd damn skull seeing performers EXCEPT if it is what I have to do to get a 40 minute Ryan McMahon fix that I have waited a few months for.

The contrast between Ryan McMahon and other acts that I shall specifically not mention for the sake of me trying not to be as much of a mean asshole as I actually am...is obvious. You don't have to be a hardcore like me either...it is just very apparent. I don't understand why at his level he still struggles...it boggles the mind...but I guess the world is full of artists that never get picked up and shared with the world. A total shame...and the world is lesser for it.

After a long wait last night in a hot venue (though the venue was fantastic for vibe and mood for sure) Ryan played and it was like the last 2+ hrs of my personal suffering (insert Jesus martyr symbolism here) had been erased by that single first note...despite being plagued with professional speed bumps over the last few months - you wouldn't know it. Ryan was his witty, fun self and performed with his usual unfaltering wonderment. The set was short but I didn't even care...from the moment I saw Ryan on a stool playing solo at Steamers almost 9 years ago seeing him perform anywhere at anytime is a gift I have never taken for granted.

Thanks Ryan...

symmetry is everything

Note to self: be less efficient on Fridays so Mondays don’t suck so bad. I have nothing to do today thus far expect 1 item and my EPDP (employee performance & development plan). I hate the EPDP. Some a-hole got paid a decent wage to spend over a year developing the layout and program for this online atrocity that is about as user friendly as a tampon made out of thumb tacks...it really is lame and no one refers to it EVER so it’s a waste of time to do for staff, managers and whoever else is involved. I think they had bigger plans for the EPDP but as most things in gov’t it didn’t pan out.

BUS RIDING MUSINGS: There is the most beautiful creature riding my morning bus at the moment...he is early 20’s and stupidly hawt. He has really long dark blonde hair, rocker boy attire, headphones...appears to be going to work in the AM (always a good thing)...he is the new highlight of my bus riding in the mornings. I stare at him a lot...he probably thinks I am his long lost birth mother or something. :\ Sometimes I wish Andrea was on the bus with me so I could tell her I have imaginary dibs on him!
There is a small little man who is on my bus sometimes...not often THANK GAWDDDDDDDDD...I want to punch this man in the throat. Not just b/c he looks like a crazed asian serial killer but b/c he blankly stares at me sometimes (it isn’t just me, I think he would do the same to whoever sat across from him) and it makes me feel violent and creeped right the fuck out. He isn’t staring like “oooh me wants to fuck you” stare....no no no this is that blank endless “im a creepy guy and wanna stab you in 88 places” kinda stare. I nearly yelled at him the other day b/c he stared at me for an excessive amt of time from 3 feet away and I was on the brink of losing my shit on him. WHY DO PPL HAVE TO BE SO EFFED UP!?

END OF BUS RIDING MUSINGS.

Lunch with Alex on Sunday was good. She is officially nuts though. Her fiancé Kelsey is a Zombie Fiend like Graeme so I think a Zombie Board Game night is in the works. I can only imagine the retardation that night will produce.

I managed to not make any phone calls this weekend BUT did manage to get laundry done so that in itself is amazing! Went with Donna to see Ryan McMahon play on Saturday at the Spiral Cafe (fuck I hate that cafe) – he was fab as always. Sigh. GO RYAN!

OHHHH!!!!! My kid got that cool job she was gunning for! WOOOHOOOO! Thank gawd after paying for a Criminal record check and the Food Safe course it would have sucked to not get it! WELL DONE MISS AYLA! xo

Mmmmm Titty Raisins

I quite often find things in my bra....popcorn, raisins, nuts, crumbs, etc. It is pretty typical...yesterday i was eating raisins at work and one went down and I couldn’t find it and wasn’t wanting to do a FULL INVESTIGATION since I was at work and its moments like that when a co-worker stealthily walks past your desk and it appears you are GROPING yourself. I thought it may have hit the ground and bounced out of my sight too.....I forgot all about it until about 8 pm last night while sprawled on the couch –I dug for it and THERE SHE WAS!! A salty moist and warm raisin...couldn’t get Graeme to eat it...but we did discuss how I would like to make something with it and give it to someone I don’t like to eat just for the snickering factor.

Watching the 2nd season of “THE IT CROWD” currently and it makes me laughhhhh omfg...I love it. (ADELE A COPY IS COMING FOR YOU!) Graeme also found the US version of the show so that should be interesting to watch and see if it’s even half as funny and clever as the UK version I am in love with. Then I think it will be a Father Ted Marathon...I am due to re-watch Father Ted....

I can’t wait until my kid is a grown up...my gawd I grow weary of the consistent shitty treatment from her...which I know I should not take personally but when you invest every waking moment into someone’s safety and well being it’s a little fucking difficult to detach in such a manner – I do not possess the ability to do that. I just don’t. It’s the get the fuck out of my life and leave me alone I can live my own life and don’t need you hovering being a pain in my fucking ass shit that gets me the most...Ohhh pardon me...you sure fucking manage to PUT UP WITH ME JUST FINE when I am doling out $ for FOOD SAFE and other such needed shit...ohhh yeah then she can treat me like a human being but if there is nothing to be gained – I am a pustule of grossness in her life. It is like being in an abusive marriage I think...to a degree...I am the 1st one to admit I over-think about a lot of shit where she is concerned b/c my own experiences as a teenager/kid are still very close to my emotional surface and I am horrified shit will be repeated inadvertently so I am always so fucking analytical...it annoys me. Ugg. It shall pass as per usual I am sure...until next time and I will post about how fucking pissed off I am again about the exact same gawd damn shit I have little to no control over....

Poor little Sidney is sick sick sick...his birthday yesterday was a bust...he has a terrible barf flu and has been generally unwell...it sounds pretty serious for such a little guy...I don’t think Ayla ever barfed for a week straight b4 THANK GAWD id have lost my gawd damn mind!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CARA TODAY – she is 2...and im sure her mom Connie has some special little wingding planned....and CAKE! Mmmmm cake. I could eat a whole white cake with chocolate icing right now...I COULD!!!!!!!!!! Omfg I could. Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm cake...cake is my friend...it is a friend to my mouth but not to my ass.

It is so quiet in here today...ugh. And slow...I was so bored I read through someone’s adoption folder and found it very interesting that the couple make about 20K each per year but they have 300K in the bank, property in India and 4 other accounts that total about 100K – and ZERO debt with a house worth 800K. Ummm HELLO!!!!!!!!!!! How did ya manage that!???!?!?!?! I am in awe of other ppls financial lives...mainly b/c mines so fucking lame and limited I guess...I remember asking ppl as a kid how much money they made and my mom and step dad always scolded me for asking...I didn’t understand what the big deal was then or now really...ppl are so weird about bucking up that info...

Ryan McMahon is here this weekend – WOOHOO - ....will be nice to see him – this will be the 1s time as a dad! Ohh I wonder if Cathleen will come too and bring the baby??? Hmmmmmmmmm I better ask although I am sure she won’t I can dream.

Got a letter and goodies from my Aunt Isobel yesterday...she is the sister of my supposed biological father...I send her pictures of Ayla every year and write a few times a year to keep in touch...she sent Ayla a belated 16th b’day card with 50 bucks in it so that was more than generous considering we have never met before. The letter was full of bad news sadly...lots of death in the Chalmers family in the last few years...a few of my aunts and uncles I never met passed away along with my grandfather I never met...etc...I don’t know any of these ppl so it isn’t particularly emotional at all for me but I do feel a sense of loss in the fact that it’s just adding on to the pile of stuff I will never ever know about that side of the family. When my grandparents died I immediately had 384758937589374 questions for them and knowing that they were gone and never would be able to answer them really impacted me...it was all lost. It is like that when anyone dies, they take a lot of personal insight and info with them and as a person who is a gatherer of sorts I find this most disturbing.

Shawn is off to Cranbrook...exploring a VERY important job opportunity that would take him there for a year or 2 if he decides to do it...while I am happy 4 him I am also mortified...selfishly so. ::pout::

I want lunch...LUNCH!!! I have been wanting lunch for a gawd damn hour already......

Not So Lucky

Not a bad day yesterday....saw AVATAR again with Tracey & Adrienne....fuckin love that movie...then went to Donna's....admired Dan's bbq sauce burn on his face.....it looks like face herpes the poor bastard....some bbq sauce got on his face and it was so hot he couldn't even feel it burning til it was too late.....gawdddddddddd....sick! Then we headed downtown and went to this Vietnamese place..I was sure to not order anything with animal stomach in it....what we did eat was quite good and I will def. go back!

Then we wandered around a bit before going to Lucky to see Start With the Cobra...fuckin love them...especially now that a certain member is no longer a member....the 1st band The Role Models were cool....didn't mind them at all...local guys.....2nd band from Vancouver can please go back there and never return to this island thank you very much....it was like watching an awkward 1st time stripper...painful. Kill me now kinda shit....but then the mighty Cobra was on....omfg they truly kicked our asses....I want my uncle Jimmy to see them!

Then when that was all over we are walking home and about 5 mins into the walk I realize I have lost my cell phone....I know exactly the moment when I did too....I checked the time right b4 we left and thought I slid the phone back into its pocked on my new bag only my new bag is TRICKY!!!! It is actually I larger bag and then a smaller one attached so down the middle of the 2 it FEELS like a pocket BUT it goes right through, no bottom....I think I am a douche and slid it in there and it fell right out the bottom somewhere....so it is on the floor at Lucky, in the dark....and I dunno if anyone will find it....I may have to trip down there tonight if I havent heard anything...I will keep calling it and hope someone wonders why Pearl Jam's BLACK is playing off in the distance....of course once they have music on im fucked b/c no one will hear it....worse case scenario I get another one off www.usedvictoria.com for 50 bucks and carry on I guess....and lose all my good ring tones gawd dammit!

So yeah...check out the picture of the native carving...its got a blow job mouth and a vagina! haaaaaa!

Today is laundry day...and Amanda & Erin are coming for a visit to use my computer and dazzle me with their humor and lesbianism...I wonder how many times I will say something is gay and they will pummel me...?

Ryan McMahon has some new tunes up on his FB Fan Page....fuck...that boy has just gotta make it...I am not sure what I will do otherwise.

sunday night amber yumminess

One of my favorite smells is amber resin...i have my house-smeller-upper out....and im burning AMBER GLOW - the amber resin inspired but sadly discontinued Body Shop fragrance oil...Mmmmmmmm so good...I am hording it...making it last for years!

Ryan McMahon sent me a little demo/redo of one of my favorite songs of his ~Bitch List~ He did it live at the last show and I FUCKING loved it...so this new version is very spanish guitar oriented and its really effing cool....sigh!

I nearly choked to death on my own spit in the shower this morning...it was fairly dramatic...I kept thinking how it would SUCK so hard to fall and bash my skull and die naked in the tub...and no one would know that it wasn't really from a fall but from the spit choking.
Then I read about Brittney Murphy dieing today and she was in the shower around the same time I was for shits sake! Think it is connected? How cosmic!

I am grooving to some good tunes tonight....mellow tunes...some Ryan McMahon, Matt Good, Holly McNarland, Tori Amos, Milla Jovovich, Alanis, Natalie Imbriglia...yes thats right Natalie Imbruglia....shut up.

I woke up feeling sick this morning...gawd dammit it if I am gunna be sick I need to be sick NOW!!!!! not in 10 days....

back

Nov 21 2009

Wee seester is gone...back to stupid Jasper...leaving me here with an ingrate teen who wouldnt piss on me if I was on fire....rude!

Great week...was nice to have a whole week to just hang out with kim and rob...{the cat just shit and its making the paint peel off the wall and I think my hair is falling out}...the cat will miss rob, they bonded heavily, she will skulk around depressed now for weeks...I do wonder how many times rob will have to stop to poop on the long drive home to jasper...I will text kim and ask her to count for me...just out of curiosity.

Kel & Mel will be here today at some point...from PR to come do the Ryan McMahon evening show and then see VonBones after at the Cambie...should be a fun night.

4 garbage bags of too fat for me clothes I have purged...that is what I did yesterday while kim and rob were at the butterfly place...lots more room in my closet now... WOOT! WOOT!

I am shitting the bed a little about xmas...I am completely unprepared for the 1st time in my life. This is a weird feeling...I am only buying for Ayla this year and I cannot wait until shes a few yrs older and xmas will then FINALLY become a thing of the past as far as obligatory bullshit goes...I look fwd to stockings only. Oh the bliss of no xmas BS! I would like to sometime travel somewhere at xmas thats very NON-CHRISTMAS-like and just forget about it entirely.

NEW MOON is out....weeeeeeeee...yes im a gaylord and I am dieing to see the new Twilight movie....yes I am 39....piss off. I AM COMING FOR YOU EDWARDDDDDD...

I see some fans are pissing Matt Good off again...this is not new, its fairly predictable...this is where him doing no wrong in my mind kicks in (thanks Kelly haha)...
fans who whinge about playlists and such should STFU and go to a Nickelback concert.
The End. (and anyone who knows anything knows While We Were Hunting Rabbits is NOT an option live....assfaces)

I think I need to go back to bed now......

WOOT!

November 12 2009

I came to work 45 mins early today. I had to bring in my new monkey attire for the POSSIBLE interview b/c gawd forbid I wear it all day! It is hanging in my cubicle...if I get this other job....BIG IF as I am sure there are others in the running with skills like mine (I gotz wicked skillz) – if I got this job it would involve having to be dressed well every day...which is slightly mortifying. What is more mortifying is the SHMOOZING requirement. My days of blissfully ignoring all ppl around me, MP3 blaring in my head would be over I think...sad but...I would be so busy I don’t think I would care much...I crave being busy again, being purposeful...

At The Bay yesterday I misted myself with some yummy overpriced perfume and today it still smells so I am in SMELL HEAVEN...MmmMMmMmmMmmm...stupid looking bottle though.

Great visit with Kori, Cedar & Mary yesterday...Mary attempted to nurse my cat...my cat is pretty neurotic as it is...she doesn’t enjoy being picked up and has a very hard time with eye contact...well Mary is a Cat Molester and the cat was hilariously tortured the whole time which I found quite enjoyable...Cedar is funny...I swear to gawd when he says “GOOOOOD COOOOKIN’!” a little part of my blackened heart pulsates and turns pink again! Mary also makes a killer tuna fish sandwich I must say...so for all your fancy catering needs please call her! Hooked Kori up with some new tunes so the day over all was damn sweet!

Hot Donna & I plastered the town with Ryan McMahon posters...wish we had WAY MORE but...such is life. Will see if I can get some more...really want a good turn out for him this time for a damn change...so all u locals prepare to be annoyed by my insistence you attend...we had a good afternoon til I killed her with my perfume stench...Sorry Donna....don’t die of an asthma attack please.

The Wildfire Bakery here on Quadra has the outside of its bldg dedicated to art; basically they let artists do murals of a graffiti nature on either side of the bldg of whatever they want...well apparently the current one depicts pigs in cop uniforms and ppl handcuffed in Olympic ring hand cuffs...awesome...really want to go look at it and get some pictures but of course there is an uproar...ppl are complaining...writing letters and making calls saying its atrocious...Ummmm, how about you focus your RAGE and letter writing skills on something WORTHWHILE YOU ASSHOLES and not a piece of art work you happen to not agree with? Pick your battles...there are hungry ppl in your town with nowhere to live and u have a Premier who is raping the shit out of the province and u decide to be outraged over a fucking painting? Idiocy.

Will go get pics of this ATROCITY tomorrow I think.

Donna saw the Misfits last night...said they are way over-rated....but the Jolts kicked ass.

Gawd it is gunna be busy as shit the next 10 days starting Saturday...Sushi day with Shawn & Phil, Aunty Pam, Mags and Sidlet are coming that afternoon for a visit too...then my sister Kim & Rob arrive Sat evening for the week! On Tuesday we will head up island for an adventure and catch the 3 pm ferry to Powell River to go visit/socialize with the family and friends for the night....then head back down island Wednesday, visit with Pam and Jim....then I think Kim and Rob go home Friday or Saturday, not sure...then Saturday evening is the Ryan McMahon show and VonBones afterwards...SUNDAY is quiet resting day and Monday Guy & Donna will be staying over b/c they are coming down to see Billy Bragg...then life will be quiet, still and somewhat boring again...til December :o)

I haven’t seen my sister in so long it is gunna be great...lots of laughing...

Ohhh just got a call...interview is Monday!! WOOHOO!!!

fuck this day

Oct 19 2008 - Monday

I am so tired I could fall asleep in my own shoe right now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN McMAHON!!!

Thanks for getting yourself born so you could make fine music for me b/c it is without a doubt the reason you were born after all...to cater to my music whims and obsessions....

Last night I watched Menace II Society...on Z's recommendation....yeah its gangsta alright...although I was too distracted by the plot and the impending doom to really pick up any gangster lingo...it is pretty intense and by the end I felt demoralized and hopeless...
I so wanted that kid to get outta dodge...gawddammit!!!!
The fact that the plot parallels real peoples lives is mind boggling...I am the whitest girl ever...I am the Dempster Sesame White Bread Girl...can't get whiter...couldn't be less gangster if I tried...I am staying the fuck outta Compton on my travels to LA...I'd get shot just for looking like a douche. Killed on account of being a douche. Awesome.

I am however in awe of the giant bottles of beer they drank in the 90's. I dunno why but *packaging* in other places is fascinating to me...even from the US to Canada the differences are so obvious...

Ryan McMahon ~ Lights Out New Orleans

April 8 2008 Victoria BC
Union Pacific Coffee

I am not dead....

sometimes it amazes me that Shawn and I took the same college program...mind you, he was smart BEFORE he started so I think that helps hahaha

the new computer is lovely and zippy fast...finally got all the kinks ironed out and have nearly gotten over my hatred for Internet Explorer 7...note: by removing the update to IE 7 it fucks up a lot of other shit so I dont recommend it haha

work right now is POOP....utter poop! right when I was all at ease with new ppl in place, trained and ready to roll one of them was offered a job for more $ so he is gone as of Monday...dont blame him at all, shit if someone offered me a less stressful job for 4.00 more an hour I would consider bolting as well.

its just a drag bc he was a perfect fit (and good eye candy 4 the work environment) and was gunna go places...

now....Oct 1 I lose my beloved Cynthia and Angela...and am getting Brie and Helen but im still down a person.

God.....does it ever fucking end...? I always stay at my jobs a long time....wtf...do I have to start drugging them at work to make them stay? haha Oh the joys of management.

Thank god I have a raise due soon....that will shut me up.

I havethe w/e off but I have to go in to interview someone and then since im there im just gunna hang out and do some shit since I have to take a drawer damn near ALLLLL MONTHHH OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I can not tell u how i hate taking a dwr and dealing with those buttfuck assholes....my gawd.

Moving on....rant over.

Schools back in...Ayla is over the moon...she got the good teacher and it only took her 1 day to get over the fact all her friends are in a different class...she rationalized it by figuring out since next year they will all be parting ways to go to different highschools maybe its a good idea they start the split NOW. awwwwwwwwwww

She has been pretty good as of late, which is good b/c I havent had the patience as of late to deal with her BS self haha
Went and saw Ryan McMahon Thursday night....what a trooper, sick and rotten and still sounded fabulous and put on a great show...I am always embarrassed by the Victoria turnout he gets....its always so lame...if I didnt drag ppl with me and the groupies didnt show it would have been an empty house....

the opening band LOKI's TOYBOX was really cool as well. It was there 1st show so no one knew what to expect but it was a groovy sound...punky/folky goodness.

My beloved bunion is killing me today after last night...im really gibbled today...10 hrs of standing and rushing about is no good 4 this lard asses feet. Must get new shoes....good shoes...the ones good 4 cripples.

I woke up this morning and ate a handful of tylenol to get the day off to a good start....must rid myself of this headache and foot gibbledness b4 i get going or the day will be shit...

We have Niamh here for the weekend...her folks are away...funny to watch her and Ayla together....last night they were up late with me and singing along to music on Much Music and it cracked me up...

I was on a BBQ rampage....smokies, weiners, chicken, steak, zucchini, asperagus, mushrooms....

LOVE IT...omfg...im gunna go broke buying propane....

sadly...the damn thing doesnt get as HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT as I want it to.....but itll do for this year....maybe at the end of summer next year ill upgrade.

I havent read blogs in FOREVERRRRRRRRR.....gawd...I gotta catch up!